Let’s Talk About: 2018

This year has been a lot and it’s not even over yet, but I am so ready to let this year go and see what 2019 has to bring me. However, that’s more for a later post.

Now I want to talk about this crazy, weirdly not as bad as I previously thought, yet also kinda terrible year. To be honest, the beginning of the year was a blur. I don’t remember much. I was probably frustrated due to finical struggles that continue on to today. The one bright spot was getting a car after a stint of not having one due to awful circumstances that live in 2017.

I remember being frustrated with the same job I still have that has been an ongoing thing this year. I remember applying to a lot of different other jobs that didn’t take. I remember being frustrated with being stagnant in my life and feeling like I was never going to really make anything of myself.

I remember making many many pledges to myself this year and the pride I felt when I kept some of those pledges. One being to do something about my weight because it bothered me and I felt ugly in clothing and so I made it a point to do something about it and it worked. I lost over 14 pounds this year and I’m still losing weight. I remember focusing on my mental health and trying to get back into writing and finishing a draft of a novel for the first time.

On the heel of all that, things that meld together because everyday I made it a point to get up early and make that day a new chance to do what I wanted to do (something I need to bring back into my life), I had a very weird and beautiful period that brought some great people into my life and all of a sudden I found myself in love. That love story was crazy and beautiful and full of hope. The relationship lasted for two months. I knew the guy for three. I am still at a loss for words about it all. I still love this person very much. Regardless, of anything that’s been said to me about it. Regardless, of being terribly confused because I feel like for the first time I don’t understand the why of something because I don’t have the full story. Regardless of the fact that this person left my life in such a way that it’s like he poofed himself out of existence. I still deeply care for love and hope happiness for this person. I wish for all his dreams whatever they may be to come true.

However, the loss and the whole crazy beautiful unbelievable story of it has literally changed my life in so many ways. One, I didn’t ever realize how true it is that break-ups are the worst thing mentally ever. The amount of tears and confusion and physical pain I have felt due to his loss is a bit of insanity. I have never felt so out of myself then I have in this experience. Especially because the truth of the matter is this guy felt like the one. Call me crazy stupid whatever, but that’s how I felt. We got along incredibly well. We understood each other. Something about the thought of him just existing and being the amazing guy I believed in made me feel stable. I don’t know, but I was happier then I had been in years and I was discovering new music with him and I was opening myself up to his world and it felt like he was opening himself up to mine.

All I know is for the rest of my life I will always have this guy in my heart. I will always feel a sense of love for him. Because even if I don’t know the whole story or why we couldn’t be together when everything seemed to be so good and changed so rapidly, I will always know that the love was real. That the guy I was getting to know was as authentic with me as he could be. That I will forever be a better person for knowing him. Whatever happens in the future. Should I meet someone that somehow makes me feel something greater then what he made me feel I will always have a piece of his heart with my own. Even though somewhere deep down I get the feeling that his presence in my life isn’t over and I can’t shake it.

But, to clarify something, I don’t think I handled being in a relationship as well as I could have. There are things that I look back on and think that I should have done things differently. One of those things was how much anxiety I was allowing to build up in myself. I worried a lot more then I should have. I miscalculated a lot of things. I thought my family would be cool with it when they weren’t for reasons I didn’t agree with. I tried to figure out ways to somehow get things to work when a lot of it was out of my control. I also didn’t let him introduce himself the way he wanted to and I shouldn’t have done that. I made a lot of mistakes on my part. However, he was the first thing I choose for myself and though I wish things had turned out differently it I learned a lot of life lessons.

