Most Anticipated July 2017 YA Releases 


Every month I find there to be some amazing YA Releases that I want to share and scream about to the world. So here are my most anticipated July YA Releases! 

July 1st 

The Revenge by Hannah Jayne 

From the author of Truly, Madly, Deadly, The Escape, and Twisted, comes another edge of your seat thriller sure to keep you guessing until the last page.
After a bad breakup, Tony’s ex-girlfriend Hope embarrasses him in front of the whole school and spreads vicious rumors. Tony is devastated and in a moment of revenge, he makes the location on her phone public. But a week later, when Hope calls Tony and begs him to stop the prank, he hears a shriek and a car door slamming. Then the call is dropped.
Too late, Tony realizes that he may have put Hope’s life in danger. Can he trace Hope’s movements and save her before times runs out?

So previously this month I was saying that the one genre I’m uncomfortable with read is the thriller and that I’ve been wanted to read some so that I get over that weird fear. So the second I heard about The Revenge I knew I had to check it out. So yes, I’m excited for this heart pounding ya thriller! 

July 4th

The Bakersville Dozen by Kristina McBride

Product Description

YOU HAVE FOUR DAYS TO LOCATE FIVE TREASURED TROPHIES. BREAK THE RULES AND YOU ALL DIE. HAPPY HUNTING! 
Back in September, the town of Bakersville, Ohio made national news when a video went viral featuring thirteen of the high school’s elite in compromising positions. Now it’s May, and every month since the “Bakersville Dozen” made their infamous appearance on the national stage, one girl has gone missing. Officials are no closer to identifying the criminal. 
Bailey, “Like a Virgin” Holzman is getting really fed up with the scrutiny. She just wants to enjoy the rest of her senior year and have an epic summer before heading off to college. So when she discovers a note in her locker on the last day of school inviting her on a scavenger hunt, she thinks it’s just a sweet surprise from her boyfriend trying to cheer her up. 
But following the clue leads her, instead, to the first official casualty. And another sinister envelope. The killer is close, and it could be anyone. Even the people Bailey’s always trusted most—her best friend, her perfect boyfriend, or the boy-next door she’s always pined for. 
With the clock ticking, she faces a terrifying choice: play the game by the killer’s rules—follow the clues, tell no one, and no cops—for a chance to save the rest of the missing girls, or risk becoming the next grisly victim. 
The latest heart-pounding thriller from Kristina McBride blends elements of Gone Girl, Pretty Little Liars, and Stephen King into a story that will leave you guessing until the final pages. 

I’m two for two with the ya thrillers and this one sounds so cool! This is the kind of premise that I am down for. It feels like it’s going to be like a great lmn film that you don’t want to end! 

The Disappearances by Emily Bain Murphy

What if the ordinary things in life suddenly…disappeared?

  

Aila Quinn’s mother, Juliet, has always been a mystery: vibrant yet guarded, she keeps her secrets beyond Aila’s reach. When Juliet dies, Aila and her younger brother Miles are sent to live in Sterling, a rural town far from home—and the place where Juliet grew up. 
Sterling is a place with mysteries of its own. A place where the experiences that weave life together—scents of flowers and food, reflections from mirrors and lakes, even the ability to dream—vanish every seven years. 
No one knows what caused these “Disappearances,” or what will slip away next. But Sterling always suspected that Juliet Quinn was somehow responsible—and Aila must bear the brunt of their blame while she follows the chain of literary clues her mother left behind.  
As the next Disappearance nears, Aila begins to unravel the dual mystery of why the Disappearances happen and who her mother truly was. One thing is clear: Sterling isn’t going to hold on to anyone’s secrets for long before it starts giving them up. 

I have heard amazing things about this book and I’m I am in desperate need of reading a ya horror and this one sounds so good!

Words on Bathroom Walls by Julia Walton

Fans of More Happy Than Not, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and It’s Kind of a Funny Story will cheer for Adam as he struggles with schizophrenia in this brilliantly honest and unexpectedly funny debut. 

  

Adam has just been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He sees and hears people who aren’t there: Rebecca, a beautiful girl who understands him; the Mob Boss, who harasses him; and Jason, the naked guy who’s unfailingly polite. It should be easy to separate the real from the not real, but Adam can’t. 

