Featuring October’s Ya Releases

I need to preface this by saying.. this is and isn’t an anticipated reads post. Last month I didn’t have the time to come up with an Anticipated reads post like I usually come up with one. Things have been crazy, and maybe I admit to a little indulgence when it comes to sleep. When I say this I mean sometimes past 8 hours. It actually has a tendency to make me more tired instead of less or just as tired if I have less sleep. Anyway, I didn’t get it done, but I did make a list of the books I wanted to read. Sadly, I don’t have time to talk about them. For that I apologize.

Here they all are, enjoy all the gorgeous covers! There are quite a few this month!

Looking at all these books, all 49 of them, I can’t help but feel guilty. I have so much to say about them. Just no time to say it. I have to move on to next months releases. It’s been hard recently and I’ve been re-configuring how to be productive to the best of my abilities. It isn’t really an excuse. I don’t know how many of you look forward to these posts, but they mean a lot to me. Anyway I promise I’ll have a November post up. I’ll do my best to keep up with these as well as I can.

Thanks for reading! What book are you looking forward to most this month? Which cover above caught your eye?

-Till next time!

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What Halloween Means to Me

Halloween is a time where children especially enjoy dressing up and getting ready to go grab themselves as much candy as they can. However.. as simple as that is. There is something more to Halloween then that. Especially to me.

Halloween is a time where everything that you are or want to be can come out to play. It’s where your fears come to the forefront and everything that makes your gut twist takes center stage. It makes your darkest fantasies come to mind and play out in front of you in the shadows. That monster under your bed feels very real during this one month.. or day for those of you who don’t engage in halloween festivities in the month leading up to it.

It’s a time when me and my sister feel the closest. We both love Halloween equally as much. It’s our lifeblood. All year we watch horror movies in the house. Yet, this one month we make it a point to watch as many as we can together. Way back when my tiptoe into horror was watching paranormal investigation with my sister. Then slowly I let myself sit down and watch.. really watch.. horror movies. As time went on I learned something about my fear and now I don’t feel it. Not like before. I crave horror movies now. I adore watching people play scary games (especially with a story). I have a blast listening to halloween music. Halloween is something that really brings out my happiness.

You know what else is cool about Halloween? Because anyone can be anything it is a time where EVERYONE is accepted. Anyone can dress up. Anyone can be who they want to be. It’s all in good fun. We acknowledge that we are all human beings living afraid on Halloween. We embrace our fears. Raise a glass to them. Thank them for keeping us alive. From keeping us living from doing something too stupid. Hoping that we aren’t touched by what fears us, but knowing we will be during this time, because that’s the point.

During this one time of the year I embrace the dark. I consider it even. What makes it real. What makes us afraid of it. Then I realize humans are the real monsters and in my mind I take a dance with my own fearful imaginings. Who, but us, celebrates all that is death, decay, bloody, and awful for a whole month? Not any creatures that I can name. It’s just us. Yet, it’s glorious.. because illusion and beauty and pain and fantasy all come out to play. We pay to experience horror and be fooled by people just like us scaring in suits and behind masks. We are good at it too both actor and participant. Because the actor becomes what we fear something otherworldly and dark. Yet we decide for just a little while to suspend our disbelief and wonder.. what if our nightmares came to life?

That is what Halloween means to me. It Letting go and setting your demons free. Embracing your humanity. Embracing the one thing that binds us all.. death.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

In Response…

A few hours ago.. before I went to sleep I got a very special notification. My favorite person in all the world Andrew @GroovyGlasses whose name has become quite a common occurrence on this blog lately had sent me an email.. which is typical as of late.. we talk a lot. Anyway, he told me he had written something for me and of course it didn’t matter that it was 1 am.. I HAD to read it. So in a haze I excitedly took to WordPress and started reading his latest post he titled A Special Post for a Beautiful Person.

When I tell you all that no one and I mean no one had ever done something that meant as much to me as this post did to me I truly mean it. I had to bite back tears. Andrew is the sort of guy that books are written about. Those guys that you wish existed, because if they actually did you’d fall in love immediately and live this incredibly beautiful life. He is that to me. Except he is better then any fictional character I’ve ever read about.. actually better and not just because he is a real person, but because of who he is.. because his soul is the brightest I’ve ever seen.

