30 Days of Drawing Challenge

One of the things in my life I have always wished I was good at was being able to draw. I grew up being known as someone who was bad at it.. hopeless even, but after encouragement from some special people in my life I gave it a shot. A bit later I decided to take on this 30 day challenge. I gotta say I’m proud of how things turned out!

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February 20th, 2020

Day 1: Something you couldn’t live without 

February 21st, 2020 

Day 2: Favorite TV Show 

February 22nd, 2020

Day 3: something yellow 

February 23rd, 2020 

Day 4: Favorite book character 

February 24th, 2020

Day 5: Favorite Movie (I don’t have one so I picked one I think is really great) (also chose a horror cause that what I feel like drawing) 

February 25th, 2020 

Day 6: Something I dislike (I love waffles what can I say?)

February 26th, 2020

Day 7: Favorite Animated Character (don’t have a favorite so I’m picking one from my childhood.. baby me adored scooby doo)

February 27th, 2020 

Day 8: Something you miss. 

February 28th, 2020

Day 9: A band logo

I also drew noodle from the Gorillaz as a request: 

February 29th, 2020

Day 10: Favorite thing when you were little (God I was obsessed with dragons as a kid)

March 1st, 2020

Day 11: Something purple 

March 7th, 2020 

Day 12: Flag of the country your from 

March 8th, 2020: 

Day 13: Favorite movie Character (don’t have one so I’m drawing just one I like a lot) 

March 9th, 2020 

Day 14: Favorite Fairytale (picked my childhood favorite Cinderella) 

March 10th, 2020

Day 15: Favorite Book: The Giver by Louis Lowry

March 11th, 2020

Day 16: city skyline (Los Angeles) 

March 12th, 2020

Day 17: Something Orange 

March 14th, 2020

Day 18: your favorite quote (a quote I really like): 

March 22nd, 2020

Day 19: Favorite TV character: (gunna draw Harley Quinn since I’ve been watching The Harley Quinn Show a bunch recently)

March 23rd, 2020

Day 20: Favorite candy (all the candy!!!!!!)

 March 24th, 2020 

Day 21: A Logo 

March 25th, 2020

Day 22: something green (messed up a bit on this one, but I drew the first green guy I could think of Mr. Grinch)

March 26th, 2020

Day 23: Favorite Animal (tiger was my favorite animal from childhood)

March 27th, 2020

Day 24: A celebrity you admire ( I picked robin Williams obviously, he’s the best) probably the best realistic human I’ve drawn even though it’s not quite the best, but I’m improving and that’s what matters)

March 28th, 2020

Day 25: Favorite Place in your home (the inside of the shower from memory, I love my long showers)

April 2nd, 2020

Day 26: Something inspired by your favorite song (I don’t have a favorite..so I put my songs on random and Save a little love by Don Diablo popped up and it made me think of a little robot love so that’s what I drew) 

April 5th, 2020

Day 27: Favorite Food (BBQ sauce is King!!!)

April 7th, 2020

Day 28: Something Pink (the pink panther) 

April 10th, 2020

Day 29: Something in your room (not a very good version of it but I have this fairy statue that is much prettier in person then in the drawing, definitely going to try this one again when my drawings are better) 

April 12th, 2020

Day 30: whatever you want (weird bunny thing I thought was cool) (didn’t mean to but it is Easter so it’s appropriate I guess)

At the end of this challenge I am surprised at how fast I improved. There are certainly pieces I drew that I love more then others, but I’m just really proud that I got to this point at all. Childhood me is so happy at the moment. She’d be incredibly happy with how far I’ve come.

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Good Morning to All!

Good morning everyone! It may or may not be morning when your reading this, but as I’m writing this it’s 7:23 am, and so, it’s a good morning from me.

I have decided that today, March 11th, 2020, is the day that I get back to an old routine of productivity that works for me. I wake up everyday at 5:30. Do my yoga and take a shower. Get ready to tackle the day. Then I write.

This schedule allows me to be incredibly productive. I can write a lot. I can read more. It allows me the ability to be fully present later in the day not worrying about getting anything else done, because I tackled it first thing in the morning. It’s one of the most successful routines I’ve ever had.

In the recent weeks and since the beginning of this year really, I’ve felt the most free I’ve been in my entire life. I’ve found my joy. Something I’ve been basking in and feeling wonderful about for a long while. Now, I’m adding in productivity. Taking care of myself in a better way has been accomplished. It’s now time to be passionate. To get up everyday and to do the things I love to do. To become more the woman I know that I can be. Someone strong, goal-oriented, who steadily does the things she loves, and who allows herself to evolve a bit every single day.