  

Still, there’s hope. As Adam starts fresh at a new school, he begins a drug trial that helps him ignore his visions. Suddenly everything seems possible, even love. When he meets Maya, a fiercely intelligent girl, he desperately wants to be the great guy that she thinks he is. But then the miracle drug begins to fail, and Adam will do anything to keep Maya from discovering his secret. 

This sounds like such an emotional take on mental-illness and I haven’t read a ya with the mc having schizophrenia before. Plus the cover somehow calls to me. 

All the Ways the World can End by Abigail Sher 

All the Ways the World can End by Abby Sher is at times heart wrenching while at others hilarious. Lenny (short for Eleanor) feels like the world is about to end. Her best friend is moving to San Francisco and her dad is dying. To cope with her stress Lenny is making a list of all the ways the world can end―designer pathogens, blood moon prophecies, alien invasion―and stockpiling supplies in a bunker in the backyard. Then she starts to develop feelings for her dad’s very nice young doctor―and she thinks he may have feelings for her too. Spoiler alert: he doesn’t. But a more age-appropriate love interest might. In a time of complete uncertainty, one thing’s for sure: Lenny’s about to see how everything is ending and beginning. All at the same time.

This book feels so cute to me and in some ways rather nerdy. Something tells me that I would love this book if I read it. 

July 11th

The Art of Starving by Sam J. Miller 

“Funny, haunting, beautiful, relentless and powerful, The Art of Starving is a classic in the making.”—Book Riot
Matt hasn’t eaten in days. His stomach stabs and twists inside, pleading for a meal, but Matt won’t give in. The hunger clears his mind, keeps him sharp—and he needs to be as sharp as possible if he’s going to find out just how Tariq and his band of high school bullies drove his sister, Maya, away.
Matt’s hardworking mom keeps the kitchen crammed with food, but Matt can resist the siren call of casseroles and cookies because he has discovered something: the less he eats the more he seems to have . . . powers. The ability to see things he shouldn’t be able to see. The knack of tuning in to thoughts right out of people’s heads. Maybe even the authority to bend time and space.
So what is lunch, really, compared to the secrets of the universe?
Matt decides to infiltrate Tariq’s life, then use his powers to uncover what happened to Maya. All he needs to do is keep the hunger and longing at bay. No problem. But Matt doesn’t realize there are many kinds of hunger…and he isn’t in control of all of them.

A magical realism novel that Includes a boy with an eating disorder and a whole bunch of emotional heartache. I NEED this book! It sounds too good to pass up! 

July 18th 

The Library of Fates by Aditi Khorana

A romantic coming-of-age fantasy tale steeped in Indian folklore, perfect for fans of The Star-Touched Queen and The Wrath and the Dawn 
No one is entirely certain what brings the Emperor Sikander to Shalingar. Until now, the idyllic kingdom has been immune to his many violent conquests. To keep the visit friendly, Princess Amrita has offered herself as his bride, sacrificing everything—family, her childhood love, and her freedom—to save her people. But her offer isn’t enough. 
The palace is soon under siege, and Amrita finds herself a fugitive, utterly alone but for an oracle named Thala, who was kept by Sikander as a slave and managed to escape amid the chaos. With nothing and no one else to turn to, Amrita and Thala are forced to rely on one another. But while Amrita feels responsible for her kingdom and sets out to warn her people, the newly free Thala has no such ties. She encourages Amrita to go on a quest to find the fabled Library of All Things, where it is possible for each of them to reverse their fates. To go back to before Sikander took everything from them.  
Stripped of all that she loves, caught between her rosy past and an unknown future, will Amrita be able to restore what was lost, or does another life—and another love—await?

I will always have a need to read up-and-coming ya fantasies and fantasy books in general. An Indian fantasy with some awesome romance makes this book irresistible to me. 

The Special Ones by Em Bailey 

Esther is one of the Special Ones: four young spiritual guides who live in a remote farmhouse under the protection of a mysterious cult leader. He watches them around the clock, ready to punish them if they forget who they are—and all the while, broadcasting their lives to eager followers on the outside. 

     Esther knows that if she stops being Special, he will “renew” her. Nobody knows what happens to the Special Ones who are taken away from the farm for renewal, but Esther fears the worst. Like an actor caught up in an endless play, she must keep up the performance if she wants to survive long enough to escape. 

