My Year in Books: 2017

Every year Goodreads keeps track of your reading progress and creates a beautiful display of all the books you’ve read at the End of the year. This is long overdue, but none-the-less here is my 2017 year in books!

Well it seems that I read quite a bit in 2017. Far more then in 2016 that’s for sure and with 22 books read so far this year already I think I’m on my way to making this following year even better!

Thanks for reading! What was one of your favorite reads from 2017?

-Till next time!

Gilded Cage: A Review

Gilded Cage by Vic James

My Rating: 4/5 Stars!

Publisher: Del Rey Books

Publish Date: February 14th, 2017

Received: Vic James held a giveaway on twitter and I won! Also, through this, I learned that Vic James is one of the sweetest people ever and she honestly made my day when I got to talk to her.

Purchase:
Amazon

Synopsis:

MAGIC RULES. WE SERVE.

In a darkly fantastical debut set in modern-day Britain, magic users control everything: wealth, politics, power—and you. If you’re not one of the ultimate one-percenters—the magical elite—you owe them ten years of service. Do those years when you’re old, and you’ll never get through them. Do them young, and you’ll never get over them.

This is the darkly decadent world of Gilded Cage. In its glittering milieu move the all-powerful Jardines and the everyday Hadleys. The families have only one thing in common: Each has three children. But their destinies entwine when one family enters the service of the other. They will all discover whether any magic is more powerful than the human spirit.

Have a quick ten years. . . .

Opening Sentence: “She heard the motorbike first, then the galloping horse- two distant points of noise in the darkness, converging on her as she ran.”

Musings:

The Gilded Cage is magical, political, and brimming with intensity. It challenges the political atmosphere of this mystical world and it pushes the reader to think of how they could challenge the patriarchy in our own politically charged environment.

Flowing various points of views we get to know characters that we both want to love and sometimes hate depending on who and the circumstances. However my favorite character to follow by a long shot was Luke’s. I have to admit that at first I didn’t really know what to make of Luke. He seemed a little reluctant to deal with the cards he had been given and at first felt a little bit selfish. However, as time went on and I really felt I got to understand his character he became someone I wanted to root for, even someone to admire. He really grew throughout the novel and I’m excited to see what he decides to do in book two!

Abi ended up being the complete opposite. I really enjoyed and related to her character at first, but as time went on I started to question some of her choices and while she was the grown up sibling in the beginning, I felt that her role switched with Luke as the pressure of really tough choices weighed on them both.

What makes this book so unique is how rich it is in its own history and political agenda. The government system and way of acting plays a huge role in this book and it is something I wish more ya books had. It is so well thought out and beautifully written and I can’t help but feel like gushing a bit over it.

Honestly, I simply want to push everyone to read it just to get the really different perspectives good and bad and to see what sort of thoughts it would produce in others minds to take action in their own lives. Gilded Cage is timely and charged with an energy that can be felt by all who choose to read it.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts in the comment section below! Be sure to check out the Gilded Cage to support one of the sweetest authors you could ever meet. 🙂

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Reading a Book A Day: My Most Recent Streak

Something that has become both a challenge and something fun for me has been to read a book every day for as long as I can. Most of my streaks haven’t been all that long, but I keep trying at it because I really enjoy it and I get to read so much more.

My last Streak lasted from Christmas Day to January 7th starting with Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco and ending with Gilded Cage by Vic James.

In those 14 days I began to start getting caught up on my Netgalley Reads, but also to read some books that I’ve been wanting to read for a very long time.

My favorites of those two weeks were:

1. Hunting Prince Dracula

Book 2 to the Stalking Jack the Ripper series Hunting Prince Dracula was top-notch and I absolutely loved it!

2. Wintersong

A Labyrinth retelling that was everything I never knew I wanted in a book I am in love with Wintersong! The musicality of it made my heart sing.

3. Where I Found You

Such a fun an unique storyline filled with such compassion and beautiful romance. I can’t wait to see where this story goes next!

4. Throne of Glass

As different as this book was from what I was expecting, I loved so many things about it. I can’t wait to continue on with this awesome series!

5. Breaking the Ice

This book was pure golden FUN. I loved how spicy this was and how free. I loved the characters and enjoyed the storyline. I highly recommend this book!

The experience:

Reading a book a day starts to become easier and easier over time, but at the same time these weeks were when my family and I were starting to get sick with the flu and after a while continuing with my reading each day got harder and harder.