One thing I learned is that I convinced myself that I needed him and maybe in some ways that was true, but the truth is more that I wanted him in my life very badly and I could not imagine for the life of me a more beautiful future for myself then the one with him in it. That even if loosing him wasn’t what I wanted I could move forward in my life without him in it. That I would be ok. Right now, I’m more ok then I was. I think I will always miss him. He is a big part of the reason why I’m trying so hard to stay positive. He taught me that no matter how bleak a situation may look there is always something good in life to enjoy. There will always be weird random things in this world that remind me of him like the time I cried at Walmart just cause I saw some Alfredo sauce and remembered him saying once that he would make pasta with his sister. Or when listening to any Michael Buble song ever. Or every-time my sister puts on the Karate kid and my soul dies a little because I swear I’ve never met a guy who loved that movie as much as he did and I live in a house where that movie gets played a billion times over. This guy even instilled in me a love of heavy metal I never thought I would have. I don’t understand it but somehow so many of those songs bring me peace. Damn it if the sound of guitar played a certain way even in a song I had never heard before brings a tear in my eyes. Losing this guy affected me incredibly deeply. Yet, I’m surprised at how short and small any anger I had was. It’s all just been deep sadness and a deep sense of loss. For a while I couldn’t (sometimes still can’t) eat quite right because things weren’t tasting quite right and I felt like throwing up. I never thought I’d feel that way. Not over a guy. Yet here I am.

Maybe it was partially that it was a perfect storm of sucky things. My dad ending up in the hospital again the day after I realized I’d been ghosted. Finding out my dad had four mini strokes. The many not fun discussions I’d have with my mom because of said guy. Other frustration with myself for feeling like I’d overreacted about everything and that maybe that was why things happened the way they did. Also realizing that my mental health was essentially garbage and I needed time to process everything before I even could have a chance of healing.

So here I am now. After another decent break from blogging due to the chaos a day before my 20th birthday and somehow finding that things aren’t so bad. My dad is doing ok. He’s the same as he has been. I have some plans to take on 2019. I’m no longer in my wallowing stage of my grief. I’m willing to take on whatever it is that life is going to throw at me next.

I will not live in my past. I will not let apathy settle in my heart. 2018 was what it was. A lot of it sucked a lot of it was beautiful and a lot of it was positive too. I know that one day everything is going to turn out alright and everything that has happened will make a lot more sense. All that being said, I wish farewell to 2018 it’s not quite reached its end, but believe me I will be breathing a sigh of relief once it’s over.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

Sunshine Blogger Award: Times 3


I am so bewildered and proud to say I was nominated for this award three times by three amazing bloggers: Books, Boxes, and Baubles,  Blame it on Chocolate, and Ya and Wine!

These three are seriously amazing and it you somehow haven’t heard of them, stop reading this post and go check them out! They deserve all the love and support in the world. 

Disclaimer: all photos found via google, I did not take any of these photographs with my own hands. 
Rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you in a blog post and link back to their blog.
  • Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
  • Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write then 11 new questions.
  • List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or on your blog.

KaylaBooks, Boxes, and Baubles questions: 

1. Dogs or Cats or Hamsters and why?

   

How about all of them living in harmony with a rabbit? They are all too cute! You can’t make me decide… you simply can’t!

2. If you could live in any period and any place in time when and where would it be?


How about the 1920’s? Life is flashing all around you, the music is lovely, and I could dance my nights away!

3. What is the last book you hated and why?

I’ve never felt such hatred for a main character, I do not appreciate or approve his actions, plus this book is hits hard, but in a bad way, definitely not my taste. 

4. Favorite author and favorite book (not necessarily by the same author)?


Julie Kagawa a.k.a The Queen of fantasy and The Giver a.k.a the book that made me feel more then I ever felt and lead me into a whole new world of books. 

5. What is something you wish people knew about you?

I wish people knew that I wasn’t the best at communicating verbally. I wish people knew that for normal outside of a classroom situation type of talking freaks me out. I wish people knew that I am a huge over thinker and if I share too much or say something off the wall or sound rude it comes from insecurity. I don’t know how you will react to me so I actdefensive  and my words get mixed up. I don’t mean to push away, but on the inside I get really scared. 

6. How long have you been blogging?

About 4 and a half months! It’s been some of the most wonderful and amazing months of my life!

7. What is your favorite type of character in a book?


I don’t come by The nerd often, but when I do I smile. These characters have a special place in my heart. 

8. What is your favorite TV show?


Intense, spooky, and captivating. Need I say more?

9. What is your favorite holiday? Why?


Nothing lifts my spirit like Christmas does, nothing! It’s one of the few holiday that truly makes me believe in magic. 