You know what’s the most insane part? We’ve only known each other for two months. Talk about a cliche ya romance. I had my doubts that that was something that could really exist. It’s real and it’s so so beautiful. I am so lucky. So incredibly lucky.

Andrew is a musician. He writes these amazing lyrics and I know that his musical composition is amazing too. He likes to think that he isn’t this amazing person.. but he is. He is really special. He talks in his post about how he believes I will become this amazing author and I’m here to tell you I don’t know if those are shoes I can fill, but I’m going to try. But, if he doesn’t think that through his music he’s not going to touch so many peoples hearts he is delusional. He works so hard. More then anyone I know. By dedication alone I know he will make it further then he ever imagined. That he’ll become one of those people the world admires and doesn’t quite understand how his existence is possible.

Already, I don’t know how his existence is possible.

For once in my life.. someone has made me truly incapable of finding all the words to fully express what they mean to me. Because the full words for it simply don’t exist, not in English or any other language. Feelings like this, they can only be felt, not written or heard or seen. This blog.. it’s nowhere near the biggest blog in the world or the best (sorry Andrew.. I just can’t even think to claim that), but it has been really good at bringing people to my life that I genuinely connect with. Andrew being the one human being on this earth I don’t understand exactly how or why.. if anyone let me I’d talk about him like Ned talks about his wife on Buzzfeed.. my feeling for him are that gushy and infinite.

I was floored last night. I am still floored this morning. If I could.. and I probably will.. I would try and become one with my flooring just starting at the ceiling and wondering.. is this real? Is anything real? Is Andrew real? Am I real? And being able to answer yes to every single question.

The odds of him being the one to stumble upon my blog. The odds of his first comment to me. Those are some odds that go beyond infinite. It’s truly something I will never be anything, but grateful for.

To Andrew. You are the light of my life. I can’t believe you exist. I can’t believe you wrote that for me. I will forever be grateful to you. Thank you for being in my life. Even if neither of us were expecting or particularly trying to be in the others life. That’s what makes this so special. I have no idea what’s in store for us, but I know this.. it’s going to be beautiful.

Thanks for reading! I feel weird about wanting to hear all your thoughts on this, but I do.

-Till next time!

2nd Year Blogoversery Celebration!!!

I don’t really have words. I have been blogging for only two years and yet it feels like I’ve been a part of this community since forever. Over time this blog has evolved and had growing pains and has been as much of a rollercoaster as my life has been. I am so proud of this little piece of the Internet I have carved out for myself. For the love I have received from this community. For the joy and opportunity this has brought into my life.

Blogging truly has saved my life. Without blogging some of the things that have come to pass in the past two years would have been unbearable. I never imagined just what was in store for me thanks to this incredible decision I was so unsure of at first and was basically forced to take by my sister. I owe this all to her. She might not realize it, but because of her getting me to create this blog I’ve had the most beautiful things come into my life unexpectedly. I wouldn’t have made connections with fellow bloggers. I wouldn’t have made connections with authors. I wouldn’t have found the person who holds my heart.

I feel so incredibly lucky because this blog though I may not receive any financial support from it has given me things that are beyond anything of monetary value. I have no words for the peace it’s given me. The love it’s gifted to me. The friendships it’s allowed me to have. In two very short years my life looks nothing like it once did and I know in the next two years things will change further in even more beautiful ways.

In two years I’ve written over 500 posts.. accumulated over 2,700 followers.. had my posts viewed over 50,000 times… that’s absolutely insane!!! I don’t have words for this. I’m just a simple bookworm who loves books and is now starting to write about all the things I love. I’m so eternally grateful. If your reading this THANK YOU!!! This is one of my proudest achievements.

So I can’t finish this off without one last very special thing.. to link back to the very first post I ever wrote. I had no idea the kind of ride I was in for back then. https://thebookravenblog.wordpress.com/2016/10/14/hello-world/ What’s crazy is that post has 14 likes.. which is the amount of likes I used to get crazy happy over. Honestly, it wouldn’t matter if only one person was engaging with my content. This world of writing and books has always been my greatest passion. I’m so full of joy to be able to share that with all of you every day. If I made one person happy I consider that a great success.

Thanks so much for reading! Thanks to each and everyone of you for making this journey amazing. I have so much love for this community. Thank you!

