Write the Story: One of the Best Purchases I’ve ever Made

I’ve been in and out of the works with my blog and pretty much everything else for the past several months and really I’m no longer upset with myself about it, because my reason for it has been pretty solid and I’ve gotten to a immensely better and more positive mental space because of it. So really, I’m pretty proud of myself. For once I let myself rest and truly rest. For once I listened to my body when it said enough. I listened to my mind when it needed to heal from feeling sad about the circumstances of life that befell me. I got to a place where I could take care of myself and let myself binge movies I wanted to binge and let go of reading sad stories for a long time because I couldn’t handle it.

But, this also meant I wasn’t writing. When I’m upset I do mostly end up writing, but it becomes dark and spun in a way where you can read back and literally see what a negative thought spiral looks like in my head. Spoiler alert it isn’t pretty. Most of the time they stem from having an argument with a family member or someone else I love. Or even me being sad about a problem in someone else’s life. Or feeling in general like I’m not doing enough. Sometimes, writing dark can bring out more darkness in me and I will feel more pain and more sadness then I need to. So, I stopped writing.

However, that didn’t make the passion for words in me die. It didn’t mean I was going to stop reading and writing forever. Honestly, I can’t think of a worse reality for myself. But, getting back to my passion I needed a way to take baby steps and I found the solution without even looking for it or realizing truly what one of my problems was in the first place. This wonderful book I found with no price tag on it at Barnes & Noble called: Write the Story.

This book was heaven sent. It has the quickest little prompts and words you should use in each story with just 1 page to write each with. It is a challenge and a blessing all in one.

Right away I decided to write my first little story in it and I plan on continuing on and writing in this unique booklet each day.

Here is my first story in my not so pretty handwriting:

I hope that this was readable for all of you. Also, please excuse any spelling/grammar mistakes I tend not to be the best speller.

I am writing this at 1 am and that’s just how excited I am to have something fun to put my energy into again. Plus, having a gateway back to reading and writing and the possibility of getting to a place where I’m generally happy and excited about being alive again is a wonderful thing.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

If you guys are interested, I could make a post once a week of all my little stories I write in this book. There’s a ton of pages and it could take me years to get through, but I think it’d be a fun addition to my blog.

As always,

-Till next time!

Watching: Hell Fest

Part of me not being able to fully get in the Spirit of Christmas this year was the fact that I Still was in a very halloween mood. So upon the end of the Christmas season I immediately felt myself shift back into the spooky spirit and found myself watching one of this years spooky features, Hell Fest.

This film was fun to watch. I liked the concept of it and even as some parts made me want to scream “Why-though?” I enjoyed my time watching this.

Hell Fest follows a group of teens having a night out at a horror nights in a theme park. The idea of real deaths happening in front of you and you not realizing it because in that situation your already meant to suspend your disbelief is terrifying. It made me question if I’d be able to tell a real death vs. a fake one should I go out to a horror nights for halloween in the future. It’s not something I had previously thought of.

Overall, what I really enjoyed the most was the visuals the movie had. It felt realistic to what a horror nights would look like. Although, there were times where I wondered how the cast kept getting into parts of the park where no one was around so often. Usually a place like that is packed everywhere. I don’t see how there wasn’t a ton of people around on a constant basis, but that’s me being a bit picky.

Of the deaths only one way overtly gore heavy and that death will be stuck in my brain permanently. I can still see it perfectly in my mind and it’s something I’d like to erase. Most of the horror I watch doesn’t typically have all that much gore. So for that one part this movie was not my cup of tea. It’s weird because most of the rest of the movie isn’t that overtly gore filled. There is Death sure, but it wasn’t the worst as far as horror deaths go. Then all of a sudden I was scared for life.

What I found to be really cool was that the situation didn’t come off as too far-fetched. In reality, a killer like that could exist and it could be really hard to catch him right away once he was set loose inside the park. Once the friends realized what was happening and got to talk with security about what was happening and security couldn’t and wouldn’t do anything to help especially because all the actors in the park are masked and they had no way of knowing who to take down felt pretty realistic to me. Even them downplaying the situation and saying that the missing friends were drunk or passed out somewhere made sense to me. At the end of the day no one wants the worst case scenario to be the true one.

I also liked that in between the moments of death there was some comedy. Maybe, a bit crude with the humor, but really it wasn’t in bad taste.

