Watching: Poms

Just yesterday I got the opportunity to go watch Poms and so I took it. I gotta say I’m glad I did. It was a really beautiful, feel good, sort of film.

Movie description:

Martha is an introverted woman who moves to a retirement community that has shuffleboard, golf, bowling and other activities. Hoping to be left alone, she meets Sheryl, a fun-loving neighbor who insists that they become best pals. After coming out of her shell, Martha and her new friend decide to form a cheerleading squad with their fellow residents. As the two women hold auditions, they soon learn that it’s never too late to follow your dreams, even when the odds are stacked against you.

My Thoughts:

A lot of these films with elderly characters tend to jump out and surprise me. There’s a sort of humor and character that is incredibly strong that comes from age and the youth in it can be something surprising for a younger person. However, every time I go to a film like this one I see mostly elderly people going to watch it and I think that’s such a shame. I mean we’re all going to get to that age someday (ideally) so why not have a glimpse of what could be? Also, films like this are also generally humorous and joyful so I wish more people gave it a chance.

Anyways, what I loved most about this film was that it showed it doesn’t matter what age you are or what is going wrong in your life, you can still make the best of things and do something amazing with what you have in front of you. Martha was at the end of her life, she had cancer, she just moved out of the apartment she had lived in for 43 years, she seemed to have no family, and any old friends weren’t present. Essentially she moved away so she could die alone.

But, she finds friends in this new place. She finds the rebirth of the old hobby she’d never once thought she’d have a chance to get back. She found herself a second chance and a means to really live out her last days instead of dying locked up.

I loved each friend she made. Each woman had their own beautiful personalities and something of youth in them. They were bold and funny and just generally wonderful. Yes, they had their flaws and their own way of things, but that’s human.

Maybe it’s just that I overthink things until they reach oblivion, but I want to really live my life in such a way that I do the things that I want to do and don’t let life pass me by in the now. It’s something that most of us think about and want, but a lot of times we create the obstacles to be larger then they really are and we let things slip through our fingers when they really don’t have to. I don’t want to live my life and be old and grey crying over the fact that I didn’t let myself really live for the majority of my life. I don’t want to say that I missed out on this or that opportunity when I could have made something work.

In this lifetime, I want to be at the end of my lifetime saying ‘I did it! I lived! I loved and I loved fully! I gave it my best.’ And to go out remembering it all and smiling at how the light was always greater then the dark through it all.

and maybe, the message of this movie is simple. Something quite on the nose, but you don’t need things to be complicated to enjoy them. This movie made me laugh and shed a few tears and gave me several hours of meditating over how I actually want to live. So for me, this movie is 1000% worth watching.

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Choosing to Live Life Fully

After being sick for a while, I forgot once more the state of mind I had gotten myself to just before I got sick. For some reason, being sick brought out a lot of the anxious thoughts and emotions I had been feeling for a while prior. But, it is time to let those thoughts go. To set them free and give them away. They are not serving me any.

I’m living my life to the fullest this year. I may have stumbled at the start, but I’m not going to let that stop me. There is so much in this life to appreciate and enjoy so I’m going to enjoy them.

I just needed to write this to remind myself of the path I wish to take. To live my life fully, unapologetically, and without regrets. It might be a while till I can embrace this fully, but I’m going to try and try until that is my reality. Because, I want to live the life I choose.

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Hello 2019!

This year is going to be crazy. It’s going to be different and I’m going to call it right now, but it’s going to be beautiful. This is a year where I refuse to live in any other way then the way I choose. Where I find my own path and live life unafraid.

2018 was a year of fear. Even in the most beautiful part of 2018 there was still an element of fear and it ruined everything for me. I’m done with fear. I’m done with following a normal set path for myself. I want to write my own story. Not only do I want to, but I’m going to do it. Because fear and sadness have done nothing, but hurt me. I don’t want to be sad any more. I don’t want to be worried anymore. I don’t want to live life in a way I’ll regret it anymore.