Till next time!

Watching Jeepers Creepers 1 & 2 : A New Halloween Favorite!

Jeepers Creepers. A name that doesn’t take itself seriously. Fitting for a monster that doesn’t take itself seriously. Yet, somehow, it was incredibly terrifying.

Jeepers Creepers:

The first movie was AMAZING! I loved it. It was funny. It was terrifying. Yet I found myself laughing at the most inappropriate of times. The monster is unlike any other I’ve ever seen created and he disturbed me. At first, I thought it was just this crazy car coming after this idiot of a brother and his sister who had a much better head on her shoulders. God, the decisions they made.. especially the brother.. made me roll my eyes. I was yelling at the tv and it was so much fun to talk with my sister watching and pick apart the things that they were doing. I don’t know what to call the monster in this film, but my God did it twist at my insides.

Just look how they designed this guy! Super creepy. I loved how he starts off looking like a man and slowly devolves to look more and more gross. The idea of him this creature that comes to feed for 23 days every 23rd spring. In some ways he’s part scarecrow part Dracula part demon. The way he picks his victims is the most spin-chilling of all. Sniffing them out to see if he wants to eat and have their parts for his own.

I loved the way they used the song in the first film. It is such a fun and cute song. Yet, I will never be able to hear that song the same again. It is now the definition of what halloween is to me. Deception, horror, fear, glamour, and the seduction to do the things that live in your darkest nightmares.

The first movie really pulls you in. It takes a while for things to fall into place and yet the pacing of it and how it makes you feel afraid is very simple. That’s something I really appreciate.

Jeepers Creepers 2:

The sequel was not as good as the first one, but it still had some of the elements that made the first movie great. The sequel tried to get more exciting about the way it showcased the horror elements. I still really enjoyed it.

This time it follows this huge group of high school kids on their way somewhere on the bus. They undergo the terror that is the Jeepers Creepers monster and things do not go well for them. There was still the funny elements. This monster plays with his food. He is one of the most sadistic and sick monsters I’ve ever seen on screen.

The one thing I enjoy about both movies is that the girls always have a much better handle on the situation then the boys. Honestly, my favorite scenes are the ones where a girl attacks that monster and it is so badass. In a world where girls are just beauty props in horror movies in this movie they are heroes and I really adore it.

I think the few things that were missing in the second movie that the first had really well was first of all the song, the second movie doesn’t play the song, the second thing being a story arc that isn’t just one main story, the third the sense of mystery that the first movie has.

However, there were some really great one-liners and enjoyable scenes in the second movie that made it stand on its own. It was fun to watch and I think that’s the most important thing.

In General:

The Jeepers Creepers movies are now a new horror favorite for me. They aren’t the poster child’s of amazing film, but they are really fun and genuinely scary to watch. There is a third movie that came out in 2017 that I hope to watch at some point. The original’s came out in 2001 and 2003. I expect that the way they decide to tell the third installment will have evolved quite a bit so I’m excited to see what they do with it. I love it when horror can make me equally afraid and grossed out, but also makes me laugh. These films are really fantastic to watch for general horror lovers and Halloween film searchers alike. This was an overall great experience.

I can’t end this with out leaving you all with the song that made the first film great:

https://youtu.be/1Obv-a0M7F4

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments! Are you watching any films to put you in the horror mood this halloween?

-Till next time!

Perks of Being A Wallflower: A Review

Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

My Rating: 5 Stars!

Cover Rating: 8/10 weirdly.. I really love this cover. It’s minimalist in a weird almost awkward way, but that really fits Charlie as a person. This cover just makes a lot of sense to me.

Publisher: MTV Books

Publish Date: February 1999

Number of Pages: 213

Received: Ebook gift from Andrew @Groovyglasses

Purchase: Amazon

Synopsis:

“Read the cult-favorite coming of age story that takes a sometimes heartbreaking, often hysterical, and always honest look at high school in all its glory. Also a major motion picture starring Logan Lerman and Emma Watson, The Perks of Being a Wallflower is a funny, touching, and haunting modern classic.