Oddly though, I have found that the weekend has been the toughest time for me to finish a book because I overestimate the time I have to read and get lost in other things. When I have a limit of time to read I tend to read more in smaller intervals so it makes everything easier.

For the most part, even with being sick, I was so happy with my reading because I got to read several books that have been on my tbr for a long time. Especially Throne of Glass and Gilded Cage. I had been reading Gilded Cage on and off for several months and could never put my mind to finishing it for some reason, but I am so happy I finally did!

Now:

I am ready to start up my next Streak (which admittedly has been going on for 4 Days now) and to continue reading some amazing books (and finally get back up to date on my Netgalley Reads).

Thanks for reading! Would you read a book a day for a period of time? Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

Books of Christmas Present 2017

Christmas is finally here!!!! I want to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday’s that are filled with love and joy and all around good times.

This Christmas I feel extremely fortunate for all the gifts that I have received and I look forward to enjoying each and every one of them.

However, there are some really special books that I have received this year that I want to share with all of you and also to have a special memory of the lovely day.

Here are my Books of Christmas Present for 2017!

The Girl Who Could Silence the Wind by Meg Medina

Sonia’s entire village believes she has a gift, but it’s only in leaving home that she finds out who she truly is. A compelling tale from a rich new voice in young adult fiction.

Sixteen-year-old Sonia Ocampo was born on the night of the worst storm Tres Montes had ever seen. And when the winds mercifully stopped, an unshakable belief in the girl’s protective powers began. All her life, Sonia has been asked to pray for sick mothers or missing sons, as worried parents and friends press silver milagros in her hands. Sonia knows she has no special powers, but how can she disappoint those who look to her for solace?

Still, her conscience is heavy, so when she gets a chance to travel to the city and work in the home of a wealthy woman, she seizes it. At first, Sonia feels freedom in being treated like all the other girls. But when news arrives that her beloved brother has disappeared while looking for work, she learns to her sorrow that she can never truly leave the past or her family behind.

With deeply realized characters, a keen sense of place, a hint of magical realism, and a flush of young romance, Meg Medina tells the tale of a strongwilled, warmhearted girl who dares to face life’s harsh truths as she finds her real power.

This book was a lovely giveaway surprise that arrived a few days before Christmas without me knowing. I consider this my gift from Santa that came just a tad bit early. I’m excited about this book because it is an own voices Latin-American magical realism novel with some hints of romance that sound like something that makes a very light and fun read. Plus the cover is absolutely gorgeous!

Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco

In this New York Times bestselling sequel to Kerri Maniscalco’s haunting #1 debut Stalking Jack the Ripper, bizarre murders are discovered in the castle of Prince Vlad the Impaler, otherwise known as Dracula. Could it be a copycat killer…or has the depraved prince been brought back to life?

This book came into my possession and I immediately began to read it. Stalking Jack the Ripper was on of my favorite books of this year and I am sure Book 2 is going to be another favorite. I missed my OTP so much and I was just happy to be able to dive into this world again. I’m hoping for some adventure and romance and some serious serial killer finding action!

Goodbye Days by Jeff Zentner

What if you could spend one last day with someone you lost?

One day Carver Briggs had it all—three best friends, a supportive family, and a reputation as a talented writer at his high school, Nashville Academy for the Arts.

The next day he lost it all when he sent a simple text to his friend Mars, right before Mars, Eli, and Blake were killed in a car crash.

Now Carver can’t stop blaming himself for the accident, and he’s not the only one. Eli’s twin sister is trying to freeze him out of school with her death-ray stare. And Mars’s father, a powerful judge, is pressuring the district attorney to open a criminal investigation into Carver’s actions.

Luckily, Carver has some unexpected allies: Eli’s girlfriend, the only person to stand by him at school; Dr. Mendez, his new therapist; and Blake’s grandmother, who asks Carver to spend a Goodbye Day with her to share their memories and say a proper goodbye to his friend.

Soon the other families are asking for a Goodbye Day with Carver, but he’s unsure of their motives. Will they all be able to make peace with their losses, or will these Goodbye Days bring Carver one step closer to a complete breakdown or—even worse—prison?

This book was the biggest surprise I received among the books I got this Christmas. However, it was a very happy surprise as I have heard nothing but praise from everyone about this book. One of these days when I am in for an emotional rollercoaster I know I need to pick this one up.