10. What 3 famous/fictional people, living or dead, would you want at your fantasy dinner party?

Jesus, Morpheus (from Splintered), and Charlotte Bronte. You can make your own judgement about how this dinner party goes. 

11. What’s your pet peeve(s)?


When girls take off their heels before getting into the car or being at home. I see this all the time. Yes, heels hurt. Yes, I know most people do this. It simply bothers me. I know before I put heels on that it is going to be a pain and I know it looks worse just carrying them in my hands walking barefooted with sandals on. We wear heels for a reason, taking them off and complaining about them ruins it. 


SophieBlame it on Chocolate questions:

1. Would you prefer to have a job you loved and earn less or one you hated but earned more?


My dream is to be a writer. You don’t write because you think money, fame, or fortune will follow. You write because their is something in your soul that needs to be shared. It is an ache within you that will break you unless you release it into the world. 
2. If you could bring one extinct animal back, what would it be?


The Dodo bird! Cumbersome, but so cute. I really wish they still existed. 

3. What’s more appealing to you, living in a past era or in the future?


How about a non-exsisting mixture of both? Steampunk as an era is just so appealing to me. 

4. Do you usually go for the painful truth or blissful ignorance?


The only way to change is if you acknowledge the truth of how the world is now. To truly be positive, you must live through the negative.

5. Do you have any weird habits that freak everyone out?


My favorite sauce is BBQ Sauce and two things I put it on that makes people uncomfortable is rice and vegetables. It honestly makes everything taste so good!

6. Do you usually wear bright clothes or neutral ones?


I wear mostly neutral colors, but I have an affinity for the bright ones. I feel like I will wear more bright colors after I loose some weight around my middle. Neutral colors are great for looking thinner then you are. 

7. If you had to see through tinted lenses for the rest of life, what color would they be?

A light blue. I feel like the world would look a bit less harsh that way. 

8. Do you trust your instincts/are impulsive or do you prefer to calmly examine the situation before you?

I am definitely way more of a person of instinct. Everything I do, including what I blog is based on a whim. I believe that everything will work out the way they were meant to and usually that is how things end up to be. 

9. If you had to choose to live with only two senses, which would they be? (Touch, smell, taste, sight…)


Hearing and sight, in order for me to live in my greatest loves in life I need to be able to see the world and to hear its music. Plus if I can’t taste, feel, or smell, I could eat anything… including healthy food and would never complain about the taste or texture of it again. 

10. When someone says you can’t do something, do you go and do it just to prove them wrong or do you just ignore them?


Nothing is more empowering then this. 

11. Would you go on the Mars One mission, a once in a lifetime experience, even if it meant never returning to Earth and never seeing your loved ones again?


The red giant may be beautiful. Space is even more so, but I have no desire to leave behind those I love to step foot on it. 


Krysti Ya and Wine questions: 

1. If you could have a glass of wine with any author, living or dead, who would it be?


Julie Kagawa of course! I have so many questions for her. The way she writes is beautiful and I want to know how she continuously stays inspired. As I have previously said, she is the queen of fantasy! I would love to meet and speak with someone who inspires the love of creation in me and so many others.

2. Which debut novel are you most looking forward to in 2017?


The Hate You Give by Angie Thomas is a novel about a topic close to my heart. The Black Lives Matter movement is something that we need not be afraid to talk about. I have yet t0 read this book, but I am so excited to read it soon!

3. What book are you head-over-heels in cover love with?


AND I DARKEN!!! Looking at the cover digitally does not do it justice. I was lucky enough to win a signed hardcover copy of this book this month and I cannot describe how beautiful this book is in person. Gorgeous!

3. Which author have you been most excited about interacting with online?

Diana Anderson-Tyler!! She has been one of the kindest people I have ever gotten the chance to speak with and she is such an inspiration to me. I never expected to be able to speak with her and now that I have she is honestly one of my favorite people. 

4. If you could write your own novel, what genre would it be?

If!?!? Why is this phrased like a hypothetical question? Why am I breaking down slowly because of it… I’m a writer… I swear… I write stuff. Ahhh! 