The critically acclaimed debut novel from Stephen Chbosky, Perks follows observant “wallflower” Charlie as he charts a course through the strange world between adolescence and adulthood. First dates, family drama, and new friends. Sex, drugs, and The Rocky Horror Picture Show. Devastating loss, young love, and life on the fringes. Caught between trying to live his life and trying to run from it, Charlie must learn to navigate those wild and poignant roller-coaster days known as growing up.

A #1 New York Times best seller for more than a year, an American Library Association Best Book for Young Adults (2000) and Best Book for Reluctant Readers (2000), and with millions of copies in print, this novel for teen readers (or “wallflowers” of more-advanced age) will make you laugh, cry, and perhaps feel nostalgic for those moments when you, too, tiptoed onto the dance floor of life.”

Opening Sentence:

” Dear Friend,

I am writing to you because she said you listen and understand and didn’t try to sleep with that person at that party even though you could have.”

Musings:

First of all, I can’t start this review without saying that this book was incredibly special to me. Not just because it was generally a really amazing book, but because it is the love of my life’s absolute favorite. I always wanted to read this book, but I’m really glad to not have had the opportunity till now, because reading it in the way I did felt really special. Discussing it all with him has been one of my favorite things ever.

What I Loved:

Charlie’s depression matches mine. Charlie isn’t suicidal. He is sad and quiet, but also doing his best to “participate”. Which is what I do. The thought spiraling he gets and the break downs and the pretty often bits of crying are all things I have. However, I’m lucky that I have a pretty good handle on it on my own. I haven’t had a major breakdown in a LONG time, but I used to get them more often then I’d like to admit.

How far the Wallflower description goes. Charlie is a Wallflower. He witnesses and he listens. He is ignored even in the most intense of circumstances. There is no other word that fits who he is as a person. However, I also really loved that it’s about the Perks of being a Wallflower, because it shows all that. The way Charlie thinks about a lot of things is SO beautiful. Even when he did something that frustrated me. Still, I appreciated a lot of how he saw the world.

This book is incredibly quotable. The one-liners and the thoughts were so beautiful that you can’t help, but become attached to certain lines.

“It’s strange because sometimes, I read a book, and I think I am the people in the book.”

“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.”

“And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope they feel it’s enough. I really do because they’ve made me happy. And I’m only one person.”

“please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough. And i will always believe the same about you.”

“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”


Honestly, this whole review could be just a post about my favorite Perks quotes. I adored just how beautifully this book was written.

The format. I had no idea that Perks was written in letter format before I started it. I loved how it felt very journalistic yet at the same time like Charlie is speaking to you. It made the story come together in a really different and really nice way.

Patrick. My favorite character by far was Patrick. He wasn’t the poster child of good behavior, but he was always himself. While reading, I worried about him a few times.. even over-reacted a bit. He was just so himself and funny and just an overall great person. I really liked his personality. I loved that a secondary character felt like they had a genuine personality.

Perks discusses the important things. Family, relationships, unhealthy relationships, friendship, mental health, sexual assault, etc. This book covers a lot of really great topics. It discusses the things many don’t want to talk about and it does it in a very careful and thought-provoking way.

Final thoughts:

If you haven’t read ‘Perks of Being a Wallflower’ I highly recommend you do so. It is well-worth the read. In a lot of ways it felt validating for me as someone who suffers from depression in the way Charlie does. I think that I would recommend it to everyone I know based off of that fact alone. I hope that everyone gives this beautiful little book a chance.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below.

-Till next time!

Watching Visage: Jackspeticeye Playthrough

disclaimer *Jack is playing an early access version so some of my criticism might be things that are fixed for the full game*

As a horror junkie, I try every year to watch the play throughs of the years most anticipated horror games. Jack’s thumbnail describes Visage as one of the most terrifying games in years, but sadly, I didn’t get scared once. Honestly, I think I’m immune to horror that is too complacent.. with little story. Basically, a spooky house with the rare ghostly appearance doesn’t do it for me. Plus, hearing jack struggle with controls and the weird storage system brought me out of it. For the first time, a game gave me a headache with all the camera flashing. I had to stop watching after a while.

I was thrown off a lot because while there is a small bit of story the nuggets were too small and while I get that they were trying not to overdo things I honestly think that it made it feel underdeveloped. It felt like the player had to do too much tedious things with very little direction and in the end there didn’t feel like a real point to it.