Wintersong by S. Jae-Jones

Beware the goblin men and the wares they sell.

All her life, nineteen-year-old Liesl has heard tales of the beautiful, mysterious Goblin King. He is the Lord of Mischief, the Ruler Underground, and the muse around which her music is composed. Yet, as Liesl helps shoulder the burden of running her family’s inn, her dreams of composition and childish fancies about the Goblin King must be set aside in favor of more practical concerns.

But when her sister Käthe is taken by the goblins, Liesl journeys to their realm to rescue her sister and return her to the world above. The Goblin King agrees to let Käthe go—for a price. The life of a maiden must be given to the land, in accordance with the old laws. A life for a life, he says. Without sacrifice, nothing good can grow. Without death, there can be no rebirth. In exchange for her sister’s freedom, Liesl offers her hand in marriage to the Goblin King. He accepts.

Down in the Underground, Liesl discovers that the Goblin King still inspires her—musically, physically, emotionally. Yet even as her talent blossoms, Liesl’s life is slowly fading away, the price she paid for becoming the Goblin King’s bride. As the two of them grow closer, they must learn just what it is they are each willing to sacrifice: her life, her music, or the end of the world.

The labyrinth was one of those classic amazing movies that made me feel alive when I was young. So when I heard that Wintersong was coming out I knew I had to read it. What makes me the most excited for it is that it seems that the romance will be real in a way that it wasn’t in The Labyrinth and that’s enough to make me want to scream Hallelujah! This is one book I know I’m going to be reading very soon cause I don’t think I could resist it!!!

Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas

“Nothing is a coincidence. Everything has a purpose. You were meant to come to this castle, just as you were meant to be an assassin.”

When magic has gone from the world, and a vicious king rules from his throne of glass, an assassin comes to the castle. She does not come to kill, but to win her freedom. If she can defeat twenty-three killers, thieves, and warriors in a competition to find the greatest assassin in the land, she will become the King’s Champion and be released from prison.

Her name is Celaena Sardothien.

The Crown Prince will provoke her. The Captain of the Guard will protect her.

And a princess from a foreign land will become the one thing Celaena never thought she’d have again: a friend.

But something evil dwells in the castle—and it’s there to kill. When her competitors start dying, horribly, one by one, Celaena’s fight for freedom becomes a fight for survival—and a desperate quest to root out the source of the evil before it destroys her world.

FINALLY! I have this book finally! I have been wanting to read this series for FAR too long and finally I have Throne of Glass in my hands! I have been avoiding reviews and spoilers for what feels like years in order for me to experience everything that is Throne of Glass without anyone else to taint my judgement. (I could not avoid all the screaming fangirling that has followed this series for so long although I know there has been a decline in fangirling in recent times as well as some problems? With some of the later books. Others saying that ACOTAR is infinitely better but I have always wanted to read this so I’m excited!!!) I don’t know what is in store for me with this series, but I am so excited to finally be reading it!!!

Also, I also happed to get Crown of Midnight, Heir of Fire, and Queen of Shadows as well and I couldn’t be happier about it!!!

Another thing I want to say is how much I’m in love with the TOG series covers. They are full of a badass quality that makes me feel emboldened as a women. It honestly makes me want to go train with some weapons and then wear some awesome dresses and armor while I’m at it. That feeling is one of the biggest reasons I feel like I would love this series. Regardless of what happens I know that just by looking at these covers I can feel like a confident kick butt woman who is ready to take on the world. I’m just so excited to start this series!

That’s all for Christmas Present of 2017! Check out yesterday’s post books of Christmas Past to see what I got last year and stay tooned for tomorrow’s post taking a look at some books for Christmas future!

Thanks for reading! Let me know what books and items you got this Christmas. What was a happy moment you shared this lovely Christmas Day?

-Till next time!

My Hiatus and What I’ve Learned

Some of you may have noticed that I have not posted anything since the beginning of this month. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t continue on with any of my previous commitments. After, so many times of self-reflection I just decided that I needed to stop.

I had been incredibly unhappy with what my blog had turned into recently and to be completely honest with a ton of other areas in my life as well. I was loosing sight of what was important to me and I was stretching myself so thin that every single day I went to bed completely exhausted.