One thing that really interests me is cults. Something about the mystery and the dangerous nature of them capture my interest. So this book is really high on my radar for this month. 

July 25th

Daughter of the Burning City by Amanda Foody

A darkly irresistible new fantasy set in the infamous Gomorrah Festival, a traveling carnival of debauchery that caters to the strangest of dreams and desires. 
Sixteen-year-old Sorina has spent most of her life within the smoldering borders of the Gomorrah Festival. Yet even among the many unusual members of the traveling circus-city, Sorina stands apart as the only illusion-worker born in hundreds of years. This rare talent allows her to create illusions that others can see, feel and touch, with personalities all their own. Her creations are her family, and together they make up the cast of the Festival’s Freak Show. 
But no matter how lifelike they may seem, her illusions are still just that—illusions, and not truly real. Or so she always believed…until one of them is murdered. 
Desperate to protect her family, Sorina must track down the culprit and determine how they killed a person who doesn’t actually exist. Her search for answers leads her to the self-proclaimed gossip-worker Luca. Their investigation sends them through a haze of political turmoil and forbidden romance, and into the most sinister corners of the Festival. But as the killer continues murdering Sorina’s illusions one by one, she must unravel the horrifying truth before all her loved ones disappear.

A fantasy and carnival mixed in one… day no more.. I want this book and I want it in my hands ASAP! 

Little Monsters by Kara Thomas 

For fans of Pretty Little Liars, Little Monsters is a new psychological thriller, from the author of The Darkest Corners, about appearances versus reality and the power of manipulation amongst teenage girls. 
Kacey is the new girl in Broken Falls. When she moved in with her father, she stepped into a brand-new life. A life with a stepbrother, a stepmother, and strangest of all, an adoring younger half sister. 
Kacey’s new life is eerily charming compared with the wild highs and lows of the old one she lived with her volatile mother. And everyone is so nice in Broken Falls—she’s even been welcomed into a tight new circle of friends. Bailey and Jade invite her to do everything with them. 
Which is why it’s so odd when they start acting distant. And when they don’t invite her to the biggest party of the year, it doesn’t exactly feel like an accident. 
But Kacey will never be able to ask, because Bailey never makes it home from that party. Suddenly, Broken Falls doesn’t seem so welcoming after all—especially once everyone starts looking to the new girl for answers. 
Kacey is about to learn some very important lessons: Sometimes appearances can be deceiving. Sometimes when you’re the new girl, you shouldn’t trust anyone. 

I seem to have a lot of thrillers on this list… it seems ya has more thrillers in the world then I thought… this one sounds like such a cool psychological thriller that would keep my at the edge of my seat. 

The Gallery of Unfinished Girls by Lauren Karcz 

A beautiful and evocative look at identity and creativity, The Gallery of Unfinished Girls is a stunning debut in magical realism. Perfect for fans of The Walls Around Us and Bone Gap.
Mercedes Moreno is an artist. At least, she thinks she could be, even though she hasn’t been able to paint anything worthwhile in the past year.
Her lack of inspiration might be because her abuela is in a coma. Or the fact that Mercedes is in love with her best friend, Victoria, but is too afraid to admit her true feelings.
Despite Mercedes’s creative block, art starts to show up in unexpected ways. A piano appears on her front lawn one morning, and a mysterious new neighbor invites Mercedes to paint with her at the Red Mangrove Estate.
At the Estate, Mercedes can create in ways she hasn’t ever before. But Mercedes can’t take anything out of the Estate, including her new-found clarity. Mercedes can’t live both lives forever, and ultimately she must choose between this perfect world of art and truth and a much messier reality.

A lesbian Latinx mc mixed in with an artistic magical realism novel makes me so excited! I wish I could have read this book for pride month it sounds too cool!

Thanks for reading! What books for this list are you most excited for? What is your favorite cover from the books listed? 

-Till next time!

The Book Raven Recommends: A Summer Ashore 


I have no shame… this will be the third post that is about this book in four days and well… I just love it so sue me. So the swashbuckling romantic ya fantasy I will be recommending you is….. 

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Song of the Current!!! 