So here are some words I wish to live by in the new year:

In 2018, I let anxiety and hurt rule me. I didn’t let myself believe and what I knew in my heart to be true. I let myself get caught up in how things should happen and didn’t let things happen as was right for me and not necessarily right for others. All these things caused me to make choices I do regret. Which, is something I never thought I’d do to myself. 2019 and beyond is a time in my life where I don’t want to do that ever again. Let me clarify.. It’s something I’m never going to let myself do that again.

Fear has kept me from all the things I truly love in life. Kept me from taking the chances I needed to take. All of it causing a time of great sadness and I ended up hurting myself the most. Anytime I can I’m going to do what’s best and right for me. I’m going to follow my heart. I got way to much in my head in 2018. I’m done with that. I’m going to give my heart the reigns in the new year and just see what happens.

I don’t know what to expect this year. There are endless possibilities. But no matter what happens I’m going to make sure that it’s one of the best years of my life. I’m going to write this year. I’m going to read a lot of amazing books this year. I’m going to live life this year. I’m going to make sure that it is truly a year to remember.

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A Random Encounter for A Fantastic Day

Today was surprisingly a fantastic day. I haven’t had a fantastic day like this is a long time and I had to share it with all of you.

I started my day and exercised for almost an hour. It’s this MMA style workout from Les Miles to some fantastic music that makes me sweat like nothing else. About 40 mins or so in I got kinda dizzy so I had to cut it short. I wasn’t expecting to workout so it was fun to have it happen.

Then I did some meditation that caused some weird feelings in my body out of nowhere and a lot of emotions got purged. It was one of the strangest experiences I’ve had while meditating. After, I had a nice bath and got ready for work. Then I finished writing and posted my 2019 goals post. I read some chapters from Wicked Saints and ate some food. Then I got to work.

Today would’ve been an alright pretty normal day, but I got to work register today and because of that I got to meet one of the Youtubers I’ve been watching for 5 almost 6 years and I freaked out.

Yep, that’s me with Rafi Fine from the Fine Bros. This is one of the coolest pictures I have on my phone now ever. I never meet people that I actually am super excited to meet and when he came up to buy some pretzels my brain went haywire. I’ve been watching react videos for so long and it was an honor to meet a creator whose content I have such respect for. The first thing that came out of my mouth was ‘you do YouTube’ and he nodded and we had a nice short conversation while he was ordering with his date and I admit I was a bit clumsy about the interaction and it wasn’t one of my ‘finest’ moments. His date too was really nice and was the one to offer to take the picture above to which I replied ‘I can have a picture?’ Which was something that’s cool to me, but didn’t think to ask myself because I don’t like to be a bother. All in all it was one of the coolest randomest interactions ever and I’m so stoked about it. (Also, because Rafi doesn’t show his face that much in FBE videos in my head I couldn’t place exactly what YouTube channel he was from and it drove me crazy for a while). I’m glad though that the short conversation didn’t suffer for it.

After that, I was in a state of happiness for the rest of the day and I was smiling really widely at customers for a while and managed to receive a good amount of tips thanks to that. Then at the very end my coworker gave me a belated birthday/Christmas present of two gift cards to some food places that I am very grateful for.

All in all, it was a fantastic day. It was a random day. A weird day, but a fantastic one. I felt almost blissfully happy today and I’ll take that feeling any time I can get it.

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2019: The Year I Take Back Life for Myself

Before I had said I wasn’t ready for 2019. But, I think a few things have changed that. The first, I saw this little girl at my work yesterday and she was the feistiest happiest little girl I ever saw. She just by being alive and being as happy as could be inspired me. I’ve been wallowing over everything that I can’t change. The guy I fell in love with left me. My dad’s health isn’t doing well and continues to decline. My finical situation sucks. I’m in a job I hate. I’m not writing and I hadn’t felt motivated to do anything sense I lost the one thing that really felt good in a all the chaos.