I am currently writing a Fantasy book, but I am also writing a contemporary. Honestly I have ideas for novels in almost ever genre. I can’t seem to choose just one of anything!

5. I REALLY liked Mandy’s question about “what authors are instal-buys for you?” So yeah, that one!

Julie Kagawa (didn’t see that one coming… did ya?), Jennifer Donnelly, A.G. Howard, Laini Taylor, (if I finally got a Sarah J. Maas book in my hand I would have been able to put her here), Ellen Hopkins, Erin Morgenstern (I cry that she’s only written The Night Circus! I need more from her), Dawn Kurtagich, Diana Anderson-Tyler, Samantha Shannon, Cassandra Clare (desperately trying to collect her books in order to binge read them), Libby Bray…. etc. etc. 

6. What series are you currently following that you never want to end?


Storm and Silence!!! Please, please, please, please, please never end!! I need this series to go on forever. It is just too good!

7. Who is your best book bae?

8. Share a link to one of your favorite blog posts that you’ve done.

Books of Christmas Past, Present, and Future!

I’m so proud of these three! It is a tradition I hope to continue on for the rest of my life. I’m so happy with how each of these came out. They are like little children to me. 

9. What is your favorite part about being book blogger?


Above pic has nothing to do with my answer, but I felt like putting memes in this post and this one felt so accurate that I couldn’t say no!

I love everything about blogging. The writing, the interaction, reading others posts, commenting, looking for pictures, and coming up with new ideas. I love it all! No true favorites in this post!

10. Share a pic of you and your book bestie, cause we all need one of those.


Sadly accurate… 


My nominees: 

Traveling Through Words 

Book Pandamonium

Crazy Insomniac Bibliophile

Snow White Hates Apples 

Melting Pots and Other Calamities 

Chaotic Everything 

The Book Nerd Dragon

Book Bum Zuky 

The Staircase Reader 

Debbie’s Library

A Thousand Lives 


My Questions: 

1. If you had to choose between obtaining the power of strength, the power of invisibility, or the power to mind read, which would you choose and why?

2. What song got stuck in your head most recently? How do you feel about that song?

3. Do you believe that we are fated to go down a certain path or that we choose that path we take? Why do you feel that way?

4. What side character from the book your currently reading would you be and why?

5. Do you have any pets? If you do picture them here: 

6. If you could instantly learn any language in the world which would it be and why?

7. What was the last book you read that inspired you? What is your favorite quote from that book? (Sorry for the extra step, I just love quotes!)

8. What place from your childhood do you wish you could see again for the first time? 

9. What is your favorite time? Why is it your favorite?

10. Who is/was your favorite teacher? What did they teach and why are they your favorite? (Give them a little thank you for being awesome)

11. If you could ask your favorite character a question what would it be? 

Thanks for reading! I hope you have enjoyed this long and winded post. This was honestly so much fun to do (took me 2 and a half hours, but it was worth it). Let me know your thoughts in the comments! 
My question for you dear reader, is this: 

What everyday thing makes you smile? 

I need a bit of brightening up after a long week! Send me happy thoughts!

-Till next time!

Happy Valentines Day! 

Today is February 14th! A day for lovers to meet and proclaim their love for one another and spend the day in passions and day dreams. But if your like me and are single (18 years and I’ve never dated) and you don’t have plans to hang out with friends or family (plus if your me you have university to go to, and homework to do) what do you do? 

Well, as soon as free time presents itself, it’s great to go out and get some chocholate covered strawberries, and some sweethearts, to eat and save for the rest of the week. Then, it’s great to sick back, relax, read a book, and listen to some lovely music. However because it’s Valentine’s Day and your feeling a bit romantic you listen to some cheesy sappy tunes. 

Here is: My Sappy Playlist


Disclaimer: These songs are not just sappy, but many of them are also a bit dancy. There are some really cheesy songs though, you have been warned! Also, every single song on this list is one I love, in my heart of hearts I am a hopeless romantic, if this isn’t your type of thing, I am sorry, but in the end I am who I am. 

