A Random Encounter for A Fantastic Day

Today was surprisingly a fantastic day. I haven’t had a fantastic day like this is a long time and I had to share it with all of you.

I started my day and exercised for almost an hour. It’s this MMA style workout from Les Miles to some fantastic music that makes me sweat like nothing else. About 40 mins or so in I got kinda dizzy so I had to cut it short. I wasn’t expecting to workout so it was fun to have it happen.

Then I did some meditation that caused some weird feelings in my body out of nowhere and a lot of emotions got purged. It was one of the strangest experiences I’ve had while meditating. After, I had a nice bath and got ready for work. Then I finished writing and posted my 2019 goals post. I read some chapters from Wicked Saints and ate some food. Then I got to work.

Today would’ve been an alright pretty normal day, but I got to work register today and because of that I got to meet one of the Youtubers I’ve been watching for 5 almost 6 years and I freaked out.

Yep, that’s me with Rafi Fine from the Fine Bros. This is one of the coolest pictures I have on my phone now ever. I never meet people that I actually am super excited to meet and when he came up to buy some pretzels my brain went haywire. I’ve been watching react videos for so long and it was an honor to meet a creator whose content I have such respect for. The first thing that came out of my mouth was ‘you do YouTube’ and he nodded and we had a nice short conversation while he was ordering with his date and I admit I was a bit clumsy about the interaction and it wasn’t one of my ‘finest’ moments. His date too was really nice and was the one to offer to take the picture above to which I replied ‘I can have a picture?’ Which was something that’s cool to me, but didn’t think to ask myself because I don’t like to be a bother. All in all it was one of the coolest randomest interactions ever and I’m so stoked about it. (Also, because Rafi doesn’t show his face that much in FBE videos in my head I couldn’t place exactly what YouTube channel he was from and it drove me crazy for a while). I’m glad though that the short conversation didn’t suffer for it.

After that, I was in a state of happiness for the rest of the day and I was smiling really widely at customers for a while and managed to receive a good amount of tips thanks to that. Then at the very end my coworker gave me a belated birthday/Christmas present of two gift cards to some food places that I am very grateful for.

All in all, it was a fantastic day. It was a random day. A weird day, but a fantastic one. I felt almost blissfully happy today and I’ll take that feeling any time I can get it.

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Watching Visage: Jackspeticeye Playthrough

disclaimer *Jack is playing an early access version so some of my criticism might be things that are fixed for the full game*

As a horror junkie, I try every year to watch the play throughs of the years most anticipated horror games. Jack’s thumbnail describes Visage as one of the most terrifying games in years, but sadly, I didn’t get scared once. Honestly, I think I’m immune to horror that is too complacent.. with little story. Basically, a spooky house with the rare ghostly appearance doesn’t do it for me. Plus, hearing jack struggle with controls and the weird storage system brought me out of it. For the first time, a game gave me a headache with all the camera flashing. I had to stop watching after a while.

I was thrown off a lot because while there is a small bit of story the nuggets were too small and while I get that they were trying not to overdo things I honestly think that it made it feel underdeveloped. It felt like the player had to do too much tedious things with very little direction and in the end there didn’t feel like a real point to it.

I don’t know maybe I’m a little spoiled when it comes to horror. I’m really passionate about the horror games I’ve watched in the past that I think were so well done. Games like Until Dawn, doki doki literature club, Resident evil 7, outlast, and the amnesia games. In light of those.. each with moments that terrified me to the point of me jumping and throwing my phone.. except doki doki.. that’s more psychological horror. Visage didn’t scare me at any point. I feel bad. I really wanted it to be good, but I could not get into it. Sadly this game is not my cup of tea.

I would go on, but the thing is I’ve pretty much covered everything. That makes me really sad to say. Watching this is watching a lot of opening drawers and a lot of picking up items and a lot of imagining things happening and little small cheap horror cliches that are freaky in real life, but I’m tired of seeing them in so many movies and horror games. I appreciate what they were trying to do I really do, but for me it didn’t work. I’m sadly pretty disappointed.

Thanks for reading! What are some of your favorite horror games? Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below!

-Till next time!

Thank You, Markiplier!

I wasn’t going to make a post today. In truth, mostly out of laziness and other parts simply not feeling like writing anything at all. However, by some miracle I had the day off work today and by some other miracle I divided to click on a video that helped me to remember some of the things I feel are most important.

