Perfection

Perfection is an ideology

Wrapped in a tight rope around our minds

We strive and strive to the standards that will always be moved one block above our heads unreachable

Let me say that again unreachable

Because the hands create the blocks and pile them up higher and higher

The video game buzzes “Ok”, “meh”, “perfect”

We climb and climb this ever growing mountain

And dig ourselves a hole of depression and anxiety piled up in our insecurity and worthlessness

We think perfection is the answer to love and all that’s holy, but the truth is we will never get there and acceptance

Well that’s the clarity

When you start to heal the expectation of being anything other then who you are

in every moment of bitterness

you cut the bindings

Suddenly your body is a masterpiece

Suddenly your happiness is within reach

Suddenly your not chasing your creating

Suddenly your not afraid of the societal definition of who you should be

Perfection is spoon fed into the mouths of all our children

Perfection is yelled into 4th grade track teams and football wannabes

Perfection is sewn into the fabric of our literal clothing

But, wouldn’t you be surprised to hear the places that make a profit from the defects

You see nothing you do is worthless

Especially not because that something was a mishap

We all make mistakes, thousands every day

So let’s stop kidding ourselves

Let’s give who we are some kindness

It’s ok. You are ok.

Let’s clean out all the madness

Peace is found in letting go of who we think we need to be

All the thoughts that cause you suffering don’t need to suffocate the joyful laughter that lives inside your ever passionate heart

Dust away those thoughts so you can create a reality of celebrating true humanity

Perfection doesn’t exist and it never did

So stop hurting

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The ABC Book Challenge: Unprecedented

It’s time for another episode of The ABC Challenge! This time it’s the Letter “U”.

On to the books!

Memorable Books that Start with the Letter “U”:

Use the Force: a Jedi’s guide to the Law of Attraction

This book randomly came into my life and sense then I have read and learned a lot about the law of attraction. I’m still new to it, but sometimes it surprises me how well it can work.

Unhinged

This is my favorite cover of the Splintered series because Morpheus is my fav and he is absolutely gorgeous! He looks somewhat like an Elvis with long hair and I adore the circus vibes! I never have enough praise for the Splintered series!

Books I would Love to Read Starting with the Letter “U”:

Unpresidented by Martha Brockenbrough

“A riveting, meticulously researched, and provocative biography of Donald J. Trump from the author of Alexander Hamilton, Revolutionary.

Born into a family of privilege and wealth, he was sent to military school at the age of 13. After an unremarkable academic career, he joined the family business in real estate and built his fortune. His personal brand: sex, money and power. From no-holds-barred reality TV star to unlikely candidate, Donald J. Trump rose to the highest political office: President of the United States of America.

Learn fascinating details about his personal history, including:

-Why Trump’s grandfather left Germany and immigrated to America

-Why Woodie Guthrie wrote a song criticizing Trump’s father

-How Trump’s romance with Ivana began―and ended

-When Trump first declared his interest in running for President

Discover the incredible true story of America’s 45th President: his questionable political and personal conduct, and his unprecedented rise to power.

Richly informed by original research and illustrated throughout with photographs and documents, Unpresidented is a gripping and important read.”

I follow the woman that wrote this on Twitter and the research she put into this book is incredible. It is the only book on Trump I am interested in. I despise him. However, from what she’s said the history of his life and how he got to presidency is in a way fascinating. Plus, I love that it’s from a woman’s perspective.

Under the Never Sky by Veronica Rossi

“Fighting to survive in a ravaged world, a Dweller and a Savage form an unlikely alliance in New York Times bestselling author Veronica Rossi’s “unforgettable dystopian masterpiece” (Examiner.com).

Exiled from her home, the enclosed city of Reverie, Aria knows her chances of surviving in the outer wasteland—known as The Death Shop—are slim. Then Aria meets an Outsider named Perry. He’s wild—a savage—and her only hope of staying alive. A hunter for his tribe in a merciless landscape, Perry views Aria as sheltered and fragile—everything he would expect from a Dweller. But he needs Aria’s help too; she alone holds the key to his redemption.