On to the music, (for real this time!)
1. Shape of You – Ed Sheeran 

2. Give Me Love – Ed Sheeran 

(I could make this whole list with just Ed Sheeran songs, I am in love with his voice, but I will leave it with two of my favorites) 

3. Clarity – Zedd 

(Clarity is not typically thought of as a Love song, but these lyrics connect somewhere deep inside my soul, this is my favorite song of all time for a reason) 

4. I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing – Aerosmith

(One of the most beautiful classic love songs, I find it so relaxing) 

5. Earned It – The Weeknd

(I know, I know, it’s 50 shades of grey, but I gotta admit, I love the song!)

6. I Need your Love – Calvin Harris Ft. Ellie Goulding

(‘I need to be free with you tonight’ these lyrics are beautiful and I love to sing them. It’s been a while since I’ve heard this song, I missed it!)

7. Rather Be – Clean Bandit Ft. Jess Glynne

(This song makes me so so happy! Rather Be has always been such an uplifting song, my heart beats faster just listening to it)

8. Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol

(This one breaks my heart, it makes me feel so much within the melody and notes alone. It’s almost a tearjerker for me.)

9. Hero – Enrique Iglesias 

(This wouldn’t be a Valentines playlist without this song. Probably the cheesiest of them all, but whoever you are you know somewhere deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep down, you love this song)

10. A Thousand Years – Christina Perri 

(As a book lover, whose love for books was truly sparked in the Twilight craze, there is no way this song couldn’t make an appearance and it is honestly beautiful) 

11. I See the Light – Tangled, Mandy Moore

(Nothing melts the heart better then a Disney romance, and Tangled takes the cake. This song gives me the feels!) 

12. Jealous – Labrith

(This song gets me everytime. I just want to close my eyes and let the lyrics wash over me. There is more then love in this song, it is a story, a story that breaks you yet fills you up. Simply captivating.)
Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. What songs do you listen to on this lovely day? 

Till next time!

Interconnected 


There is so much out there in this crazy world 

People meet 

Flickering in and out of each other’s lives in an instant 

Some stay some go

Some change your life forever 

Some live nearby 

Some live in another world

I love the way we all connect to one another 

There is not a single person living that isn’t somehow known by one person or another 

We are all bounded by association 

We live by our stories 

With authors known and unknown

I saw this boy that was really cute in the mall the other day

His smile made my heart beat fast 

That little boy was so sweet giving his ice cream to his crying sister 

I wish I had as deep a love as that older couple 

He, she, they, all are beautiful 

By just a glance 

We see our dreams 

Perceive realities 

And create our vision of the world 

Each moment matters 

Every word spoken 

Every heart that beats reaches out to another 

Let us build a better word 

Let us stay inspired, beautiful, strong, and hopeful 

Let us all believe in one another 

And thank the strangers that created the moments that have changed us forever 

We are individuals 

But we are all connected 

Everyday is a day to share our lives 

There is so much out there in this crazy world

Thank you all for reading! I hope you enjoyed, let me know your thoughts down in the comments.

Till next time!

The Liebster Award


I am happy and proud to say I was nominated by Amy @Curiouser & Curiouser for the Liebster Award! Amy has a wonderful bookish blog that will help satisfy your cravings for all things book related! Check out her most recent post here.

Rules:

  • Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you.
  • Answer the 11 questions that the blogger gave to you.
  • Nominate at least 5, but no more than 11 bloggers who you think deserve the award.
  • Tell those bloggers you nominated them!
  • Create 11 original questions for the next nominees to answer.

Amy’s Questions: 

1. If you were stranded on a desert island and you had three books with you, what would they be?

I can’t help but feel that if I could only bring three books with me to a deserted island I would be so depressed and agonized at having to choose that I would end up never going at all, but I know I must go and choose 3 books to keep and so they would be, A Northern Light by Jennifer Donnelly, even though it would depress me because it is a spark for book love, Replica by Lauren Oliver because I haven’t read it yet and I really want to, and The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern because it is a beautiful escape from reality. 