All in all, I enjoyed Hell Fest. I loved the visuals. I liked its darkness. I liked the realistic nature of the fear. If you like spooky cinema with flecks of comedic flavor you’ll enjoy this movie. It’s not perfect, but it was a fun time.

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-Till next time!

Spending Time With Family

This blog has become very personal recently, and honestly I like it. Sharing my ups and downs and more what’s going on with me, especially when there has been a lot going on with me recently is pretty cool. Being able to remain open and honest about my anxieties, depression from events that have past, and what I’m healing mentally is really awesome! I’m very grateful to have a platform where I can be real with others.

That being said today was another nice day. It’s a day I needed. It’s also a day I think my family needed too. Myself, my mom, and my sister went to visit some relatives on my mom’s side and it was a pretty chill (also cold) and relaxing day. I may have felt tired all day, but I ate some great food, learned how to play a game called Mexican Train, and got to go on a nice walk with my niece and nephew. We were on a quest to fly a drone that just didn’t pan out, but otherwise it was a nice walk.

It feels weird, but I’m relaxing into life after a long time of feeling afraid of it. Even when I was happy about it I was afraid that the happiness would go away, but now I’m really feeling cool with whatever comes and goes and that feeling is amazing.

2018 in general has been a big year for me, but I’ve grown a lot especially mentally this year. I’m more in tune now with what I want and how I feel then I’ve ever been and I’m genuinely excited for the first time to see what 2019 brings. Before I was honestly terrified, but now I have an odd peaceful feeling about it. It feels like a year I purged a lot of emotion. Old wounds that have now mostly healed. Especially wounds that I didn’t realize I had.

As crazy as it is to say I feel like I needed to go through all the difficult things I went through this year so that I could become stronger as a person. Because I do feel stronger. Yeah, I hurt a lot this year. I dealt with a lot of general unhappiness. I also didn’t deal with certain things in the best way. But, I’m human and I’m still learning. I think no matter how old you get there is still something to learn. I’m only 20, I’m going to make a lot of mistakes in my life. I just have to make it a point to try my best.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

Feeling Good

You know what’s great? Getting up at 5:30 am and still feeling amazing! My mood has steadily gotten progressively better over the course of the past two months. At this point, I wake up and nothing brings me down.

I’d talked before about being happier then I’d ever been, but I don’t think I discussed how easily I’ve discarded every worry I have in the process. I don’t worry about much of anything anymore (except my dad, I won’t ever stop worrying about my dad). Life doesn’t sound like something to fear anymore. I am more then willing to embrace every little ounce of joy that comes into my life now. It feels amazing.

I feel that anything that life has in store is something I can handle. Recently, I’ve felt like ‘Feeling Good’ by Nina Simone it truly feels like a new Dawn, a new day, a new life.. and I want to grasp at it and dance and laugh in the light of it. I’m having trouble fighting my smile right now. In truth I think I’d been tired of living my life the way I had been. I wasn’t letting myself enjoy anything. Now, I watch movies and listen to music as much as I want to and I don’t feel guilty. I let myself have fun.

Even this blog has changed quite a bit. I was kinda unhappy with it before. I took a lot of breaks from it because of that. When I first started I wrote what I wanted every day and I didn’t have to think about it. I missed that greatly. Now, I find myself doing so again, but now in an even more authentic way because I’m being open about my love for things that aren’t just books. My Halloween posts this month have been some of my favorite posts to write that I’ve written in AGES. It makes me sad that I never discussed how deep my love for horror always was on here before.

I think what’s changing in me is that I’m becoming more willing to be authentic to myself. To who I am as a person. I have ALWAYS loved books. I ALWAYS will. I read everyday. My passion lies in writing. However stories are everywhere. I see it in art. In music. In movies and tv shows. In our memories with the people we love. I want to celebrate how stories touch our lives in those aspects too.

So this blog is to be a testament to that. To all the things that deserve celebration. To share my thoughts and my dreams. To connect with all of you who wish to celebrate in much the same way. To talk about whatever I’m feeling. I think that’s the only way I can happily root myself in my blog again. To create a space for myself to be open about anything. This months posts have been a testament to this. I’ve been having a blast.

I’m feeling amazing. Not good. Not fine. Not just ok. I’m feeling amazing! I feel like I can be true to myself in a much more authentic way lately and I don’t ever want to stop.

So thank you. All of you. For being with me on my journey. For talking books with me. For being there in the ups and downs that have come to pass these past two years. New and old I thank you. It’s been wonderful. I know it will continue to be so.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below!