The first reason for this unrest was my Read a book a day for the rest of the year challenge. The challenge itself was not the real problem, but it was a cause of another: my sudden lack of control in requesting Netgalley e-arcs. I requested books every single day. I was thinking that because I was reading so much and so quickly that I could easily keep up with all the reviews that I needed to get done because of this. Before this time I only allowed myself to have about 4 netgalley books pending at a time. Now, I have 42 e-arcs waiting to be reviewed.

The problem wasn’t just that. At first I was keeping up with all my requests with ease, but what really got to me was that because I was reviewing a book everyday I was rarely writing any other kind of post. Plus, this didn’t give me any room to breath so that I could read any other books that I had on my shelves.

On top of that this meant that my blog got really predictable. Where as before, I posted whatever I felt like posting for that day while enjoying trying to come up with something unique to write about that I enjoyed. I am at my happiest when I have variety in my life. I need unpredictability in order to feel good. I’m not even talking about anything major, but just something different to spice things up and surprise me.

The worse part of this time for me was the fact that no matter how much I talked about trying to find a balance it was not working because of work. Monday-Friday I have a ton of my time blocked out due to work. It would be fine if it was in the morning, but I start work later in the day and leave at night. Which means my mornings are booked with preparing for work and after work I’m too tired to really want to do anything else, but relax and sleep.

On top of all this I lost something else that is really important to me: writing. My dream is to be a writer and write novels that would inspire others just like the novels I have read have inspired me. With reading, working, and blogging writing my own stories was put to the wayside and that was something that became heartbreaking for me.

One of the best parts of my hiatus has been getting back into writing again little by little. Due to this hiatus my ideas have been sparking again and I have found three new story ideas and have furthered several of my older ones.

Now that this hiatus is officially over I am going to do a few things:

1. I am going to finish all the Netgalley books I have been approved for and I am NOT going to request any more until I have completed all of them.

2. My only true commitment each day is going to be to write for 30 mins. To 1 hour or more each day towards my own books.

3. If I can continue the book a day challenge I will, but I am no longer just going to read books for review.

4. As soon as I finish all my Netgalley reads I am going to get back into writing posts that are not just review posts.

5. If I am feeling too stretched for time I am not going to let it stress me out anymore. I am going to go through with my commitments one slow step at a time.

6. As far as Netgalley goes I am only going to request to where there are only 2-3 books pending to be read on my shelf at any time. (In reality one at a time would be ideal, but for now I am on a Netgalley ban for a long time anyway)

7. I am not going to go on a hiatus like this without mentioning it first again. I feel like I disappeared for too long and there are a lot of things that I’ve missed.

8. I am going to read way more of my own books. I have so many I haven’t read yet and I’m angry with myself with getting caught up with all the arcs instead of just reading the things I purchased because I thought I would love it.

Things will probably be wonky for a while. For now reviews will continue to be my main content, but if I can find a way to do all I wish to do then I will do my best. I might not post every day during the next few weeks and months, but I will finally find my balance.

Thanks so much for reading! Let me know your thoughts and any tips down in the comments below. I’m terribly sorry for being gone for so long. It’s been a bumpy road, but I think I’m finding my way back to a happier place.

-Till next time!

Beyond The Surface: December Book of the Month Announcement

It’s December and you know what that means! Christmas is coming!!! I’m so excited for the Christmas season and I am happy to be able to spend it with my family and everyone I love.

I am so happy to say I am continuing Beyond the Surface into the new year. We can never have enough platforms to discuss mental illness or even just read about it to get informed. I am currently figuring how to rework the book club to get it working a little better so hopefully in January there will be some new fun book club related things to look forward to.

I am happy to be able to celebrate Christmas by reading our December book of the month: Queens of Geek!

Queens of Geek by Jen Wilde

Three friends, two love stories, one convention: this fun, feminist love letter to geek culture is all about fandom, friendship, and finding the courage to be yourself.

Charlie likes to stand out. She’s a vlogger and actress promoting her first movie at SupaCon, and this is her chance to show fans she’s over her public breakup with co-star Reese Ryan. When internet-famous cool-girl actress Alyssa Huntington arrives as a surprise guest, it seems Charlie’s long-time crush on her isn’t as one-sided as she thought.

Taylor likes to blend in. Her brain is wired differently, making her fear change. And there’s one thing in her life she knows will never change: her friendship with her best guy friend Jamie—no matter how much she may secretly want it to. But when she hears about a fan contest for her favorite fandom, she starts to rethink her rules on playing it safe.

