I have a major problem with writing at night. I spend my days with my mind dormant, completely asleep, gone away from me, no good for use. Yet once it is time for me to close my eyes and dream wonderful dreams my brain wakes up and whispers loudly at me, “Hey, hey you, hey, hey, hey Tiana, wakey wakey! Hey! You kinda need to write. You really, really need to write. HEY! Write right now dam it! GOOOO!”
Finally, I have to listen to myself and I end up on my phone typing away till my thumbs become numb at midnight. This highly randevous happens even if I wrote earlier on my laptop like a normal person. So basically, every, single, night, I sit on my chair, my thumbs bleeding, my head screaming, and my imagination churning.
Depending on what I’m writing, I will often finally end up sleeping at 1 in the morning. Which, would not be so bad, except, a lot of the time I won’t finish what I wanted to finish because my phone battery is always at 20% when I start typing. This means that if I am writing a blog post (ex. I am writing one right now. Battery life is at 14%. The time is 11:53 p.m.) I have to rush to finish it so I can publish it before my phone dies. (The issue of writing blog posts on my phone will be addressed later)
At the same time, I am working on what I like to call my nightly imagination generator. Which at the same time is not always rational. Sometimes I will write something only to read it the next day and wonder, why?!
Sometimes though, my nightly imagination generatior is a genius and I end up writing much better pieces than I ever thought I could write, but I cannot continue to invest in a faulty system. The conundrum is that this problem is chronic and I sometimes rather enjoy it, especially when I write poetry, but I need to develop a better habit.
The other issue is school and my tendency to procrastinate. I will finish assignments during the day when my brain is on academic proper grammar writing mode. That part of my brain emotionally exhausts me so I end up reading or watching videos to gain back a bit of happiness and relaxation. Then I do everything in my power to not write (I call this intentional unintentional forgetting) till by the time I ‘remember’ what I should be doing it is 12:00 a.m.
This is a problem that I am not quite certain I am prepaired to fix. I need guidence. What do you suggest?
-Till next time!