-Till next time!

Things I Want to Do: Next Halloween

This goes for next Halloween and all future Halloween’s. There are so many things I’ve dreamt of doing and I’m excited to one day fulfill all of my Halloween bucket list items!

1. Work as a monster at six flags/knotts

Look at how cool these monsters look! To embody someone no something else for a whole month.. terrifying people.. having a blast. I’d LOVE to have this job. I’m not the type of person to pull pranks on people (mostly because that’s an easy way to get punched in my family.. it’s a knee jerk reaction..) but having someone put gore all over my face and get all dressed up and being able to get reactions out of people in the name of a good time sounds fantastic to me.

2. Knott’s scary farm.. the all access way

This is an expensive endeavor, but not as expensive as say.. wanting to go to Coachella.. which is only a few days. All I want is to have an entire October where I can go every single night to Knott’s Scary Farm and enjoy every single ride and every maze and experience they have to offer. It’s more ambitious then wanting to work as a monster, but I want to experience both sides fully. I haven’t been to Knott’s scary farm since I was little and I think my mom has some video from the experience, but now that I’m older.. I want to go in the mazes and see all the shows and just experience everything. Actually, at $150 bucks if I went every single night that would be like paying $6 bucks per night for an all access experience which is actually really affordable if you think about it. I pay more just to eat out. Anyway, one year that’s what I want to do.

3. Visit the Queen Mary

This is a more manageable goal. The Queen Mary is known for being actually haunted, but the fact that they do mazes on a ship environment adds some extra fun. They usually do a circus maze which is the one I want to see. One year I saw on CNN the monsters they have doing these really cool acrobatics and I don’t know how scared I’d get I’d just be so fascinated by everything.

4. Universal Horror Nights

I want to do this for American Horror Story and that’s just about it. Horror nights is notorious for a TON of chain saws.. I HATE chainsaws.. that is the one thing that scares me when I go to any sort of freight night. They have them all over especially because of The Purge stuff and I can’t deal with that, but I will in the name of AHS. I can rationalize everything else.. I can’t rationalize chain saws for some reason.

5. Creep LA

This is an experience. Part show.. mostly walkthrough.. it’s intimate and 75 minutes long. This is the kind of experience that I know can actually freak me out. More then a maze where I’m with several people and feel a little bit more protected. Only 25 people can experience it at a time. It’s one of those once in a lifetime type things.

6. An escape room

Ever since I’ve heard of escape rooms I’ve wanted to try one, but a spooky escape room sounds like extra fun! Puzzles with an added pressure mixed in sound like a really good time.

7. Visiting an Actual Haunted place overnight

I really want to visit a place known for actually being haunted and stay overnight. Just for the sake of experiencing the feel of a place like that. I don’t know if I would actually experience anything actually, but being in the environment.. walking hallways where some really messed up things happened sounds like a unique experience. Even just for the history. It would be really cool to write about. Who knows? It could inspire a really great book!

8. Halloween Pumpkin Festival

This is one of the most wholesome things I want to do for Halloween. There are some nice little pumpkin festivals that go on and picking out a pumpkin to maybe carve later sounds like a simple and enjoyable experience.

9. Wicked Lit

Located in a cemetery where you walk through and watch different theatre productions from horror literature. It’s a really well produced and sounds like an awesome experience.

10. Watching a scary film at the movies on October 31st

This year the horror films to choose from are The Nun (which I STILL need to see) and Hell Fest (which I know NOTHING about). Well technically you might be able to add Venom to this because if you’ve seen how they decided to design Venom.. you’d see that he is more then a little horrifying. Anyway, one year I really want to watch a horror film or two at the movies on October 31st. It really doesn’t matter to me what movie (I’m a horror film junkie). Making my top 10 favorite horror movies post I realized I watch WAY more horror movies then I thought. Anyway, I think this would be a lot of fun.

Thanks for reading! To those who have been with me for a long while.. the sheer amount I adore Halloween might come as a surprise. I just hadn’t shared that part of me on here yet. I’m honestly down for pretty much anything halloween related if I’m asked to go do something. Halloween is pretty much on equal footing with Christmas in my mind. I think I might actually have more enjoyable memories of Halloween then Christmas.

Leave your thoughts down in the comments below! What experiences do you want to have on Halloween?

-Till next time!