Caroline Oresteia is destined for the river. For generations, her family has been called by the river god, who has guided their wherries on countless voyages throughout the Riverlands. At seventeen, Caro has spent years listening to the water, ready to meet her fate. But the river god hasn’t spoken her name yet—and if he hasn’t by now, there’s a chance he never will.
Caro decides to take her future into her own hands when her father is arrested for refusing to transport a mysterious crate. By agreeing to deliver it in exchange for his release, Caro finds herself caught in a web of politics and lies, with dangerous pirates after the cargo—an arrogant courier with a secret—and without the river god to help her. With so much at stake, Caro must choose between the life she always wanted and the one she never could have imagined for herself.
From debut author Sarah Tolcser comes an immersive and romantic fantasy set along the waterways of a magical world with a headstrong heroine determined to make her mark. 

Here is 10 reasons why you should read this book: 

1. The Aesthetics


This book is somehow incredibly aestheticly pleasing, without a single actual picture to make you feel that way. It’s simply beautiful. 

2. Hate-to-Love done right 

So many romances that are hate-to-love sometimes come off as arrogant or even abusive relationships and this one is not like that at all. It’s done well and I feel like both parties grow a lot as people as the story progresses. 

3. The Banter 

I love me some grade-A banter and this book had plenty of it. I was smiling from ear to ear while reading this book for so many of these moments. It made me feel so happy! 

4. So many female leads! 

This book has a lot of girlpower living in it and I was living for it! From an all women manned ship, to Caro’s world class negotiator mom, to Fee the frogwoman who knows how to pilot a ship. There were so many female characters to look up to and admire. 

5. The Magic 

Yes there is magic in this book. No I didn’t know about it before I started reading. And yes it made me love this book infinitely more. 

6. The Fights 

There is some amazing fight scenes in this novel and they made my heart beat at a million miles a minute. The intensity was palpable and all too real. 

7. The Characters 

The characters in this book are so real. They all have a spark to them that make them very 3-D and I felt like I could imagine them all so vividly in my head. 

8. The Gods 

The gods in this book add this whole other elemant of fate vs. where you choose to go and it added a lot of intrigue to the plot. (It also helped that the gods in here have their own sense of humor) 

9. Pirate flavor to a non-traditional high seas fantasy 

This book is all about the river and the main character is 100% not a pirate nor does she fall in love with one, but the watery action and the fights between boats make this book seem very pirateesque indeed. 

10. It will suck you in and never let you go

I read this book in a single day. I could not put it down. All I wanted to do was live in it and see how the characters would fare at the end. It was all SO GOOD! 

Thank you for reading! Again I implore you to go out there and buy this book and read it! It is not one to pass by. I’m so in love with it. I just want to fangirl over it for the rest of my life…. READ IT! 

-Till next time!

(Is the Recommends spelt wrong in the thumbnail I made… maybe… have I failed? To my family… yes… to myself.. not at all)

The World We Live In


I haven’t felt like writing for many days. My heart hasn’t been in it. I could not understand what has been happening in the world around me, but then, I have just had my eyes open to the cruelty of a world that has been there all along. There has always been struggles, humanity against humanity, since the first time humans walked this earth. I only have to look around to see how we treat one another based on the look of our bodies, the hue of our skin, the strength of our beliefs; I am sickened by it.

All my life I have been an outsider. As a child, I had very few friends and even than I knew that I really couldn’t call them true ‘friends’. I played kick ball, hand ball, and enjoyed going on the monkey bars. Yet, I was asked by boys why I would ever play kickball, I was a girl (who loved pink) and seeing me there just didn’t seem right. Hand ball was even worse because I was often shoved out of line, but I stayed because I enjoyed playing, and because I knew even then that I had just as much right to play as anyone else.

As I got older, recess and playing outside was no longer something I could do. So, I would take walks on my own around the school yard after I ate. I didn’t speak much to anyone back then. The only time I spoke was in the classroom.

Now I am seen as outsider of my own family, but in truth I have always been seen that way. Every time I call my mom “Mom.” I see people look in confusion wondering how that could ever be so. All people see is the blonde hair, blue eyed, light skinned girl standing with a brown haired, brown eyed, darker skinned woman who looks too different to have a relation. What people don’t look at is the bond.