Yet, yet that little girl she reminded me of something really important. That it’s not life that decides who you are and what you do it’s you. You can choose to shine your light or you can choose to wallow. I’m done wallowing. I want to smile and laugh and enjoy life for me again. I want to be what makes me happy. Whatever that brings into my life I want to give my all into.

I may not have the guy that I fell for to dance through life with anymore, but I have myself. I will always have myself. I want to forage love for myself. I want to be mindful of my mental health and achieve great things next year.

So here are my goals for 2019:

  • To write everyday a minimum of 500 words towards one of my WIPs. Writing needs to be more of a priority in general. I have no real excuse about not making my dream a reality. If I create a daily writing habit I can finally take real steps toward eventually publishing a novel one day.
  • To not freak out when things don’t happen the way I think they will. Too often I think that somethings going to turn out a certain way or that someone is going to react one way or another and a lot of the time I’m wrong and things end up worse off then they were before. So, I’m going to be mindful of myself and take time to process a situation before I make a decision. I am also going to just be really open and honest about as much as I can and to not get so upset about things when they go awry. Getting upset doesn’t really help anyone and it certainly doesn’t help me. I’m going to leave more things up to my faith. To try and learn to recognize what things need my input and what things don’t. To give things time to dissipate on their own time and not do so much scrambling to fix things that I can’t fix.
  • To read books I Physically Own. I have many books on my shelves being neglected. Many I’m super excited to read. I just need to get my butt in gear and read them.
  • To not take things too seriously. Yes, there are things in this life that are serious and need to be thought about, however, with my mental health being what it is I need fun in my life. I need to laugh and be happy. I need to dance when I feel like it. I need to make jokes when the moment arises. I need to go out and enjoy what the world has to offer when I need to. I can’t live my life fearing what’s next all the time. Living a life full of sadness and anxiety isn’t living a life at all. And in a lot of ways this means leaving my heart open, not just to love (even if I still have only one guy in my heart, even if I’d love it for him to be back in my life, I can’t force someone to want me in their life, and so I have to accept that he let me go) but to friendships and to people in general.
  • To give Duolingo a second chance. Sometimes I forget my own neediness and desire for knowledge. I love to study things. Anything really. Take me to look at science books in a store and I’ll be interested. Language is one of the things that fascinates me. I need to continue my Spanish practice and do at least two levels of the whole tree and maybe then I can move on to a new language. All I know is daily practice is key!
  • To write a poem every day. This is going to be fun for me, because I’m planning on doing a random poetry prompt generator and putting all my poetry up on wattpad. These poems are probably going to be a bit silly, but the point of it is also to let my brain loosen up a bit. To have fun while writing something.
  • To blog daily. I hate that I often have random hiatuses where none of you know why I stopped posting for a while or what’s going on. I want to commit to blogging and have fun with it. I might have to do a little bit of planning to keep myself on track, but I don’t mind doing so so much. I know I’m capable of it so I’m going to give it a go.
  • To meditate daily. Meditation is one of those little things that has really helped me stay sane. I haven’t been doing it much recently and I need to find my way back to it.
  • To take my mental health seriously. Recently, due to my very terribly timed break up with someone I never wanted to loose my mental health suffered greatly. My eating was weird because there were times where nothing tasted good and It’s caused me to want to throw up. I’ve cried a lot. Even though I’m trying to move forward I still want to cry now. The missing feels like I have a hole where my heart used to be, but at the same time I feel so much love for him there and it’s as if my heart refuses to believe it’s all over. The strangest things remind me of him and as positive as I’m trying to be sometimes I want to curl up in a ball and let the world swallow me whole. It hurts a lot. I feel like I lost something truly beautiful. I feel like I lost something truly right. Because of these feeling I hurt and at the most random of times. I’ll cry alone in the storage room at work or in the shower or just walking anywhere. I need to make it a point to be good to myself and take things slow. Yes, I want to start doing things again. I don’t like to feel like things out of my control have gotten the best of me. I want to move forward with my life and remember that what’s meant to be will happen and nothing can stop it. That whoever I’m meant to be with is out there and if it’s the guy I fell for then he’d be there for me, but if not then someone really awesome is waiting for me and they deserve me at my best. That I deserve to be my best self for me. So I’m going to be kind to myself in 2019. I’m going to get productive, but I’m also going to be good to myself.
  • To maintain my eating/exercise habits. My body already looks better now then it ever did. I weigh less then I did in high school. My sister subscribed to a workout program online called Les Miles. Over the past few weeks I’ve been exercising a whole lot more and it’s been a lot of fun. In 2019, I want to work on my physical health and find strength both physically and mentally.
  • To work on a business project. Hopefully this works out the way I hope it will, because then I’ll have my own little business to keep up and running in 2019! It’s at the basic stages right now, but hopefully I’ll be selling some very special products in the new year!
  • To find and wear clothing that makes me feel good. I don’t talk about it much, but I do appreciate fashion. I don’t wear stuff that I actually like wearing often at all because in my job I have a uniform and everything gets dirty and I end up feeling like a potato at work, but I want to make some opportunities to look nice outside of work for myself. Especially now that I’m really starting to love how my body actually looks.
  • To keep up a daily journal. Sometimes it can feel cathartic to keep up a journal. To remember that you can feel one way one day and the complete opposite the next. Plus, it will be a nice little something to look back on. Who knows what each day will bring?
  • To stretch daily. I’ve always wanted to be flexible, but I give up on it far too often. I want to make it a point to work at least a little towards it everyday. Who knows? Maybe the impossible split isn’t impossible?
  • To choose myself. I have a bad habit of doing things to please other people. To put others needs before my own. Even to let others problems become mine. I’m an empath and even reading a fictional story can leave me balling. I need to start choosing myself. To do what I feel is right for me. To make myself a priority. To listen to myself and do things that make me happy and that are genuinely good for me.
  • To interact with fellow bloggers again. I’ve been dreadfully inactive in this community. I miss reading and commenting on everyone’s blogs. I’m going to make it a point to start commenting again more often in the new year.
  • To reduce my anxiety and depression. Recently, I’ve been really working hard on this part of myself. These feelings internally are hard to ignore. A big thing for me is going to be working on seeing positives in life. To take little pieces of happiness wherever I can find it. To give in to what God and the universe has in store for me and to stop trying to control it.