I don’t know maybe I’m a little spoiled when it comes to horror. I’m really passionate about the horror games I’ve watched in the past that I think were so well done. Games like Until Dawn, doki doki literature club, Resident evil 7, outlast, and the amnesia games. In light of those.. each with moments that terrified me to the point of me jumping and throwing my phone.. except doki doki.. that’s more psychological horror. Visage didn’t scare me at any point. I feel bad. I really wanted it to be good, but I could not get into it. Sadly this game is not my cup of tea.

I would go on, but the thing is I’ve pretty much covered everything. That makes me really sad to say. Watching this is watching a lot of opening drawers and a lot of picking up items and a lot of imagining things happening and little small cheap horror cliches that are freaky in real life, but I’m tired of seeing them in so many movies and horror games. I appreciate what they were trying to do I really do, but for me it didn’t work. I’m sadly pretty disappointed.

Thanks for reading! What are some of your favorite horror games? Let me know your thoughts down in the comments below!

-Till next time!

Things I Want to Do: Next Halloween

This goes for next Halloween and all future Halloween’s. There are so many things I’ve dreamt of doing and I’m excited to one day fulfill all of my Halloween bucket list items!

1. Work as a monster at six flags/knotts

Look at how cool these monsters look! To embody someone no something else for a whole month.. terrifying people.. having a blast. I’d LOVE to have this job. I’m not the type of person to pull pranks on people (mostly because that’s an easy way to get punched in my family.. it’s a knee jerk reaction..) but having someone put gore all over my face and get all dressed up and being able to get reactions out of people in the name of a good time sounds fantastic to me.

2. Knott’s scary farm.. the all access way

This is an expensive endeavor, but not as expensive as say.. wanting to go to Coachella.. which is only a few days. All I want is to have an entire October where I can go every single night to Knott’s Scary Farm and enjoy every single ride and every maze and experience they have to offer. It’s more ambitious then wanting to work as a monster, but I want to experience both sides fully. I haven’t been to Knott’s scary farm since I was little and I think my mom has some video from the experience, but now that I’m older.. I want to go in the mazes and see all the shows and just experience everything. Actually, at $150 bucks if I went every single night that would be like paying $6 bucks per night for an all access experience which is actually really affordable if you think about it. I pay more just to eat out. Anyway, one year that’s what I want to do.

3. Visit the Queen Mary

This is a more manageable goal. The Queen Mary is known for being actually haunted, but the fact that they do mazes on a ship environment adds some extra fun. They usually do a circus maze which is the one I want to see. One year I saw on CNN the monsters they have doing these really cool acrobatics and I don’t know how scared I’d get I’d just be so fascinated by everything.

4. Universal Horror Nights

I want to do this for American Horror Story and that’s just about it. Horror nights is notorious for a TON of chain saws.. I HATE chainsaws.. that is the one thing that scares me when I go to any sort of freight night. They have them all over especially because of The Purge stuff and I can’t deal with that, but I will in the name of AHS. I can rationalize everything else.. I can’t rationalize chain saws for some reason.

5. Creep LA

This is an experience. Part show.. mostly walkthrough.. it’s intimate and 75 minutes long. This is the kind of experience that I know can actually freak me out. More then a maze where I’m with several people and feel a little bit more protected. Only 25 people can experience it at a time. It’s one of those once in a lifetime type things.

6. An escape room

Ever since I’ve heard of escape rooms I’ve wanted to try one, but a spooky escape room sounds like extra fun! Puzzles with an added pressure mixed in sound like a really good time.

7. Visiting an Actual Haunted place overnight

I really want to visit a place known for actually being haunted and stay overnight. Just for the sake of experiencing the feel of a place like that. I don’t know if I would actually experience anything actually, but being in the environment.. walking hallways where some really messed up things happened sounds like a unique experience. Even just for the history. It would be really cool to write about. Who knows? It could inspire a really great book!

8. Halloween Pumpkin Festival

This is one of the most wholesome things I want to do for Halloween. There are some nice little pumpkin festivals that go on and picking out a pumpkin to maybe carve later sounds like a simple and enjoyable experience.

9. Wicked Lit

Located in a cemetery where you walk through and watch different theatre productions from horror literature. It’s a really well produced and sounds like an awesome experience.