Being an outsider in these ways is not so bad. I know so many people who have it so much worse. I haven’t felt the bite of being belittled for how I look, or the pain of physical violence because of my religion, I haven’t been hurt, not really, but I can’t stand for the injustice of those who have.

For instance, while I was in high school, I was eating lunch at the tables outside with a group of people I had seen as my ‘friends’ and there was two spanish men fixing the window above where our table was. One of the boys sitting with me Began to make derogatory comments about the workers being undocumented that angered me to no end. To make matters worse, he looked at me like (because I was white) I was expected to agree. Angry, I yelled at him and I left. I couldn’t stand to continue to eat at the same table as someone who said the things he did. This was one of the first instances that made me hate my own race. How could it be that I was expected to hate a certain kind of people just because my own skin was a certain color? Why should I be expected to hate anyone? To treat anyone with hate? To verbally abuse someone for the social constraints others have placed on them? That it would be ok?

I have never cared about the race someone was born into. Race is simply what culture and people you were born into. I could have just as easily been born Chinese. I could have easily born in any other country. I could have had any kind of family. All the possibilities are endless. I do not fault anyone for the family they were born into. I do not fault anyone for what they believe in. I do not fault anyone for what gender they are or what sexual preference one has. To me, humans are humans, we all have our struggles, we all have our dreams. I am no better than anyone else. The only thing I fault people for is when they treat another with hatred. When someone acts in order to harm another and makes them feel less than dirt I feel so much anger. I want to act to combat it.

This is what I want to do with my writing. I want to use it to act. To change the way things have been originally thought. To get people to think. To inspire others to do a bit of good. I haven’t felt like writing these past few days, but I am writing now. My heart is fully invested. I may not understand why society has created the hatred and pain that it has, but I want to be a lyrical force against it. Actions may speak louder than words, but the pen is mightier than the sword and I will fight will all my might. For the people and the beauty of the world that I believe in.
Thank you for reading. I hope you enjoyed this post. I had written it a long time ago and I don’t know why, but I felt afraid to publish it. I hope that my story here has spoken to you in some way. It would bring my heart so much joy to feel like this has made some difference, no matter how small. 

-Till next time! 

Song of the Current: A Review 

Song of the Current by Sarah Tolcser 

My Rating: 5 Sparkling Stars! 

Publisher: Bloomsbury 

Published: June 6th, 2017

Received: Giveaway from the author!

Purchase: Amazon

Synopsis: 

Caroline Oresteia is destined for the river. For generations, her family has been called by the river god, who has guided their wherries on countless voyages throughout the Riverlands. At seventeen, Caro has spent years listening to the water, ready to meet her fate. But the river god hasn’t spoken her name yet—and if he hasn’t by now, there’s a chance he never will.
Caro decides to take her future into her own hands when her father is arrested for refusing to transport a mysterious crate. By agreeing to deliver it in exchange for his release, Caro finds herself caught in a web of politics and lies, with dangerous pirates after the cargo—an arrogant courier with a secret—and without the river god to help her. With so much at stake, Caro must choose between the life she always wanted and the one she never could have imagined for herself.
From debut author Sarah Tolcser comes an immersive and romantic fantasy set along the waterways of a magical world with a headstrong heroine determined to make her mark. 
Musings: 
This book stole me away and took me sailing on an epic adventure across the river beds. I devoured this book! I received this book yesterday in the mail (along with some lovely related goodies) and once I started reading it I could not put it down. I must say I was quite enchanted by this story and the rich description and glorious hate-to-love romance. 
This book was on my most anticipated releases of June 2017 list and I’m happy to know that it was for good reason. I’m so so in love with this story and all the characters that live inside it that I just want to carry it around everywhere and tell everyone to read it! I also loved how easy it was to read. I feel like I’ve been reading a lot of heavier topics of books in recent months that have been emotionally taxing and this book was a breathe of salty sweet sea air. 
Caroline is such an amazing heroine for this story. She’s not afraid to jump into muddy water and do what’s necessary to get a job done, but she also has a sense of humor and takes everything in stride. Her journey of self-discovery was an amazing one to read about and I want to read more of her adventures as soon as possible!! 
One of my favorite parts of the novel though is the feminist undertones. I mean there were so many prominent female characters and that is something to celebrate. A wherry with an all female crew, Caroline’s mom who is a top-notch negotiator and all around badass, and so many more! It made me feel so good inside to see so many women betrayed so strongly. 
However, the other important tidbit is the emphasis on consent. I feel like in ya novels normalizing consent is huge. I hate that consent is something that I feel needs to be normalized, but the sad truth is that it does and this book does a brilliant job of adding to that normalization. 
With an amazing cast of characters, heart-stopping action, and a blistering romance to tug at your heart, this novel is well worth the read and you won’t ever regret it. 