A video called THIS GAME IS SO IMPORTANT | Hearts and Heroes by Markiplier.

I have never mentioned it before but I am a huge YouTube gaming fan and one of my favorite people to watch whom I’ve watched for years has been Markiplier. Watching this 4 hour 21 minutes video in one sitting is oddly enough one of the things I truly needed to see and do at this point in my life.

You see for me, I’ve always struggled because I’ve always wanted to create something that made people feel the happiness and joy that the books and authors and creators on YouTube have given me… and for so many years Markiplier has been both an inspiration and someone I deeply admire. This video reminded me that we all start from the tiniest of seeds and that if we reach out into the world and take baby steps someday sooner then you would ever expect your dreams come true.

This video made me cry (I’m still crying writing this) because I’m at in a point in my life where I feel like I’m floundering and yet so many good things have happened up until now that I feel I should be immensely proud of. Such as this platform… this blog that I have neglected and tried to get back to and failed to and tried again, this blog that has almost 2,000 followers… 2,000… and to think that I reached that in just over a year baffles me.

The person in my life that haunted me most is no longer a shadow on my shoulder. Everything that they ever did to try and keep me from the people and things I loved most have been completely reversed and the freedom I know feel from that is inexplainable. I will probably discuss that more in detail in a later post because it is something that means so much to me and I think I finally want to share that with everyone.

Yet, there are so many things that I have yet to settle within myself. So many wants and hopes and things that I almost dare not dream or think of. Yet this post makes me want to dare to dream them. Being an author. Starting my own YouTube channel. Continuing Beyond the Surface (more on this later). Learning Spanish. Learning other languages. Being a poet. Going to Japan. Finding love. Being someone I can be proud of. Doing things that I never even imagined.

The creators of the game Hearts and Heroes spent 2 whole years of their lives creating it. The resulting product resonated with me so strongly I’ve been beside myself because of it. It makes me think of the dedication, hope, and love that we all should always put forth in every single thing we do and want to do and into every interaction we have.

This game filled with characters of all shapes and sizes feels like it was made to inspires all those people who have fear in their hearts to dare think to go after what they hope for in life. Maybe it’s unrealistic, maybe it’s getting lost in a fantasy, but the hope, the hope is so very real.

So, to you out there reading this I just want to say thank you! Accomplishing the changes and hopes that we want in this world takes a community of people and you guys, you guys are my very own little community and for that I am grateful.

I wish for all your dreams to come true whatever they may be.

Thanks so much for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below! I’ve finally stopped crying.. gosh this made me feel all the feels.

-Till next time!

(Not Really) A Reading Slump


I love books. I never would have started a blog about them, allowing me to write about them everyday if I didn’t, but I am in the midst of a reading slump and so there doesn’t seem to be a book review post in sight. 

Books are everything to me, if I don’t give myself time to read for a little bit everyday, I think I might go mad. However, this doesn’t mean that I don’t get the disease that all book lovers hate called readingslumpitis. 

Readingslumpitis

Noun

A (tragic) disease in which a person desires to read from the bottom of their soul, but they just can’t seem to get interested in reading any books they try to read. 

Related terms: Book-Hangover, Booktrope shade, unspiration, & Bookaholic 

Now I could lie to you and say that this is a diesease that I currently have and am trying desperately to recover from, but that is just not the case. I am reading, just in drastically small slow portions to sate my daily need for reading before I go on to focus on other things (meaning YouTube, movies, and (a little bit of eating/exersize/and homework.)) 

I am at a point where I just don’t feel like reading as much and a part of me is ok with it (kinda). I am interested in pretty much everything. I am like a dog that gets distracted by anything that crosses its path to the point where a conversation will start about a road trip, and end on the reasons I used to believe in fairies. 

As of right now, my brain has decided that it needs to binge watch Markiplier, Dan & Phil, and random minecraft videos. I still read between eating, going out, going to class, and watching videos, but these last few days have been less about books and more about treating my soul to a lot of laughter. 

I want to say that this is a post saying that I am going to stop getting distracted and go back to my first love as soon as I can, but the truth is I am simply in the mood for enjoying a different form of media and I am ok with that. 

I hope to get to finishing a book soon, but for now I am succumbing to my childlike distractive whims. 

I hope you enjoyed reading. Let me know your thoughts in the comments. What are your experiences with readingslumpitis? Do you ever feel like your (not really) in a reading slump?

-Till next time!