2019 and the rest of my life is coming weather I’m ready or not. What’s going to happen with life is going to happen no matter what. I can’t forget to enjoy life. I can’t let myself go through life feeling broken. I need to enjoy what I’ve got. To have fun. To be my best self. I have not handled many of the recent events in my life well. I made some poor decisions that I regret. Healing in the new year may take time. I know getting back to myself will take time, but eventually I’ll get there. When I finally do I can’t wait to see what the world has in store for me. 2019 will be a year of hard work, but it will be incredible to see who I become once it is over.

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Signing Off Habitica: A Major Change

Recently, I’ve been having the time of my life. The world looks so different to me now, but it isn’t the world that’s changed it’s me. I’ve changed. Or what I should say is I’ve changed back. I am back to my roots. To who I am at the very core of myself and that’s been something really incredible.

A while back I made a post about this amazing app called Habitica. I used it religiously and it helped me stay on track. See my problem for a long time was apathy. I was stuck in my own brain thinking nothing was going to become of me. I was in a situation (still am in a situation) that wasn’t my fault, but I had no choice in it. I thought my life had always been kinda like that. A series of unfortunate events (I need to read that series). I thought it was always going to be that way. So I gave up on myself. I had my passions, but I decided not to partake in them. I was a shell of a person. I let what I couldn’t control, control me.