So to everyone I say good morning! Each and everyday is a new one. The ability to create a new way for yourself is available each and everyday. All you have to do is decide and then start.

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Hello March 2019!

Hello everyone! Yes Indeed, I am back from the dead. I am still a bit under the weather, but I am definitely much better then I have been.

It’s a brand new month and I’m finally going to be back on the blog and writing some posts I can be proud of. Because of all the time I missed I’ve been a bit behind, but I’m going to be posting some reviews I should have gotten done a while back as well as start on the behemoth of a project I’ve been wanting to do since I got sick in January. That’s right.. the marvel universe posts are coming! And they are many.

In the coming weeks I hope to create a schedule for myself that I can keep up with. Being sick has made me very stagnant and I’m hoping to become free of that in the month of March.

I feel badly about not being able to post anything pretty much the entirety of February. I miss blogging and being productive in this way a lot. So I’m going to start off March right and start posting like I used to again.

Thanks for reading! Also, thanks for bearing with me. It’s been a whirlwind of a couple of months. I’m hoping that things start getting better very soon.

-Till next time!

My November Goals

So as many of you know, the past few months had been amazing for me. Some of the coolest most wonderful things came into my life. I was productive and having fun and enjoying life and what it had to offer. I felt amazing.

However, I haven’t posted in a few days. I hadn’t done so because well, some things threw my life into chaos and I had been forced to choose a path and even if I feel I choose the right one, my family isn’t happy about it. Yet either way, half of this decision isn’t mine to make and the person concerned in all of this is out of touch with me for a while.

In the meantime, I spent a lot of time thinking. A lot of time trying to figure out some things. Spent time watching many YouTube videos so that I could have some happiness. Some sense of normalcy. I feel like my life has turned into a battlefield and I for a short time felt like I was loosing. I felt I was in a lot of turmoil and I needed that time to figure some things out on my own.

What this all has to do with November is that I’m going to get back to myself this month. I’m going to be productive. I’m going to continue my life. I’m going to be as happy as I can, because I know that’s what the person/people I love most would want for me. What I would want for all the people I love. I need to finish some things I started last month. So there’s still going to be some spooky talk for a while. I’m going to read some great books. I’m going to write and I’m going to write as much as I can. I’m going to put myself first and do the best I can in all ways that I can.

When I think about the difference between what’s happened these past few months and what’s going on right now it’s staggering. However, I’m hoping that things will turn out well soon. I’m hoping that whatever happens I can come out of all of this in tact. I believe I will. I believe that I’ve chosen well. Sometimes, you have to take some time and choose for yourself. Sometimes you have to fight for what you believe in.

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Actually Returning to Productivity

So as many of you know September was like a beautiful dream for me. A beautiful dream and a mostly unproductive one. It wasn’t for a lack of trying, but I also took a lot of naps this month? This also meant that I read very little.. and I’m really sad about that.

However, I am doing as I do best and taking today and making it the day that I get back into productivity. I’ve already almost finished what I want to do today and it’s just barely 8 a.m. I’m telling myself that if I can finish everything early I can let myself listen to all the music I want later. Music has always been a HUGE love of mine. I write to it. I listen to it at work all the time and I have always had a love for it, but recently it’s been rekindled into something really special. But again, I’m saving it for later.

The only thing that can and will ruin this is the fact that if I decide to lie down for two seconds I will fall asleep and I won’t wake up for at least two hours and that’s not the best of habits for me right now. I wouldn’t change a thing about this past month for all the world, but as usual life keeps moving. I have to move with it.

I just miss talking about books with all of you. Of actually reading them. I’ve watched far to many tv episodes and YouTube videos and movies this month. I’m excited to get back into a place of normalcy. I’m also very excited to get back into writing my psychological horror novel which will put me in the perfect mood for October.

Right now, mentally I feel really peaceful. It’s been a long time since I felt that way. I feel really motivated to write and do everything I need to do. It’s a really wonderful feeling!

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What Happened to September?

In a few short days it will be October.. October already!? I can’t believe it. September has been one of the craziest most beautiful months of my life. I may not have been as productive this month, but I’m proud of what I have done and I think that is worth something.

One of the things I never imagined for myself was being in a relationship. I mean.. I imagined it, but I didn’t think it would ever actually happen. It doesn’t really help that I can be pretty particular about who I fall for (except I can’t really control it so I guess that doesn’t matter). Not only that, but to be in a relationship with a guy who is so caring and supportive and just all around wonderful. I couldn’t ask for more.