2. If you could meet any famous person, alive or dead, who would you meet and why?

I want to say that I would meet Jesus just to know him, to speak with him personally, to see him knowing who he is and what he inspires would be an experience that would shake my world. 

3. What is your favourite Disney/Pixar film?

One does not simply choose a favorite Disney movie…. however I am in the mood for watching Mulan. 

4. E-reader or physical book?

Physical book all the way, unless a story is on wattpad, I love the conversations and interaction that stories start on that site! 

5. What’s your favourite social media platform?

Does WordPress count? It may not be social media, but it is the platform that has sparked the most meaningful interactions for me. 

6. If you could move you a different country where would you want to live?

Anywhere I could do some good, I have so many places I want to see that are beautiful, but if I am going to live somewhere I want to be sure I can make an impact. 

7. Which book/film genre do you dislike the most? Why?

I almost read this as ‘which book/fill do you hate the most?’ and I had flash-backs to reading the Red Badge of Courage (what a nightmare), which in a way is great because there really isn’t a genre I hate, I think there is a good book/film hiding in every genre out there.

8. Which Hogwarts/Ilvermorny house are you in?

I’m so sorry! This is where you realize that I am one of the rare book loving individuals that has yet to read Harry Potter or really watch the movies. I have no idea what house I would be in. I am a sad muggle, not meant for wizardly sorting hat love. 

9. Which blog post did you most enjoy writing in 2016?

The very first one! It’s crazy how much a whim could create so many amazing opportunities, build so much confidence, and create such joy in such a short time?

10. Why did you choose your blog’s theme?

I picked it because it was simple and pretty, something that I could build upon for the future. 

11. What are you looking forward to in 2017? Blog-related or otherwise

I am looking forward to whatever life chooses to throw at me. I believe that my life has been directed by fate, everything occurring randomly yet in a way that is just right. I await the good and the bad and everything in between. I look forward to growing through my experiences and to the people that will enter and surprise me in my life this year. 

My Nominees:

Birdie Book Worm
A Book A Thought

Maya Hearts Books
Mirakel Books
The Secret Library


My Questions: 

1. When and why did you first create your blog? 

2. If you could be painted by anyone, who would it be and why?

3. What is the most recent movie you watched and what did you think? 

4. Go to page 76 in your current read, describe the first character you see in words without telling who the person is, how does this character make you feel? 

5. If you could befriend any type of monster which monster would you choose and why? 

6. What scent reminds you of home? 

7. What is the name of one of your favorite places to eat? What do you usually order there? 

8. What is the most memorable experience to you, that has come about because of blogging? 

9. What issues are you most curious about? 

10. Who is someone that has been there for you, no matter what? Take some time to thank that person. You know they love you! 

11. What is something you never would have learned if it wasn’t for books? 

Thank you all for reading! I hope you enjoyed. As always, let me know your thoughts in the comments below! I would love to hear how you would answer any of my questions for my Nominees

Till next time! 

An Open Letter to my Future Self: Birthday Post

Dear Tiana, 

Today was December 17, 2016 and you had just turned 18 years old. You know how long you had waited for this day. At this moment, I don’t even know what to think. 

By now 10 years have passed and I hope they have been wonderful. You better have  been keeping up with your writing! I definitely hope you got into a writing routine and have finished several books by now. You, at this moment, are 28 years old. What are you doing right now? I wonder what people you have met. Are you published? You better be published. I know it’s hard, I’ve already tried, but you better not be throwing excuses at me. 

Also, I hope you know I love you. Which I guess is a slight bit pretentious because your technically me, but if you need some extra love I got your back! 

Future me. I figure the past 10 years have been pretty crazy. I figure you’ve had pleanty of rough patches and many wonderful times, but I hope you stay true to yourself. I hope that your still with family. That you didn’t argue as much as you know I have. Family is never perfect. We both know this very well, so, spread some love. 

Are you still blogging? Daily blogging? You better be. You most definitely better be reading. My God, if your not reading I will take over your body and smack you. If you are still reading… then that’s a crisis averted. You still have some sense in you. 

Please tell me that you choose not to be lazy and actually do some exercises. I swear, I know I haven’t been good at it, but I know that needs to change and I hope you are the changed, healithier version of the me today. 

