I asked this question to myself the other day and got started on it. I was curious? What would it do to my blog if I posted everyday? What would my stats end up looking like? Would it help me to do so. In some of my darker moments blogging and writing out what was going on and how I was feeling helped me to feel sane. It grounded me and gave me something to focus on that was good.
This community has been the kindest most welcoming and powerful communities I’ve ever been a part of. It became more then about writing about books and sharing that passion. It became a place where I could be myself and say what was on my mind regardless of the day. If I needed to talk about something I could here and that’s one of my favorite parts of blogging.
So I wonder, if starting today I blogged every single day for a year, how would it change me? What would change for me because of it? What relationships would I build and what people would I get to know through doing this? How much would I get to discuss? What stories would I get to share? In what ways would I challenge myself?
That is my motivation for wanting to try. Ultimately, I know I could. I could see myself sitting down and writing a blog post every single day. So that’s what I’m going to do. To all of you reading. Thank you for coming on this journey with me. It’ll be a hell of a ride!
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I have been quiet for a while. I’ve mostly been focused on taking care to ground myself and take care of my mental health. Most of the time, I’d be very open about what I’m going through and the mental hurtles I have been facing, but I realized I needed time in my own head without worrying about others for a while. But, that also meant that I have been taking a lot of time to rest and stay stagnant for a while. Instead of reading I’ve been watching movies and YouTube videos and I’ve let myself move forward at my own pace.
I’ve had to learn to be ok without making forward progress for a while. It seemed every time I tried to move forward at the same pace as I have before, and I end up burning myself out really easily. So, I’ve just been as gentle with myself as I could and let myself heal as much as I needed to.
However, that meant that every once in a while I’d want to move forward and I’d think I had the strength to and a new obstacle would appear. Now, I think I’m finally in a strong enough mental state to move forward and to not let any sort of obstacle bring me down.
But, I am working from being behind. I have quite a few books that I have for review and I want to complete reading them before taking on any sort of writing or other projects. So I’m going to do something I did for a while in 2017. Which was to read a book a day. I know this can be something that burns me out, but I only plan on doing this till I catch up and can start reading the books on my shelves that I’ve been wanting to read for ages and haven’t been able to due to the books I need to read for review.
So I’m going to do this till all my review copies have been read and reviewed so that I can move forward fresh and with ability to read and do things at my own pace after. That way I won’t get to where I build up too many review copies to read again.
I know that means my marvel series is going to have to wait for a little bit, but I need to feel like I’m back in action and steadily progressing once more. So that’s what I’m going to do.
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This blog has become very personal recently, and honestly I like it. Sharing my ups and downs and more what’s going on with me, especially when there has been a lot going on with me recently is pretty cool. Being able to remain open and honest about my anxieties, depression from events that have past, and what I’m healing mentally is really awesome! I’m very grateful to have a platform where I can be real with others.
That being said today was another nice day. It’s a day I needed. It’s also a day I think my family needed too. Myself, my mom, and my sister went to visit some relatives on my mom’s side and it was a pretty chill (also cold) and relaxing day. I may have felt tired all day, but I ate some great food, learned how to play a game called Mexican Train, and got to go on a nice walk with my niece and nephew. We were on a quest to fly a drone that just didn’t pan out, but otherwise it was a nice walk.
It feels weird, but I’m relaxing into life after a long time of feeling afraid of it. Even when I was happy about it I was afraid that the happiness would go away, but now I’m really feeling cool with whatever comes and goes and that feeling is amazing.
2018 in general has been a big year for me, but I’ve grown a lot especially mentally this year. I’m more in tune now with what I want and how I feel then I’ve ever been and I’m genuinely excited for the first time to see what 2019 brings. Before I was honestly terrified, but now I have an odd peaceful feeling about it. It feels like a year I purged a lot of emotion. Old wounds that have now mostly healed. Especially wounds that I didn’t realize I had.
As crazy as it is to say I feel like I needed to go through all the difficult things I went through this year so that I could become stronger as a person. Because I do feel stronger. Yeah, I hurt a lot this year. I dealt with a lot of general unhappiness. I also didn’t deal with certain things in the best way. But, I’m human and I’m still learning. I think no matter how old you get there is still something to learn. I’m only 20, I’m going to make a lot of mistakes in my life. I just have to make it a point to try my best.
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