10. Watching a scary film at the movies on October 31st

This year the horror films to choose from are The Nun (which I STILL need to see) and Hell Fest (which I know NOTHING about). Well technically you might be able to add Venom to this because if you’ve seen how they decided to design Venom.. you’d see that he is more then a little horrifying. Anyway, one year I really want to watch a horror film or two at the movies on October 31st. It really doesn’t matter to me what movie (I’m a horror film junkie). Making my top 10 favorite horror movies post I realized I watch WAY more horror movies then I thought. Anyway, I think this would be a lot of fun.

Thanks for reading! To those who have been with me for a long while.. the sheer amount I adore Halloween might come as a surprise. I just hadn’t shared that part of me on here yet. I’m honestly down for pretty much anything halloween related if I’m asked to go do something. Halloween is pretty much on equal footing with Christmas in my mind. I think I might actually have more enjoyable memories of Halloween then Christmas.

Leave your thoughts down in the comments below! What experiences do you want to have on Halloween?

-Till next time!

Watching Death Note: The Netflix Version

On October 2nd, I decided it was a good time to watch a movie on Netflix because it would be the last day I would have it. So I chose Death Note. I loved the anime when I watched it way back and I thought why not?

I think that making such an epic anime and trying to condense it into a movie length was a bit of a mistake. It missed so much of what made Death note so good. If I had watched the movie without knowing what the anime was like, I probably would have enjoyed it so much more, but knowing the anime, this version of it felt like a pale comparison.

I couldn’t even get into the way they designed Ryuk. They could have gone in a much better direction with the way they designed his face.

Is it scary? Yes. But they made it look more cartoonish then the anime.. I don’t know how? They tried for realism and got the opposite. I look at Ryuk and I get taken out of the story because I don’t really believe that he would look like this.

The biggest issue I had with this movie however.. is that it white-washes a story very much set in Japanese culture. It white-washed the whole thing and it wasn’t good as a movie at all. Yeah, some of the visuals were interesting. But the whole story was lost. The culture of Death Note and everything that made it great was striped away.

We don’t need another white guy playing the role that’s meant to be Japanese or any other culture. There is too much of that. I don’t have anything against the actors themselves, but who decided to do so in the first place. From that moment on.. the whole entire story was ruined. They could have made a much better story if they’d decided to hire people that are actually Japanese and care about Japanese culture and want to tell the story right.

So.. instead of watching Death Note on Netflix, I’m going to see if I can watch the 2006 version of the movie that is done right.

Something I would have done in the first place if I had known. It’s so nice to look at this poster and feel that L looks like L.. If I can find and watch this maybe I’ll do another post on the Japanese version of the movie.

Thanks for reading! Let me know your thoughts down in the comments.

-Till next time!

My Dad: An Update

So yesterday was an overall great day. I started my Halloween playlist. Went to work, at the end blasted out Disney songs and sang along with my coworker. I even danced a bit (which I do at home more often now, but at work I try not to).

However, how good the day was, was a miracle. Before work my sister told me that through a recent blood test that my dad indeed has cancer. Even if I already suspected. Already pretty much knew. It devastated me.

My dad is 70 years old. His health hasn’t been good for a long while now and I’m afraid that because of how long everything has taken to diagnose that.. it might be too late. I hope that it isn’t, but honestly I know that the whole thing is entirely out of my hands. All I can do is pray. All I can do is try to enjoy the moments I have right now.

My dad doesn’t know yet. He won’t know until probably the next visit. I don’t think it’s going to go well. I wish this wasn’t what was happening right now.

And I can’t stop moving forward. I can’t stop working. If he passed.. I couldn’t stop working. I’m stuck. I hate thinking about these things, but I can’t ignore them. I don’t have much of a choice.

So for now, I’m just taking things one day at a time. Like I always have. It’s truly all I can do. If you can keep my family in your prayers.. or if you don’t believe send well-wishes.. thoughts.. anything really.

Recently, I’ve been really really lucky. I’ve had a lot of good people come into my life. I found the love of my life. I feel more mentally stable then I ever have. In the wake of one of the most difficult times ever I am doing ok. The road ahead is going to be really really difficult, but I am so grateful that I have such a wonderful community there for me through it all.

Thanks for reading! I wish this could have been good news. I really do. The only way to go is forward.

-Till next time!