In alternating chapters told in Aria’s and Perry’s voices, Under the Never Sky subtly and powerfully captures the evolving relationship between these characters and sweeps readers away to a harsh but often beautiful world. Continuing with Through the Ever Night and concluding with Into the Still Blue, the Under the Never Sky trilogy has already been embraced by readers in twenty-six countries and been optioned for film by Warner Bros.”

Fun dystopian Sci-fi with romance! Couldn’t ask for more.

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Welcome September!!

It’s the end of September 1st and I’m excited to welcome the new season and all that September has to bring me.

I don’t really have any plans this September. Whenever, I make plans they never quite turn out as I’d expect anyway. However, I know whatever I do it’ll be fun. I’m still looking for a better job. One option didn’t work out so I’m exploring other avenues.

One of my biggest lessons has been to let things be. In every situation. Sometimes I want to worry about what will be. I’m still learning this lesson. So the approach I am having for this month is just to do my best. I’m going to let any mishaps wash away and follow whatever brings me the most joy in every moment.

That’s what this month will be about for me.

Also I’m really excited for the fall season. The weather has been extremely hot recently and it will continue to be hot for a while, but when it starts to cool I am going to feel very relieved.

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Watching: The Boys!!!!

I don’t want to talk too much in depth about this show because it is still pretty new and I don’t want to spoil any of it.

An overview of ‘The Boys’ describes it like this:

“Superheroes are often as popular as celebrities, as influential as politicians, and sometimes even as revered as gods. But that’s when they’re using their powers for good. What happens when the heroes go rogue and start abusing their powers? When it’s the powerless against the super powerful, the Boys head out on a heroic quest to expose the truth about the Seven and Vought, the multibillion-dollar conglomerate that manages the superheroes and covers up their dirty secrets. Based on the comic book series of the same name.”

Honestly, that’s just the basics of what ‘The Boys’ is. However, it is just enough to get you watching without fully knowing the chaos your about to get yourself into.

The Boys is intense. It’s pretty graphically violent and not at all family friendly in any way. In a similar way to how GOT is not at all family friendly.

However, it has a lot of good political commentary. Some intense depth with all of the characters. As well as some really interesting twists and turns. I don’t think I have a favorite character for the first time in my life, because everyone feels so real and has their own purpose and uniqueness and I cannot choose one person over another. Also, pretty much everyone feels almost equally bad as well. Except for Homelander, Homelander doesn’t even have a soul.

The Boys has this creepiness as well with many of the characters. There is more then a lot of questionable behavior. But, it also has a lot of grief motives on both sides and some interesting dynamics with characters like A-train that make you think about their morality in some interesting ways.

I won’t say more on this. Other then this show is really good and very timely. I’ve really enjoyed watching Season 1.

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Write the Story: Week 3

I’m back with another set of Write the Story mini-stories to share with all of you! I hope you enjoy them!

On to the stories!

1. Magic Interferes in New Orleans

I thought it would be fun to write a little bit of a coven story for this New Orleans magic story. It definitely was fun and a little spicy with the no-nonsense matriarch.

2. A Romantic Scene in an Unromantic Place

I don’t think I’ve ever thought of blacksmithing as being romantic, but after writing this I might’ve changed my own mind. I like this cute little romance between the smith and a cosplayer. I’d read the hell out of a book like that.

3. On a Quest

I thought it would be cute for a mom to go on a little quest to find her daughter a puppy. I’ll admit this wasn’t the easiest prompts for me, but I gave it a go.

4. The Supernatural Invades the Everyday

I liked writing this story. A little paranormal. A little sci-fi. A little horror. It was a lot of fun.

5. A Journalist Crosses the Line

I thought it would be cool to write this as a precautionary tale told again and again that twists with every telling, but in essence provides the same message to aspiring journalists wanting to search for truth.

6. Big Time Deals in the Big City

So uhh, yeah. I watch Minecraft smp live. It’s idiotic, but absolutely hilarious. It made writing this a million times more fun for me so.. judge me as much as you want, but I enjoy it.