It took a LONG time, but I looked at myself in the mirror one day and thought to myself “Is this what you want?” A very broad searching question that recognized that at that point I was going nowhere. Just going through motions. Barely living. I hated myself. There is no better way to put it. The hate fed into itself and told me that there was no way for me to come out of it. I was drowning and I didn’t want to so the answer I gave myself was “No.” I wasn’t living my life the way I wanted to. If I was going to make something of myself, I had to take action. That decision was one of the best decisions I had never made.

As part of that change toward positive action, I downloaded Habitica. It made me accountable. I enjoyed it. I liked the little pets and the idea of my actions leveling me up and gaining more skills. It’s a fun and enjoyable app. It brought me through a hard time. It helped me figure out how to achieve all my goals for the day every day.

However, my life has changed in a new way. I no longer need to keep continuous track of every action I take during the day. I have learned what my priorities are. I have learned how to make sure my main goals are complete. In a lot of ways spending time on Habitica now takes away from my time doing the things it’s helped me to keep track of. Plus, now I have a completely different mindset. I can keep myself doing what I need to on my own. I don’t really need Habitica anymore.

I have three different writing priorities and when I get that done I do as I please. Recently I barely use habitica at all and I think now is the time to say goodbye. I am so grateful for the impact this app had on me. It helped me figure out how I wanted to take action. Now, I want to let myself go on my own for a while. Do things more comfortably. I am more in tune with myself then I have been in a long time.

It’s a big thing because it means I am now comfortable enough with myself, with what I accomplish each day, to know that it is possible to give time for everything. So much so that I don’t feel guilty if I choose to relax a little. Most days, I’m too drawn to write anyway that it happens almost on its own. Plus I have fun doing it. I have fun writing my blog posts. In every aspect of my life I am so much happier.

So for now I say goodbye, but hello to a new day. New chances to continue writing as I like. Time for enjoyment as much as hard work. Because I had forgotten that in life you can have both. You can have a chance at all you dream of. I’m letting myself take whatever paths I so choose, and you know what? I’m going to have a blast doing it!

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Feeling Good

You know what’s great? Getting up at 5:30 am and still feeling amazing! My mood has steadily gotten progressively better over the course of the past two months. At this point, I wake up and nothing brings me down.

I’d talked before about being happier then I’d ever been, but I don’t think I discussed how easily I’ve discarded every worry I have in the process. I don’t worry about much of anything anymore (except my dad, I won’t ever stop worrying about my dad). Life doesn’t sound like something to fear anymore. I am more then willing to embrace every little ounce of joy that comes into my life now. It feels amazing.

I feel that anything that life has in store is something I can handle. Recently, I’ve felt like ‘Feeling Good’ by Nina Simone it truly feels like a new Dawn, a new day, a new life.. and I want to grasp at it and dance and laugh in the light of it. I’m having trouble fighting my smile right now. In truth I think I’d been tired of living my life the way I had been. I wasn’t letting myself enjoy anything. Now, I watch movies and listen to music as much as I want to and I don’t feel guilty. I let myself have fun.

Even this blog has changed quite a bit. I was kinda unhappy with it before. I took a lot of breaks from it because of that. When I first started I wrote what I wanted every day and I didn’t have to think about it. I missed that greatly. Now, I find myself doing so again, but now in an even more authentic way because I’m being open about my love for things that aren’t just books. My Halloween posts this month have been some of my favorite posts to write that I’ve written in AGES. It makes me sad that I never discussed how deep my love for horror always was on here before.

I think what’s changing in me is that I’m becoming more willing to be authentic to myself. To who I am as a person. I have ALWAYS loved books. I ALWAYS will. I read everyday. My passion lies in writing. However stories are everywhere. I see it in art. In music. In movies and tv shows. In our memories with the people we love. I want to celebrate how stories touch our lives in those aspects too.

So this blog is to be a testament to that. To all the things that deserve celebration. To share my thoughts and my dreams. To connect with all of you who wish to celebrate in much the same way. To talk about whatever I’m feeling. I think that’s the only way I can happily root myself in my blog again. To create a space for myself to be open about anything. This months posts have been a testament to this. I’ve been having a blast.