Also, did you ever start a book tube account? I would be really proud of you if you did, but if you didn’t that’s ok. As long as your still blogging. I’m really harping you about that. It’s just, you know how much it meant for me to start writing a blog. You know how much I wanted to do some good with it. If anything, I hope that’s still the Number one most important thing to you, to do some good to combat the bad. 

Future me, I hope you remembered to read this. I hope that this is something that makes you smile. I have so much hope for you. Please continue following our dreams. Remember as I’ve meantioned before, do some good, make people happy, don’t argue, don’t get mad, getting mad is useless because it accomplishes only more anger, happiness is living in the moment and doing and being good, spread the love, and be you! You have the potential to be better than you could ever imagine. I feel that at the bottom of our soul. 

With much self-love and healing, 

Tiana Wolfe

P.S. Happy Birthday!!!!!! Love you!! 🎉🤗

If you are me and your reading this, I am proud of you. If you are another reader, thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed! What message do you have for your future self?

-Till next time!

Back in Time


Ohh Lord 

I ask this one thing of you 

I’ve never asked for much 

But ohh lord please 

Would you let me 

Go back again 

Right back again 

Ohh Lord would you pretty please 

Let me go back in time

Ohh Lord 

I just need to go back 

To when he and I were not so bad 

Back to the time we were more then friends 

Ohh Lord 

Pretty pretty pretty please 

You know I’m more then sorry 

You know I wish to see him once more again 

In the time we were more then friends 

Ohh Lord 

You know how sorry I am 

I know I’ll never doubt his love again

I know that girl was just jealous

Kissing him, to break us up

So I’d get mad 

Ohh Lord 

I’ve made such a silly mistake 

His love was more then I thought I could take 

But he is true 

And she was fake

Ohh Lord 

I walked out on our wedding day

Her kiss on his lips made me fade away

Made me kick him out

Made me doubt his love 

Made me forget 

His love was true 

And he would never cheat on me 

For another girl who wasn’t me 

Ohh Lord 

Just let me go back in time 

To the time he called me mine 

To the time that we were more then friends 

Just let me go back again

Ohh Lord please 

Just let me go 

Let me go back 

Back again 

Back in time
This was a song/poem that plagued my mind while I was in the shower. Thank you for reading! Let me know your thoughts!

-Till next time. 

Driven to Words

You see me sitting there 

Looking intently at my phone 

You then flitter by 

I am no one to you 

But maybe one day 

When you sit alone at home 

You read a post 

A craft of words 

Written by a hand you’ve seen before 

That stranger you saw 

Grabs you with her words 

You read on 

You think 

You take her story into your heart 

Never realizing how close you were 

To someone who grasped you inside 

But the moment is gone 

And all you have 

Is her story to hold on to 

But that’s the power of words 

A relationship mind to mind 

Lifting hearts 

Driving desires 

Linking life to life 

You ignore the shadows in your life 

Never noticing the little lights 

People who guide your heart 

Without ever meeting your eyes 

Hello, World!

I have decided to embark on a journey. A journey that allows me to share my thoughts and feelings to the world around me. The journey of a blogger.

Sometimes communicating my passion is difficult when I speak to someone face to face. I get nervous. I judge myself. I freeze up. Sometimes I get so nervous that I mumble away and speak faster to the point that even I no longer know what the heck I was talking about. I get lost in translation.

The one safe place I have is in writing. In writing, I can speak of my woes and greatest passions with complete freedom. I get to share my truths. To put down the things that I need to say.

My passion is in the written word. In stories and journey’s described in the humble pages of books. I get lost in them. I get lost in sword fights and magic worlds, in romances and heartbreaking tragedies. I get lost in living out the lives of characters that do not even really exist.

This is the craziest part. I have fallen in love with a character. I have cried for words on a page. I have cheered in triumph for something non-existent. Little black letters have had the power to make me feel alive and I absolutely love it.

So come right on in and enjoy the show. you’re in for a special treat. Join me on this journey of words. Of love, life, and loss in a world that may or may not exist.