Queens of Geek by Jen Wilde, chosen by readers like you for Macmillan’s young adult imprint Swoon Reads, is an empowering novel for anyone who has ever felt that fandom is family.

Why I picked this book for December:

1. The Geeky Cuteness of what this will be feels like just the right amount of happiness for the Christmas season.

2. It’s one of the first Vlogger convention combo I have seen and I’m so excited to see how much of it I can relate to.

3. There is not one, but two love stories!

4. There is Asperger and Anxiety reps.

5. It feels like an all inclusive come as you are kind of book that I think the world needs to read.

6. I could not resist that cover.

7. Anything described as a feminist love letter is something good to read in my book.

8. I simply want to read it so I can fangirl all over it!

Join the discussion on Goodreads here!

Thanks for reading! Let me know if your interested in reading along with me down in the comments.

-Till next time!

Judging Ya Releases by Their Covers: November 20th-25th

Welcome one an all to a brand new weekly series where I take the ya releases of each week and say what I think they are about solely based on their titles and book covers. Then the next day I post the books with their true synopsis’s and see if I judged correctly! Who know’s? Maybe I will get a book plot of my own from these covers?

Here are the ya releases of this week:

Consumed by Abbie Rushton

This seems like a ya summer romance with a metal-illness twist. I would say our main character has had a rough time of things and either is consumed by all the outside things that are happening to her or by her emotions and everything that she is afraid of. I think this is going to be a novel about letting go and finding happiness and fun in life tripping over love along the way.

The City of Sand by Tianxia Bachang

This book looks like it is going to be either a dystopian or fantasy set in China in which the characters beliefs about themselves are tested as they find themselves destined to do more then they ever thought. In a Perfect World Dragons would be alive in this novel, but sadly I get a vibe that they are not or at least don’t make an appearance till the very end to pass on some sort of wisdom to our MC.

Not Now, Not Ever by Lily Anderson (pretty sure this is a book 2)

This cover screams the 90’s family comedy to me and I’m hoping that it kinda embodies that. It looks like a fun summery laugh fest where love is easy only till we ourselves make it complicated. I’m feeling some flirtation happening in this novel, but it is either unrequited or the characters are trying really hard to hide it from the other. Either way, I feel like there are gonna be some deep moments in this book from the cover I’m feeling it’s a laugh till you cry then cry till you find a way to laugh kind of situation.

Siege of Shadows by Sarah Raughley (another book 2)

I have absolutely no context from the first book to help me out with this cover, but I am getting paranormal dystopian horror feels from this cover. Fiery destruction looks like an important theme in this cover and I have a feeling that whatever this book is about it’s characters are going to be in a world of pain. It being the Effigies series I gotta think there is going to be a lot of death and that somehow our characters are going to have to ward away some evil. Plus I’m thinking with the Shadows part that their is going to be some deceit in this book and the villain is going to be the last person you suspect.

That’s all for this weeks releases and I was surprised to see that there were only four. I am so excited for this series because I adore covers and so many times a cover can either be spot on or totally misleading so I know I am going to have a lot of fun with this. I can’t wait to see what these books are actually about with you all tomorrow! I’m so excited!

Thanks for reading! Let me know what you guys think these books are about based on there covers.

-Till next time!

Beyond The Surface: October Book of the Month

Beyond the Surface is a young adult mental health centered book club created by myself and fellow blogger Indy to help spread awareness and discussion about mental health.

This club which began in August began while first reading My Heart and Other Black Holes and then The Goldfish Boy has been something that has grown to be very close to my heart.

For October, Indy has chosen one of my most anticipated novels of this year, The Art of Starving centered around a boy with an eating disorder.

The Art of Starving by Sam J. Miller

“More Happy Than Not meets Glory O’Brien’s History of the Future in this gritty, contemporary YA debut about a bullied gay teen boy with an eating disorder who believes he’s developed super powers via starvation.

Matt hasn’t eaten in days.

His stomach stabs and twists inside, pleading for a meal. But Matt won’t give in. The hunger clears his mind, keeps him sharp—and he needs to be as sharp as possible if he’s going to find out just how Tariq and his band of high school bullies drove his sister, Maya, away.

Matt’s hardworking mom keeps the kitchen crammed with food, but Matt can resist the siren call of casseroles and cookies because he has discovered something: the less he eats the more he seems to have . . . powers. The ability to see things he shouldn’t be able to see. The knack of tuning in to thoughts right out of people’s heads. Maybe even the authority to bend time and space.