I’m feeling amazing. Not good. Not fine. Not just ok. I’m feeling amazing! I feel like I can be true to myself in a much more authentic way lately and I don’t ever want to stop.

So thank you. All of you. For being with me on my journey. For talking books with me. For being there in the ups and downs that have come to pass these past two years. New and old I thank you. It’s been wonderful. I know it will continue to be so.

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In Response…

A few hours ago.. before I went to sleep I got a very special notification. My favorite person in all the world Andrew @GroovyGlasses whose name has become quite a common occurrence on this blog lately had sent me an email.. which is typical as of late.. we talk a lot. Anyway, he told me he had written something for me and of course it didn’t matter that it was 1 am.. I HAD to read it. So in a haze I excitedly took to WordPress and started reading his latest post he titled A Special Post for a Beautiful Person.

When I tell you all that no one and I mean no one had ever done something that meant as much to me as this post did to me I truly mean it. I had to bite back tears. Andrew is the sort of guy that books are written about. Those guys that you wish existed, because if they actually did you’d fall in love immediately and live this incredibly beautiful life. He is that to me. Except he is better then any fictional character I’ve ever read about.. actually better and not just because he is a real person, but because of who he is.. because his soul is the brightest I’ve ever seen.

You know what’s the most insane part? We’ve only known each other for two months. Talk about a cliche ya romance. I had my doubts that that was something that could really exist. It’s real and it’s so so beautiful. I am so lucky. So incredibly lucky.

Andrew is a musician. He writes these amazing lyrics and I know that his musical composition is amazing too. He likes to think that he isn’t this amazing person.. but he is. He is really special. He talks in his post about how he believes I will become this amazing author and I’m here to tell you I don’t know if those are shoes I can fill, but I’m going to try. But, if he doesn’t think that through his music he’s not going to touch so many peoples hearts he is delusional. He works so hard. More then anyone I know. By dedication alone I know he will make it further then he ever imagined. That he’ll become one of those people the world admires and doesn’t quite understand how his existence is possible.

Already, I don’t know how his existence is possible.

For once in my life.. someone has made me truly incapable of finding all the words to fully express what they mean to me. Because the full words for it simply don’t exist, not in English or any other language. Feelings like this, they can only be felt, not written or heard or seen. This blog.. it’s nowhere near the biggest blog in the world or the best (sorry Andrew.. I just can’t even think to claim that), but it has been really good at bringing people to my life that I genuinely connect with. Andrew being the one human being on this earth I don’t understand exactly how or why.. if anyone let me I’d talk about him like Ned talks about his wife on Buzzfeed.. my feeling for him are that gushy and infinite.

I was floored last night. I am still floored this morning. If I could.. and I probably will.. I would try and become one with my flooring just starting at the ceiling and wondering.. is this real? Is anything real? Is Andrew real? Am I real? And being able to answer yes to every single question.

The odds of him being the one to stumble upon my blog. The odds of his first comment to me. Those are some odds that go beyond infinite. It’s truly something I will never be anything, but grateful for.

To Andrew. You are the light of my life. I can’t believe you exist. I can’t believe you wrote that for me. I will forever be grateful to you. Thank you for being in my life. Even if neither of us were expecting or particularly trying to be in the others life. That’s what makes this so special. I have no idea what’s in store for us, but I know this.. it’s going to be beautiful.

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2nd Year Blogoversery Celebration!!!

I don’t really have words. I have been blogging for only two years and yet it feels like I’ve been a part of this community since forever. Over time this blog has evolved and had growing pains and has been as much of a rollercoaster as my life has been. I am so proud of this little piece of the Internet I have carved out for myself. For the love I have received from this community. For the joy and opportunity this has brought into my life.