7. A Scientist Makes and Unexpected Discovery

There are a lot of sciency prompts in here. I do enjoy them, but this one was kinda hard for me to write. Although I do think it came out ok. I hope you all like it.

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An Observation of Happiness

I have gone through a lot of personal transformation in my life recently. Technically this is something that is lifelong, but I have felt one of the first noticeable shifts in myself in the past 3 months.

The most important thing that has caused this shift in myself is my continuous decision to be happy no matter what is going on in my life. When I made this decision I immediately looked to find self care and self love practices to add to my daily routine. I knew it wouldn’t be an instant thing and it wasn’t. It took me some time to choose happiness and to let go of thoughts that didn’t add to my happiness.

It was a huge choice that lead to me realizing how deeply I truly value myself and I noticed how over time all negative situations and people began to leave my life and I’ve experienced more and more happy situations and positive interactions with others as well. But, most importantly, I noticed I was genuinely and peacefully happy and it wasn’t attached to anything outside of myself.

I feel like I could handle any situation in a peaceful way now that I’ve started the creation of this unbreakable peace within myself. This doesn’t mean I don’t get sad or angry or feel negative emotions, but more that when I feel those things I notice it and I ask myself why I feel that way and gently guide myself into looking at the situation from a higher perspective. This is especially noticeable for me when I think about the future. When I notice that I want to paint all the obstacles of what could be and I start to feel bad about what might be, I can easily get lost in those thoughts. However, I notice it now and I can flip the script and turn that negative thought pattern into a more positive one.

It’s to where I feel like I’m exactly where I am supposed to be in my life and that I can be at peace even if things aren’t exactly the way I’d want them to be. I’ve learned to deeply and truly appreciate every morsel of good in my life. Even the most mundane of things. Like being grateful that I have a chair to sit in or for the shampoo I use to wash my hair or for the face wash that keeps my face clean. Every single part of my reality that aides me becomes something extraordinary and wonderful. Something worth appreciating.

Especially my own body. I’ve noticed that I really truly have come to love and appreciate my body. Even my nose (a part that I’d disliked heavily for years and years) is now something I love about myself. I feel good in my own skin. I love the muscles that are forming in my arms from work. I love how I look in clothing I try on at the store. I love that I don’t care if what looks good on me is an xtra large or a medium. I used to cry sometimes when I saw something I thought was cute didn’t look good on me in the store. Forming a healthy and loving relationship with my body is one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever given to myself. I fully appreciate what makes me unique.

I no longer talk about mental health in quite the way I used to. I don’t because I know that for my own mental health I need to discuss this topic in a positive way or not at all. I no longer tolerate in myself the feeling of self-pity. I don’t meant that in a harsh way, but in a way of being a good friend to myself and treating myself the way I would treat one of my friends if they were feeling down by lifting them up.

It feels good to wake up and feel happy for every single small joy in my life. To be happy just to be alive.

Thank you all for reading! Thank you all for being a part of my journey. You are all incredible people. I hope you all have a blessed day and a wonderful week ahead.

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Wolfe Creek Candles Fragrance Spotlight: Sweet Pea

Back at it again with another fragrance feature! This time we have an old favorite to talk about Sweet Pea!

Sweet Pea has an elegant floral fragrance that transports you into a garden of sweet pea flowers. The flowers themselves are colorful and rich. The perennial flower blooms in the summer months giving the summer months a sweet edge.

This beloved flower is often planted for its decadent fragrance and soft beauty. However, if you want to smell the sweetness of it year round burning our Sweet Pea Candle is the perfect solution.

Sweet Pea was once often given to say “Thank you for the wonderful time” in the Victorian Era. In this Era giving a sweet pea candle as a thank you gift to your friend, coworker, family member, or loved one will surely put a smile on their face!

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The ABC Book Challenge: Total chaos!!!

Welcome back to the ABC Book Challenge! It’s time to talk about books starting with the Letter “T” and if you think I’m filling this post up with the’s it’s not happening. That’s far too simple.

On to the Books!