So what is lunch, really, compared to the secrets of the universe?

Matt decides to infiltrate Tariq’s life, then use his powers to uncover what happened to Maya. All he needs to do is keep the hunger and longing at bay. No problem. But Matt doesn’t realize there are many kinds of hunger… and he isn’t in control of all of them.

A darkly funny, moving story of body image, addiction, friendship, and love, Sam J. Miller’s debut novel will resonate with any reader who’s ever craved the power that comes with self-acceptance.”

Why I am excited for this book:

  • It is magical realism mixed with mental health creating something extraordinary and I can just feel with my soul that this is going to be a beautiful novel.
  • I read the first chapter on epic reads first 5 and the writing in just that first chapter was impeccable.
  • It is an LGBT read and we all need to read more novels with LGBT representation.
  • The whole premise of this book is fascinating to me and I really want to see how the author handles the eating disorder while mixing in magical elements.
  • That cover is my kind of aesthetically pleasing… I mean just look at how simple yet gorgeous it is!!!

Interested in joining the Beyond the Surface Book Club and being a part of our discussions during the month? Click here to join on Goodreads!

Thanks for reading! I’m so excited to read this book and discuss it with all of you at the end of the month!!!

-Till next time!

1,500 FOLLOWERS! Appreciation Post

Yesterday I reached over 1,500 followers and just the thought of so many people enjoying my posts and all that I have to say feels incredible.

So I want to say thank you to all the bloggers and all the people who have encouraged me and been a part of this amazing journey in my life. I really can’t do enough to thank you for the joys that you have all brought to my life.

At this point, I am definitely reevaluating how I am doing posts and I’m thinking of switching things up real soon. I have been trying really hard to find a good balance for all things in my life with all that I want to accomplish and I simply have not yet found that balance.

I will be doing something special for all of you really soon for my 1st year anniversary in October to show my gratitude for this amazing community.

As always, Thanks for reading!

-Till next time!

Beyond The Surface Book Club: A Talk About Suicide and Depression


*trigger warning for suicide and depression*

Our first book of the month: My Heart and Other Black Holes, is centered around probably one of the most hard-hitting topics in mental health: suicide. This topic is an ugly one, but also a very important one to discuss. 

Here is a deeply personal story of my connection to this topic. 

Deep breaths…. 

I had an Uncle in my family.. let’s call him Uncle J. This uncle, he had problems with alcohol, probably was part of his depression, but he never discussed that with anyone as far as I know. The most important part of his character for me however, was that he was always a great father for his kids. I never once saw him happier then when they were in his life, but then again a lot of things in his life hit him a bit too hard. 

In the end he committed suicide. I don’t know why. I was never close enough to him to know. I don’t think even his daughters could have ever known why. But what broke my heart was his daughters reactions. They spiraled into deep depression for a while. Just looking at their faces for a moment and you could see a brokenness. It was a long long time before I ever saw them look normal again. I… I don’t truly have words for what that must have been like for them. 

When something like that happens, that’s when you truly see that even though you may be one whole person, but their are more people then you could ever know in your corner and rooting for you. Suicide is nothing to romanticize. Even I have nightmares of the way things went down. So many complications, so many strings, so many awful emotions. 

So when it comes to depression, if your someone who believes in giving that person time to think through everything and leaving them alone in their grief, please don’t. Even if it’s just staying in a room with someone while they are sobbing, or staying with someone when they have expressed darker thoughts, don’t leave them alone. Be the person that saves that kid of the bridge who makes a final decision in that single moment. And if ever someone comes to you asking to talk or for help of any kind don’t leave them alone, be there, sometimes something you think may be insignificant can be monumental for someone else in a darker state. 

Also if you are in a darker state please call the number that is the title of the song linked above: 1-800-273-8255 

Thanks for reading. I know that this got to pleading real quick, but for me all the things said here needed to be said. I have been at a point in my life where everything came crashing down and those thoughts those self-loathing encrusted thoughts flooded in. Without support from my family, without a God mom who made sure she never left me alone when I wanted to be alone in the bathroom sobbing my eyes out I don’t know where I would be. 

Sign up for the Beyond The Surface book club on Goodreads here: https://www.goodreads.com/group/show/235823-beyond-the-surface

-Till next time!