The thing about this is that I’m not used to it. I don’t know if I’ll ever be used to it. Every time I see his face I just get this really incredible happy feeling and I never thought I’d feel that way for someone. Falling in love and falling in love this fast was something I thought was reserved for the books I read. Apparently, love can be like a wildfire.

Talking with him at first I knew I wanted to get to know him. Instantly he fascinated me. But the more we talked the more I knew that I wanted more. At first, I knew I wanted to discuss books with him and writing and whatever else, I knew somehow from the start that we’d make very fast friends. Uhh.. I didn’t expect that we’d have fallen so quickly for each other though.

The two of us can talk about anything..literally anything and it’s wonderful. So due to him being the wonderful human that he is, I’ve been happier then I’ve ever been in my life. For the first time in forever I made it a point to enjoy every moment of my time. I let myself just be. I have been somewhat productive and I’ve had some really productive days and some where all I wanted to do was listen to music and maybe watch a movie and read and so I’d let myself do those things. It feels like I blinked my eyes and September is almost ending.

Falling in love has taught me one really special thing though. That no matter what is happening in life there is always something beautiful to hold on to and enjoy no matter how small. That it’s ok to let go of your worry for a while and that problems may exist, but that doesn’t mean it should be all that consumes you. You can choose to let go of your problems (not ignore them) but to realize that they are going to be there at the end of the day and you can deal with them as you need to, but you don’t have to let that impede on your happiness.

Sometimes life can be really really hard. However, sometimes the most unexpected and beautiful things happen to lift you out of the dark. I am so grateful to feel this happy. To realize I don’t need much to feel that way. It comes with seeing a smile, hearing a voice, the sound of a laugh. That’s something that feels so very special.

Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed this. Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

Getting Back Into Routine

To many of you, this post might seem a bit odd. I’ve been pretty active with blogging recently and I’ve fallen back in love with the process of it and in general have spoken about my overall productivity being pretty good recently.

A few days ago, I wrote about Saying Goodbye to my Current WIP with the full intention of diving straight into my next project, but on day one I only ended up writing about 600 words (which isn’t bad) and I ended up shaving off part of my fingernail on accident and I took all of that as a sign to take a mini break. Plus, in general I wanted to celebrate a lot of amazing things that have been happening in my life recently. Including the biggest reason I wanted to celebrate being finding the most amazing person ever. (Actually this was more brought on by my happiness with them then..you know…finishing a draft) I’m going to pretend I just needed a break.

So I decided to give myself a few days of just doing as much as I’ve wanted and letting myself watch some movies I’ve wanted to see and generally not being upset if I don’t end the day with everything I usually would have done..done. This means that I’ve posted on here every day and written poetry and read, but just didn’t force myself to complete every little task I would normally take care of.

It’s been a time of such pure happiness. Even when I’m at work I’m not fazed by anything that might normally bring down my mood. I’ve laughed and enjoyed time with my family in a way that hasn’t really happened since I was a kid. I didn’t think that happiness could fuel others happiness like that. In the face of these past few months I feel like I’m a different person.

I’ve decided that I’m going to keep this minimal schedule for a few more days and to start working on writing my new draft then. After that it’s back to my stricter schedule, but hopefully there will still be time left open for general enjoyment. I’m just going to take everything in and let my creative well fill up.

I’ve decided that my new horror WIP draft is going to be a 90 day rough draft due December 7th.. 10 days before my birthday. That way I can do something like this with a little extra stuff to think about celebrating. It’s going to be a ton of fun!

Sometimes a lack of productivity isn’t failure. Sometimes it’s an act of self care. Sometimes it is the need to celebrate life and what beauty the world has given you. Especially in light of darker times. I want to bask in this feeling I have right now. I know that the feeling is going to stay for a long time, but I really want to revel in it. We all deserve that at one time or another.

If any of you are interested in what my schedule is actually like and the tasks that I commit to doing let me know!

Thanks for reading! I would love to hear all of your thoughts. Do you ever feel the need to have a week or a few days to let yourself do as you please? What are some things you do for self care?

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Life Update: My Dad, Productivity, and My WIP

Hello everyone! It’s been a really intense couple of weeks as a lot of you know. For a while my dad was in the hospital for kidney failure and was lucky enough to have his kidneys saved.

Right now he’s home and recovering, but not out of the woods yet. We still have to fix the cause of the problem, but I don’t know when that will be. All I can say is that I am happy to have him home and to see him walking around. Although he isn’t eating as well as he should.