Memorable Books that Start with the Letter “T”:

Talon

I love Julie Kagawa and I will forever read anything she writes. Admittedly Talon while awesome, isn’t my favorite of the books she written, but I do feel that it sets up the series really well. Either way, it’s 100% worth the Read!

Tricks

This book is intense. I will never forget the feeling I got while reading it. It’s really good however, like with many of Ellen’s books I wouldn’t read this in a bad mental state. It deals with some dark stuff.

Books I’d Love to Read Starting with the Letter “T”:

Tarot

“Anna was never supposed to exist. Born of a forbidden union between the Queen and the tyrannical King’s archnemesis, Anna is forced to live out her days isolated in the Tower, with only her mentors and friends the Hermit, the Fool, and the Magician to keep her company. To pass the time, Anna imagines unique worlds populated by creatives and dreamers—the exact opposite of the King’s land of fixed fates and rigid rules—and weaves them into four glorious tapestries.

But on the eve of her sixteenth birthday and her promised release from the Tower, Anna discovers her true lineage: She’s the daughter of Marco, a powerful magician, and the King is worried that his magical gifts are starting to surface in Anna. Fearing for her life, Anna flees the Tower and finds herself in Cups, a lush, tropical land full of all the adventure, free-spiritedness, and creativity she imagined while weaving.

Anna thinks she’s found paradise in this world of beachside parties, endless food and drink, and exhilarating romance. But when the fabric of Cups begins to unravel, Anna discovers that her tapestries are more than just decoration. They’re the foundation for a new world that she is destined to create—as long as the terrors from the old world don’t catch up with her first.”

I’ve been learning about Tarot a lot recently. It has a lot of fascinating elements to it. A fantasy based off of the Tarot is really unique to me and I’d love to pick it up.

Tin Heart

“Bestselling author of All the Bright Places Jennifer Niven calls emerging talent Shivaun Plozza’s charming and romantic second YA novel, Tin Heart, “from cover to cover swoon-worthy, moving, deep, and funny”!

When Marlowe gets a heart transplant and a second chance at life, all she wants to do is to thank her donor’s family. Maybe then she can move on. Maybe then she’ll discover who she is if she’s no longer The Dying Girl.

But with a little brother who dresses like every day is Halloween, a vegan warrior for a mother, and an all-out war with the hot butcher’s apprentice next door, Marlowe’s life is already pretty complicated. And her second chance is about to take an unexpected turn…”

This book sounds incredible! I’d love the chance to read it. I hope I can one day pick this book up!

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Avengers: Age of Ultron: A Discussion

Age of Ultron was another one of those films I didn’t appreciate to the full extent till another go-around. I liked it well enough the first time, but now, I feel that I understand and appreciate Age of Ultron so much more.

Age of Ultron is one of the more nuanced films in the MCU. The motivations of the various characters clash against each other and everyone is trying to do what they believe to be right and all of them have very different ideas of what that is.

Ultron himself has a twisted idea of “saving” the universe. Which umm.. has to do with destroying everything living on the earth.

Iron Man wants to put a ‘suit of armor’ around the world after being attracted by aliens in the battle of New York. This is what ends up creating Ultron in the first place, but also the next character I’m going to talk about: Vision.

Vision simply wants to be on the side of life. To be a bringer of peace. He doesn’t even want to kill Ultron, but knows it is necessary for the safety of the Earth.

The twins want peace for their country and vengeance for the death of their parents. Their parents were killed by a bomb that came from Stark industries and so of course they have a special hatred for Stark, but they change their minds after Scarlett sees into Ultron’s mind and find inside only destruction.

The Hulk or rather Banner helps out Tony, but not fully thinking it through. He is driven by the science, but doesn’t fully realize how far Tony was willing to go.

Thor, Black Widow, Hawkeye, and Captain America are the damage control. They didn’t realize what was going on with the others, but once mistakes were made they came in to help reduce the damage done.