Thanks for reading!  I hope you enjoyed my review and will consider diving into Song of the Current. This book has made me happier then I have been in a long time. 

Felling Like I Haven’t In A Long Time


Hope stricks at the randomest of times and right now I’m feeling so much hope. The funny thing is not much has happened. Life is still the same, but it is me who is different. All I want to do is hold on to this feeling to treasure it and fill my whole life up with its emotion. 

I feel happy. 

In truth, I just absorbed Song of the Current into my being in this one day of having it in my hands. I feel like I haven’t let myself be taken by a book in a long time and letting myself be has done wonders for my mind and soul. I feel wonderful and free and excited for whatever the future will bring. 

I hope that good days are coming for us all. 

-Till next time!

An Anecdote

We are 65% water 16% straight fat

19% Other and those are straight facts

There is no measurement for ideals

No measurement for compassion

No way to stitch inside us our likes our passions

No way to tell our favorites from the dark matter 

living inside our skulls. Hidden away to be kept safe

If we only idolize what we can see 

and we can’t surmise our beliefs from our beating hearts

does it exist, or even matter? In this era of mechanical love
Thanks for reading! Let me know what you think about this poem in the comments below. 

– Till next time! 

Fallen Flame by J.M. Miller: A Review 

Fallen Flame by J.M. Miller


My Rating: 4/5 flaming stars!

Publisher: J.M. Miller

Publish Date: June 19th, 2017

Recieved: Netgalley provided an e-arc in exchange for an honest review. 

Purchase: Amazon

Synopsis: 

Nineteen years ago, on the island kingdom of Garlin, a girl was born. With charred skin as rough as rock, Vala was instantly feared. For how could one be scorched by magic when it had perished ages before?

Recognizing an asset, the royal family welcomed her on their Guard. Her detail: the prince.

To watch. To protect. She has grown with him, lives her life for him. 

When the high kingdom’s princess comes to assess the prince, assassins of rival courtiers come to claim his life. One nearly succeeds in his mission. But with shadowy movements and charred skin like her own, Vala knows he is not like the rest.

As threats to the prince continue and questions about Vala’s life begin to rise, she faces a fear worse than fire or water, worse even than losing him. 

She fears finding out who she truly is. 

Musings: 

This book is a hidden gem. I really really loved it. It hit all my sappy must read points and ran with them and ran with them well, a badass heroine, an intriguing fantasy world, the allure of lost magic, and some swoonworthy characters that definitely know who they are (yes, I’m talking about you shadow). 

One thing that had my heart soaring was that despite being ostracized for ages for have charred skin I never felt like Vala (our incredible mc) felt that she was anything less then beautiful. Weather her skin was charred or turned red thanks to a cleansing she always showed confidence in herself and she never once believed that because she was different she couldn’t be loved and I think that’s a whole other strength that should be applauded and shouted out to the heavens! Vala is simply all around amazing and when she shows her vulnerable side you finally get to see the real her. 

Overall this book was an adventure that cannot be missed. Fallen Flame was fun, full of action, and with lots of mystery to keep you wanting more. I can’t wait for the sequel! I loved this book!

Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed my review and that you will consider checking out Fallen Flame. I think everyone could enjoy it. 

-Till next time! 

These Are the Words I Live By


I think this is something that is too often forgotten. It’s really easy to feel angry at the conflicts of life (especially when people can be especially irritating) but we all need to remember that at all times we are only meeting a person in one small instance of their life. We cannot judge based off of a singular circumstance. We cannot know a person by the clothes their wearing or by weather they smile or not or weather they are in a group or alone or weather they glance your way or not. 

