Special: A Short Story 


A smile. That was the spark of it. It was me and him alone in the hallway, I looked up took in his face, his lips lifted up and my heart skipped a beat. Than he left. I went to my locker, picked up the books I needed and headed home. 

It was all so normal. A moment that shouldn’t have crossed my mind after it was over. Yet I felt something, something warm. 

Years have past and I can tell you now that nothing came from it. Nate was a boy I had known years before that moment and he is a man that is a true friend today. I got close to him after that day. We shared jokes, studied for exams in groups, told each other secrets, and gave a little piece of hearts to one another,  but we were never romantic. My heart that had started to beat for him was broken. Nate wasn’t a man for dating, at least, not until much later. I think I fell for him a little more just because of that. He’d laugh to hear all this now, maybe I will share this story with him soon, but most likely that will never come to pass. 

In my heart he was perfect. There was never a moment where he didn’t try to make me smile. He was and still is the biggest goofball, my Nate (I say this platonically now of course).  He became attuned to me, always made sure I was doing well. We had our seperate groups of course, but we became each other’s best friends and we still are. I never told him how I felt, I knew he had a soft spot for Lydia a mutual friend, though she had eyes for Marchel who she called, “Quietly handsome” something I would agree with, though we all know who I had eyes for. 

Nate never told Lydia that he liked her, when she finally confessed to Marchel and started dating him Nate confided in me. “I never seem to luck out do I?” 

He had looked so broken then, “I am happy she found a good guy though, Marchel would never hurt her. She derserves the best, even if the best doesn’t happen to be me.” He smiled.

This time that smile broke my heart. I knew in that moment, I could never tell him how I felt. I could never say how his emotion mirrored my own. No matter my feelings, Nate deserves the best too. Somehow, I also knew, that that person was never going to be me. 

I don’t think you can ever fall out of love with someone, not really. There is always a piece of you that stays with them. I eventually dated, there was Mark, Philip, Sean, and then Robert. I never stayed with anyone for long, well, except for Philip. I thought Philip could have been the one, a year and a half in and he cheated on me. I guess I too never have much luck in love. My heart still beats a little faster to see Nate’s smile. I know now I love it because when he smiles at you, you feel special, like your the only one that matters in that moment. I’m not his special someone. I’m now a loyal friend. Maybe one day a heart will beat fast to my own smile. Maybe one day they will be special to me. Maybe I will become special to them. 

Thanks for reading! This was a Valentines Day inspired short story. I have never dated anyone (or kissed for that matter) but I have fallen before and I wanted to see that kind of story represented. This story has a little slice of cheese, but I think that’s quite alright for the season. I hope you all have a lovely February!

Let me know what you think in the comments. How do you feel about the story? Are you interested in more short stories in the future? 

-Till next time!

Happy Valentines Day! 

Today is February 14th! A day for lovers to meet and proclaim their love for one another and spend the day in passions and day dreams. But if your like me and are single (18 years and I’ve never dated) and you don’t have plans to hang out with friends or family (plus if your me you have university to go to, and homework to do) what do you do? 

Well, as soon as free time presents itself, it’s great to go out and get some chocholate covered strawberries, and some sweethearts, to eat and save for the rest of the week. Then, it’s great to sick back, relax, read a book, and listen to some lovely music. However because it’s Valentine’s Day and your feeling a bit romantic you listen to some cheesy sappy tunes. 

Here is: My Sappy Playlist


Disclaimer: These songs are not just sappy, but many of them are also a bit dancy. There are some really cheesy songs though, you have been warned! Also, every single song on this list is one I love, in my heart of hearts I am a hopeless romantic, if this isn’t your type of thing, I am sorry, but in the end I am who I am. 

On to the music, (for real this time!)
1. Shape of You – Ed Sheeran 

2. Give Me Love – Ed Sheeran 

(I could make this whole list with just Ed Sheeran songs, I am in love with his voice, but I will leave it with two of my favorites) 

3. Clarity – Zedd 

(Clarity is not typically thought of as a Love song, but these lyrics connect somewhere deep inside my soul, this is my favorite song of all time for a reason) 

4. I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing – Aerosmith

(One of the most beautiful classic love songs, I find it so relaxing) 

5. Earned It – The Weeknd

(I know, I know, it’s 50 shades of grey, but I gotta admit, I love the song!)

6. I Need your Love – Calvin Harris Ft. Ellie Goulding

(‘I need to be free with you tonight’ these lyrics are beautiful and I love to sing them. It’s been a while since I’ve heard this song, I missed it!)

7. Rather Be – Clean Bandit Ft. Jess Glynne

(This song makes me so so happy! Rather Be has always been such an uplifting song, my heart beats faster just listening to it)

8. Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol

(This one breaks my heart, it makes me feel so much within the melody and notes alone. It’s almost a tearjerker for me.)

9. Hero – Enrique Iglesias 

(This wouldn’t be a Valentines playlist without this song. Probably the cheesiest of them all, but whoever you are you know somewhere deep deep deep deep deep deep deep deep down, you love this song)

10. A Thousand Years – Christina Perri 

(As a book lover, whose love for books was truly sparked in the Twilight craze, there is no way this song couldn’t make an appearance and it is honestly beautiful) 

11. I See the Light – Tangled, Mandy Moore

(Nothing melts the heart better then a Disney romance, and Tangled takes the cake. This song gives me the feels!) 

12. Jealous – Labrith

(This song gets me everytime. I just want to close my eyes and let the lyrics wash over me. There is more then love in this song, it is a story, a story that breaks you yet fills you up. Simply captivating.)
Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed. What songs do you listen to on this lovely day? 

Till next time!