Blogging truly has saved my life. Without blogging some of the things that have come to pass in the past two years would have been unbearable. I never imagined just what was in store for me thanks to this incredible decision I was so unsure of at first and was basically forced to take by my sister. I owe this all to her. She might not realize it, but because of her getting me to create this blog I’ve had the most beautiful things come into my life unexpectedly. I wouldn’t have made connections with fellow bloggers. I wouldn’t have made connections with authors. I wouldn’t have found the person who holds my heart.

I feel so incredibly lucky because this blog though I may not receive any financial support from it has given me things that are beyond anything of monetary value. I have no words for the peace it’s given me. The love it’s gifted to me. The friendships it’s allowed me to have. In two very short years my life looks nothing like it once did and I know in the next two years things will change further in even more beautiful ways.

In two years I’ve written over 500 posts.. accumulated over 2,700 followers.. had my posts viewed over 50,000 times… that’s absolutely insane!!! I don’t have words for this. I’m just a simple bookworm who loves books and is now starting to write about all the things I love. I’m so eternally grateful. If your reading this THANK YOU!!! This is one of my proudest achievements.

So I can’t finish this off without one last very special thing.. to link back to the very first post I ever wrote. I had no idea the kind of ride I was in for back then. https://thebookravenblog.wordpress.com/2016/10/14/hello-world/ What’s crazy is that post has 14 likes.. which is the amount of likes I used to get crazy happy over. Honestly, it wouldn’t matter if only one person was engaging with my content. This world of writing and books has always been my greatest passion. I’m so full of joy to be able to share that with all of you every day. If I made one person happy I consider that a great success.

Thanks so much for reading! Thanks to each and everyone of you for making this journey amazing. I have so much love for this community. Thank you!

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Creating the Ultimate Halloween Playlist

I woke up this morning feeling so good.. Recently, I’ve woken up like that a LOT and it feels fantastic. Honestly, right before October I was in a huge Christmas mood and I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to fully get into the spirit of October, but I needn’t have worried. I am in such a horror mood right now and I am loving it!

Honestly, there is one song in particular that inspired me to make a Halloween playlist for the first time.. it’s called ‘A Little Piece of Heaven’ by Avenged Sevenfold. Anyone who knows me in real life would ask me what happened to me that I ended up listening to bands like this and started really enjoying them. I mean, EDM will always have my heart, but it really does feel good to rock out to some of these songs. Anyway, when I heard ‘A Little Piece of Heaven’ for the first time I smiled from ear to ear, because it was perfect for Halloween. Absolutely perfect! I highly recommend giving it a listen..unless you don’t like songs that have strong language then don’t give it a listen, but you have to try and listen to those first few notes and tell me that it’s not pure halloween music.

Anyway, after that I had to make a playlist of songs that made me feel like I was in a Halloween experience. Songs that brought memories of going to freight night and dressing up as a kid trick or treating. Songs that brought to the surface what Halloween represents to me. A dark, celebratory time of facing fear in the eye without blinking. Of letting ourselves accept fear as a part of our lives that we shouldn’t turn away from. A time where we are a little bit braver. A time where there is a very real twisted magic in the air. Where our darkest imaginings walk free. A time where we are open with ourselves and each other that yes we are terrified. We are all terrified of something. Yet, we can express that terror and laugh about it and enjoy times with people we care about.

So this playlist is something special to me. I don’t know if I’ll be ‘done’ with it.. I don’t think I’m ever ‘done’ with a playlist. But, I will send you all the link to it here!

It has some classic Halloween songs. You can’t have a Halloween playlist without Thriller or This is Halloween. If you have any recommendations of some of your favorite Halloween jams to add to it let me know. Listening to this playlist makes me feel so happy. It feels so celebratory of a part of me that doesn’t come to life, but a very short time of a year. No matter what I want to enjoy this time. So I will. Because life.. life is far to short to let go of what’s good when it’s found.

Thanks for reading! I hope you all enjoy the playlist. I hope that it reminds you all of the joy of Halloween. A time where belief and reality have a very thin line. Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below! Have a wonderful spooky month ahead!

-Till next time!