The world is a place full of hurting people just trying to improve their quality of life. We are all sucky and rude sometimes to people. Why not try to be a little kinder? People are more then their first impressions. We all go through thousands of bad days. Why not spread love and acceptance? Let’s pick each other up. 

-Till next time!

My Relationship With Writing 


Dear Writing…. 

It’s complicated. Seriously, it’s not you it’s all me, well maybe it’s you too. I love you a lot, but most of the time I’m like a dog who sees a squirrel and I just never make time for you. 

I’m a distracted sort of gal. All I want at the end of the day is to sit and watch some YouTube. I have an addiction and this addiction has made our relationship difficult. I’m sorry writing, I really am. 

You know when we are good we are really good but a lot of the time… (there’s that squirrel again blasted tweet notification). I don’t think I could ever break up with you writing, but we’ve been distant lately and that’s been hard on the both of us. We both need to work together and change. Baby steps you know? How about we start by you giving me ideas at a normal time of the day when I can write ( 1 am. Or when I’m at work is not ok writing ) and I… I will promise to actually write sometimes writing. I know you get excited and you just want me to be inspired 24/7, but you… well…. you just have bad timing writing I’m sorry. 

Another thing I’m sorry about… procrastinating. You have given me so many ideas for amazing books to write writing and I just take you for granted by not completing them. Every chapter written is like exercising writing and you know I tend to run out of stamina pretty fast. 

However, writing I just want you to know.. I love you. I won’t give up on you. I know you won’t ever give up on me. So let’s start working together. You know that WIP… yes that one.. work with me on that. Let’s complete it together! Let me be endlessly distracted by you instead of my Instagram feed. Speak lyrics into my mind and let’s do this thing! Shall We?!
EXTRA:

A typical conversation with writing:

(No no I’m not giving up Markiplier we talked about this. ***but you watch him for hours*** He makes me happy though. ***I thought I made you happy*** you do… no don’t cry.. you really do *** So say goodb…. (Writing was silenced that day and the writer watched hours of internet videos from the intended represion.. nothing got done that day… nothing) 

Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed this post. I hope it made you laugh. This was truly all in an effort to get me to want to write more and hopefully in a little bit I hope I will have written something. 

-Till next time!

Father’s Day, An Emotional post, and 900 FOLLOWERS!


I don’t quite feel right that the day I’m meant to be celebrating my dad is the same day I hit 900 followers on my blog. So as happy as I am I am going to make a completely separate post tomorrow to express my sincerest gratitude and excitement. 

Today is about my dad: 


This goofy and wonderful humanbeing depicted next to me. I was always daddy’s little girl and I feel like I don’t take time to appreciate him and the person he has always been for me enough. As he always tells me, “You live inside my heart.” 

The following is a piece I wrote about a year ago to express how I felt about my dad and how he inspired me to be a writer (though he will never truly love books like I do). 

I never thought I wanted to be a writer. In fact, I despised it when I was young, especially because I related it to handwriting and mine has always been terrible. In fact, I attributed writing to a forced task that was a nuisance keeping me away from going outside and looking for rolly pollys and other creepy crawlies with my dad.
As a kid that’s what I lived for, walking behind my dad, hearing him tell me “follow the charge.” To which I would run ahead and say, “follow me.” I loved helping him. I loved scraping the dirt and finding weird pupas to hold in my tiny hands. I loved picking up a worm and yelling “look daddy, it’s a worm.” I was a queen of the obvious as most children are, yet bugs amazed me and my dad was the reason I never minded their sometimes slimy skin.
I feel like I owe a lot of my love for writing thanks to these moments I shared with my father. Watering plants and learning about life from him built a wonder and compassion that has created a huge part of who I am. Feeling so at home in nature gave me the curiosity to look a little deeper, to give myself to what I felt, and feel the need to record the beauty of days spent idle yet full of wonder.
My dad was never much for books, but he always told me stories, stories that sharpened my mind, created a believer in me, made me think, made me wonder. Those days under the sun, spending my time, listening to his tender voice, sparked a love for words in me that I never realized was so important.

Thanks for reading! No matter what whoever that father figure is in your life (he doesn’t have to be blood to be a father to you) please give him some love today. No matter how simple the gesture just show him a little extra kindness. 

-Till next time!