My favorite moments:

Every time Ultron was on screen made for great scenes. Slowly he became a more and more formidable opponent and he was so much fun to watch. His hatred for Tony despite speaking just like him was fascinating. I think one of the best parts of the films was how imprinted in Tony’s way of thinking Ultron is in simply a twisted way. He really is Tony’s creation in every sense. Yet the creation hates the creator and acts in a similar way, but just twisted towards darkness. I love that.

I think it took me watching all the other films to care more about this one simply because I see the evolving of everyone and how interesting it is that the line of morality in this film is so blurred. Seeing your heroes make mistakes remind you that they are as human as you are and how you can get this one twisted idea in your head and it transforms the way you see the world in a grayish manner. It’s the mistake of one bad experience coloring the rest of how you see a group of people or organization in life. It’s cool that that kind of social commentary can be made by watching this film.

In this film it’s not a battle between good and evil in the strictest sense. But a battle between the mind of doing what you think is right and your beliefs tailoring what decision you make.

This movie has some really incredible fight scenes and lots of action, but at its core it’s the exploration of the mind and morality that makes this movie great.

Also, the party scene was fantastic..

What a show captain put on.. no one believed him for a second. Least of all Thor. Though I would argue most of the Avengers should be worthy of the hammer. Everyone’s sacrificed much in the name of justice.

Also, I loved the little early Black Panther references. Like the one shown in this photograph and video:

https://youtu.be/oytnbiux_lk

Marvel is really good at fusing humor and seriousness into its films. Sometimes it’s a little jab of humor, but at the same time it always gets some sort of reaction out of me.

I very much have a higher sense of respect for this film and it’s not the best of the marvel universe by far, but it is great in its own way.

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Thoughts on Life

It’s 1 am, I played Town of Salem for the first time and loved every second of playing. I am tired, but I am happy. I don’t know what it is about me going on and doing normal stuff that gets me to think so existentially, but I guess that’s just how my brain works.

The saying that life is what you make of it is incredibly true. Whatever you want life to be about you can make it that way. If you want to work really hard and follow a dream you really love you can. If you feel like binging a tv show and relaxing all day you can. No matter what the situation is you have a choice.

I’ve learned that for me, so long as I choose myself and choose my happiness I can’t go wrong. People in the world might care about me, but at the end of the day I have to be my own best friend, therapist, motivational coach, teacher, and on and on. I have to be the one that values myself. Otherwise, how can expect everyone else to value me.

I can choose to let the world cave in (and sometimes it feels like it wants to) or I can push back and choose to do the best I can wherever I’m at in life no matter how low or high that point may be. As I choose myself I also have to value others choosing themselves and understand that they like I am are doing the best they can at the place they are at in life.

It’s a great lesson of radical compassion, for myself and for others. When I make myself accountable in every moment and really see why I have done what I have I can work to be the me I want to be. Now, I realize that I am the me that I want to be.

Putting all passions and hopes for the future aside, who I am now is exactly who I want to be. I care deeply about my family, my friends, animals, anyone I’ve ever loved, even if a stranger is having a rough day. I may have felt with depression and putting myself down, but it’s not something I do anymore.. I lift myself up in every moment. I am an open book. As honest as I ever wanted to be. I am who I am to every person I meet. I am working towards my goals, yet I’m not overextending myself. I am no longer afraid of the future. I am wholly myself.

I let go of some old feelings I didn’t want to admit to myself today and it put me in a yucky mood, yet right after instead of wallowing I decided to watch some videos that lead me to downloading and playing a game that I really enjoy.

Yeah, I’m very critical when I think. Critical of myself and it can lead me astray sometimes, but I’m starting to see the parts of myself I didn’t like before as assets. Even the simple stuff like liking my nose now when I used to really dislike it.

I guess I’m writing this to say this: if you want you can choose the person who you wish to be right now and with small steps you’ll see you can smile in the mirror for tomorrow. That life only has the meaning that you give it. So live the best life that you possibly can with the definition you feel is best for you.

As one lovely human said to me once, “I’m living my best life not my depressed life.” And that’s what I’m choosing to do every single day.

Thank you all for reading! Much love to all of you!

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