My Blog Name: In Books

I saw this post on Confessions of a Ya Reader’s Blog and had to participate in this! Also be sure to check out the rest of Kristi’s Blog here.

I have a decently short blog name, but I’m excited to see what books will come to represent it!

T- The Book Thief

H- Heir of Fire

E- Ensnared

B- Blindsided

O- (the) One

O- (the) One memory of Flora Banks

K- (to) Kill a Kingdom

R- Ramona Blue

A- And I Darken

V- Vampire Knight

E- (the) Enemy Within

N- Night World

I tried to make sure that all of these books are ones I own and have either read or will read soon. The hardest letters to find where of course the O’s. I also tried to include old favorites and new favorites to sort of represent the old, the present, and future of my reading. I hope you enjoyed!

Thanks for reading! Let me know if you are interested in participating in this! It’s a lot of fun!

-Till next time!

Busted: A Review

Busted by Gina Ciocca

My Rating: 4/5 Stars!

Publisher: Sourcebooks Fire

Publish Date: January 1st, 2018

Received: Netgalley provided an earc in exchange for an honest review

Purchase: Amazon

Synopsis:

Catching cheaters and liars is a lucrative hobby―until you fall for one of the suspects. Perfect for fans of Veronica Mars, this new novel from the author of Last Year’s Mistake will steal your heart!

Marisa never planned to be a snoop for hire. It wasn’t like she wanted to catch her best friend’s boyfriend making out with another girl. But as her reputation for sniffing out cheaters spreads all over school, Marisa finds herself the reluctant queen of busting two-timing boys.

And her next case? It’s for ex-frenemy Kendall. She’s convinced her boyfriend, TJ, has feelings for someone else and persuades Marissa to start spying on him. But the more Marisa gets to know sincere and artistic TJ, the more she starts to fall for him. Worse yet, the feelings seem to be mutual. Marisa knows she needs to give up her investigation―and the spoken-for guy who may just be the love of her life. Then she uncovers new secrets about Kendall and TJ, secrets that take “cheater” to a whole new level…

Opening Sentence: “SCALING THE BACK OF A HOUSE SPIDER-MAN STYLE HADN’T BEEN PART of my Saturday night plans.”

Musings:

Busted is an easy breezy all around good time kind of read. Looking back on it a lot of it is quite comical in the best of ways. So much hiding and drama come together to create a novel anyone could enjoy!

Things happen in this novel that border on insanity all because of a happenstance at the beginning of the novel. As the story progresses things get more and more complicated in unique and fun ways and I found it difficult to put this book down!

Busted is one of those novels that I don’t want to say too much about because everything connects and it’s so much fun to experience for yourself. I could see this being an amazing romantic comedy of sorts as a movie. The extent that Marisa goes to to catch a boy in the act of cheating is impressive and as she gets closer to Kendall’s boyfriend TJ, things get increasingly complicated.

I adore Busted. It’s such a fantastic read that I highly recommend!

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below!

-Till next time!

My Relationship With Writing 


Dear Writing…. 

It’s complicated. Seriously, it’s not you it’s all me, well maybe it’s you too. I love you a lot, but most of the time I’m like a dog who sees a squirrel and I just never make time for you. 

I’m a distracted sort of gal. All I want at the end of the day is to sit and watch some YouTube. I have an addiction and this addiction has made our relationship difficult. I’m sorry writing, I really am. 

You know when we are good we are really good but a lot of the time… (there’s that squirrel again blasted tweet notification). I don’t think I could ever break up with you writing, but we’ve been distant lately and that’s been hard on the both of us. We both need to work together and change. Baby steps you know? How about we start by you giving me ideas at a normal time of the day when I can write ( 1 am. Or when I’m at work is not ok writing ) and I… I will promise to actually write sometimes writing. I know you get excited and you just want me to be inspired 24/7, but you… well…. you just have bad timing writing I’m sorry. 

Another thing I’m sorry about… procrastinating. You have given me so many ideas for amazing books to write writing and I just take you for granted by not completing them. Every chapter written is like exercising writing and you know I tend to run out of stamina pretty fast. 