While he was in the hospital I still had to go to work as we couldn’t afford to loose the money for bills and food and now hospital expenses. It was hard for a while waking up at six am with my family so we could all head to the hospital to help my dad get set up for breakfast. At least having him home now all our sleep has been much better.

One day when I got off of work and my mom brought me home she told me that while she and my sister were at the hospital my dad was telling the nurses that I was a writer and how proud he was of me. He said how I was writing books and that one day I would write songs with him. Knowing that made me feel so many emotions.

My dad doesn’t like books. He has never been one to read. Every time I would show him books that I loved from my shelves he would push them away saying, “too many books!” And yet he was proud of me for working towards my writing. That meant the world.

Because of him I knew I had to stop wallowing and continue going strong with my writing so that I could one day have him see a book of mine published. Even if he didn’t end up reading it just the feeling that he cares would be enough to make me happy.

So since then I’ve worked hard to be productive. I have utilized my time to write not just for my WIP, but for poetry and this blog. Showing him that his love is the reason for the strength I have to keep moving forward is important to me. While my dad may not be my biological father he is the man that has given me the world. I love him so much.

On another note, my current WIP has caused me heartache and literal tears as the story changes on me with twists I didn’t even see coming. I love all my characters so much and even and maybe especially the “bad” ones. Finding my climax and my tentative ending was a surprise and my now 26,000 word manuscript is starting to shape up into the story it was meant to tell.

The original idea was this: a ya soulmate fantasy romance that showed soulmates that didn’t hate each other and treat each other terribly.

It is crazy to think that the story it is now is so much more then that. To the point that the romance itself is of very little importance in comparison to the sheer amount of conflict I force my characters to endure. I’m slowly working to create a book that I would consider to be a fantastic read and with the ideas I’m coming up with I’m thinking that that book is well and on the way.

The one thing I realized however is that the current manuscript as it stands is not really a first draft, but more of a zero draft. When I finally finish this zero draft, hopefully by the end of the month, the amount of overhauling and change I’m going to have to put this through makes it more of a ground zero. A decent center point to where I can form my more detailed and much stronger storyline.

This zero draft might not end up being all that long, but what’s important is all the major parts are in play. I am so happy that this WIP has changed so much. All I wanted to do was prove to myself that I could write a fantasy and what I got has turned out to have the potential to be a great fantasy. I believe in this story now more then ever!

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A Change in Perseption

The quote above is something that I had heard for a long time, but didn’t quite believe. Shouldn’t you give your novel time to be written just as it should be from the get go?

It’s that mindset instilled in me from an early age that told me, if your going to do something, do it right the first time. It’s an interesting sentiment, but woefully unrealistic. We are humans fallible, hurting, but always dreaming.

Whenever I tried to write for a story it would be when I had that spark of inspiration that came once or twice every month. I wasn’t giving myself to my work because I didn’t want to be a failure and I didn’t want my work to be bad.

Thinking that I could edit later had crossed my mind, but something within me still didn’t believe it. Still believed that some words were beyond saving.

I wish I had just gone for writing from the get go. I wish I had pounded my keyboard and never stopped the second I realized Writing was for me, but hey at the age of 19? I think it’s not too late to start now.

I want to be a writer that drafts like crazy and I will be. I want to be a writer who edits with a keen eye and I will be. I want to be a writer who never lets a blank page stop her and that is one thing I think I am.

We all have different processes and I want this to know be mind. To write every single day with no regrets. Leaving the bad stuff to be fixed later. Letting the story form slowly, by steadily in the now.

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National Writing Day

Hello Everyone!

I woke up this morning to the wonderful surprise that today is National Writing Day! I hadn’t realized that there was a national writing day and stumbling upon it first thing in the morning made me feel like today is going to be a great day.

Today I hope to get in a longer writing session 1 to 2 hours instead of the usual 30 mins. I hope to take a look at a lot of writerly resources that are being offered such as the free Author Masterclass being offered by Authorfy for six weeks.

I have been loosing track in my writing for the past few days and really I’ve been off the rails in general, but I have a feeling that I’m going to be able to tackle today with confidence for once.

I’m going to think of today as a day or writing not only for myself, but as a day of appreciation of all the amazing writers out there published and not published who are struggling to make it in this really difficult, but really beautiful industry.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day writing. Weather it’s a short story, poem, continuing a novel, or writing a blog post. We should all spend this day writing with the thought that one day our voices may be heard.

Thanks for reading! What will you write today?

-Till next time!