Halsey: If I Can’t Have Love I Want Power: An Experience

Yesterday I had the upmost pleasure of watching ‘Halsey: If I Can’t Have Love I Want Power’ with my friend Emma last night.

Throughout the whole thing I had chills. It was stunning and emotional and gorgeous. I learned a bit about what the changes look like in a woman’s body during pregnancy. As I’d never seen a nude pregnant woman before and that was fascinating. Also, the emotional feeling as a woman goes through the various months of pregnancy.

Also her going through abuse and not taking it and killing the king. Especially when she did have a toxic relationship in the past was like watching a redemption on the screen. She’s such a strong and amazing woman. I love her.

This movie was art.

Every piece of imagery was so impactful.

This being shown in the beginning and later at the end making you understand why she’s in shackles. It gave me chills.

This was one of my absolute favorite looks she does in the film. Halsey is herself a queen who does what she wants and has her fun and is regal as she does it. Her hair here was so stunning I couldn’t take my eyes off the screen.

Yet still I wish I could watch it again and understand more. She had this connection to this witch in a mirror but the witch was her. This image is one of her final looks in the film after she is murdered and will not experience motherhood and I am so curious about the meaning. Is she ascended? Is it vengeance? Was she truly a witch that will live on as such? It’s so fascinating.

All in all, if you get the chance absolutely watch Halsey’s film! I can’t believe I got the chance because my friend had an extra ticket it was an experience and a joy I’ll never forget. The music was amazing. The makeup and the story itself was so amazing to watch.

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A Christmas Journey to Six Flags

Six flags Magic Mountain was a wonderful winter wonderland of joy today! I had so much fun with my family. (The picture above is my sister Misty on the left and me on the right) 

My mom, dad, sister, and I went on a gorgeous and musical journey to celebrate Christmas together at the place where thrills are King.

We enjoyed the lights, the dancers, and the many spooky coasters that bring out the terror hiding inside your soul. 

My absolute favorite ride is Full Throttle, the world’s largest looping roller coaster! I love how after the ride is over everyone smiles and laughs without fail. It is a ride that somehow brings joy and comradery more than any other ride I have had the pleasure to go on. 

I watched dancing nutcrackers on stilts. Enjoyed snow in snowless California. Ate mint ice cream even though it was cold (or as cold as Califonia can be). Listened to Christmas carols as I left during the night. I ate yummy food and drank delicious coffee. It was lovely. 

I love Six Flags Magic Mountain. The moment I left I realized just how much I needed this outing. I danced. I screamed my lungs out. I sang till I couldn’t sing anymore. I smiled and laughed. I felt free. I felt happy. I felt good about myself and who I am. It was wonderful. It had been a long time since I had truly let loose like that. I think everyone needs to have that feeling, to enjoy time with the people you love the most. 

Sitting in my chair at home my body feels exhausted, my feet sore, my legs begging for me to get to bed, but my heart feels light and warm, the exhaustion taking a back seat to the satisfaction of true joy. I feel content. 

This holiday season, I hope everyone enjoys a time like this. To do something wonderful with loved ones. To let go of your worries for a couple of hours and have fun! 

Have a lovely Christmas Journey, or if you don’t celebrate Christmas, have a lovely (insert occasion here) journey! Laugh, smile, and be merry. Everyone deserves a little happiness and a whole lot of love! 

Merry Christmas season everyone! Have a joyful holiday! 

-Till next time!