However, writing I just want you to know.. I love you. I won’t give up on you. I know you won’t ever give up on me. So let’s start working together. You know that WIP… yes that one.. work with me on that. Let’s complete it together! Let me be endlessly distracted by you instead of my Instagram feed. Speak lyrics into my mind and let’s do this thing! Shall We?!
EXTRA:

A typical conversation with writing:

(No no I’m not giving up Markiplier we talked about this. ***but you watch him for hours*** He makes me happy though. ***I thought I made you happy*** you do… no don’t cry.. you really do *** So say goodb…. (Writing was silenced that day and the writer watched hours of internet videos from the intended represion.. nothing got done that day… nothing) 

Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed this post. I hope it made you laugh. This was truly all in an effort to get me to want to write more and hopefully in a little bit I hope I will have written something. 

-Till next time!

5 Quotes from 5 Books: A Game 


Let’s play a game!… in the least creepy of ways (no dangerous saw contraptions here). I will list a series of 5 books and underneath them will be randomly placed about quotes that you must take a guess about what quote belongs to what book. Email me your answers to wolfetiana@yahoo.com to win a little special something for your time. Each prize will be unique and I will do my best to tailor it to you and part of the fun is in the suprise! 

Anyway on to the books! 


The Dead House, The Diviners, and Deep Blue

Eona and To all the Boys I’ve Loved Before 

A. But what was the point of living so quietly you made no noise at all?

B. I am a prisoner of my skin. My bones are my cage.

C. You’d rather make up a fantasy version of somebody in your head than be with a real person.

D. Men were always quick to believe in the madness of women.

E. You fear you will fail at the very thing you were born for. And your fear torments you…instead of shunning your fear, you must let it speak and listen carefully to what it’s trying to tell you. It will give you good counsel.

Remember! Once you think you’ve got the answers correctly email me at wolfetiana@yahoo.com and tell me which quote you think belongs to which book! Answers in the comments immediately disqualify you from winning a prize. 

Thank you for your participation! I’m excited to see how you all do! I’ve been wracking my brain to see what I could do to give back for all of the support that I’ve been getting on the blog and I thought that doing something like this could be a whole lot of fun! 

Before I go I just wanted to put a reminder out there that my kickstarter campaign to start up my book subscription box has 29 days to go! Please pledge your support at: https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/918284718/the-raven-book-crate

Anything you can do to help is immensely appreciated! 

-Till next time! 

The Emoji Book Tag


Thanks to Lauren @ The Little Reading Blog for tagging me for this really awesome book tag! If you haven’t yet go check out her blog, Lauren is amazing and I love reading her posts. I just know you will love them too! 

Now on to the tag! 

This tag is so interesting because you get to pick 5 different emojis to represent 5 different books of your choice. Which means this tag will always be unique and will always be a lot of fun. I’m so excited to start! 

Nerd emoji 🤓🤓🤓

Ready Player One by Ernest Cline


Ready Player One is a nerds favorite nostalgia. It has video games. Awesome references and an amazing world. I love this book with all of my nerdy heart. I wish everyone would read it. Nerd or not. Also the nerd emoji is one of my favorite emojis it is just too cute! 🤓

The Octopus Emoji 🐙🐙🐙

Deep Blue by Jennifer Donnelly 


I don’t Know how Jennifer Donnelly does it, but she writes beautifully across so many genres. I absolutely loved reading Deep Blue and I can’t wait to finish reading the last too books. I love them all! 🐙

Drama emoji 🎭🎭🎭


The Last Time We Were Us by Leigh Konen 


This book is full of drama with a capital ‘D’ The cover does not at all represent the pages inside. This book was way darker than I imagined it would be. So much happened it’s unbelievable. 

Music Emoji 🎶🎶🎶


This Beats Perfect by Rebecca Denton


This book seems like it’s going to be so cool! I’ve had a copy of it since January, but I hadn’t been able to get to it yet. I love that every chapter has a song for a heading and I am excited to see what it holds! 

The Dagger Emoji 🗡🗡🗡


Graceling by Kristin Cashore


Graceling is such an amazing novel. It has everything I could ever ask for. An amazing heroine who can take care of herself. A beautiful backdrop with a mixture of terrain and weather. Plus, some incredible side characters that tie the story together. I love everything about this book. Talking about it know makes me want to re-read it immediately. I’m so sad I can’t thanks to the netgalley challenge. There is always next month. 

Tag Your It

So Many Books So Little Time
The Book Nerd Dragon
&

Kyera’s Library

I hope you all enjoyed this tag! I had a lot of fun doing this and it was a long time in the making. Let me know your thoughts on my picks in the comments. Also, tell me.. “What emoji suits your personality the most?” “What emoji would others say suit you most?” 

Thanks for reading. 

-Till next time!